Forgotten / twirl - how easy to be a roving corolla; to be the left wing of a butterfly, fluttering through a garden of memories, infest by thistles, infest by whatever the gun left behind. last week, a chapel was invaded & all present left a landmark of a crimson river. in my calligraphy, every letter is a florid stain of a body, rippling & forming a col. in this poem, everything is all about grief. i heard memories are the biological father of pain, often tearing into your mind. & i don't know how to sift pain out of this body / to sift myself from this lack of wilting something calories. but i do know that to sieve myself will touch this little cornflower, hiding behind the bars of my ribs. so i hide myself, beside the grave of a mother, whose chest form a cladding for me during a gun battle. & this is not the first time i reel to this point. my aims were clear: to see if a bluebell lush will sprout from her grave. / to see if the requiem of her portrait will revolve again. but every night i revisit, night respond with a rhetorical silence. & i thought everything is gone. i thought the refulgent of my hope has wreck into this night. i thought that the myth that proclaim spirits wear the moon to see their love ones have effect, & my mother, wreck into a black indigo of nothingness. this night, i filch out again. the tarmac roads so attentive that they echo my footsteps & i feel i was turning a knob of something, feral. same - the moon went into extinction. & i break my toe on a gravestone. i knew this mother was warning me to stop obstructing her sleep / to stop trucking back to memories. so i left everything on a flower - a rose flower - i drop on the top. i left every memory there & walk out - walk out of the repose; walk into a life still shredding people like a deciduous tree. one day - someday - i, too, will be forgotten this way. Springs - Heaven's Droplets Every dawn, I revolve into a garden of meadows. At this point, the grass have recoil in warm bathe from heaven. To walk there will enthrall one in a svelte, to always refurbish after a bedevil life. Once, I was a boy praying that the miry of lack - poverty - sinking my family will be dry. Heaven knows how much I scrolls this prayer before their tablecloth. Even before this poem was birth & bath, I was on a rusty way to the brook chapel to wash my family's curse, milk on garbs. My foot, clashing against the pebbles. That means, troubles. That means, the way to cleanliness is a sanguinary & needs something red to rewash itself. That means, everything wants to wash itself all the memories, sticking on a hairy skin. Here, if you don't wash yourself, you are a walking corpse, carrion. You are leprosy, nobody will wish to clash. So I take my buta* & refill it with the springs left in the well - getting gabby. I know if I must blush like the grass, I must wet this body; flux out everything that makes me ooze rancid breath before God. So I pray, my head on the mat, that: God, give me this heavenly springs, before I wilt & twirl. Buta: it means a little kettle, use by Muslim to do absolution. Wrecking After Chibueze Obunadike, how to eat a father's sin anytime my father chap a tree, i carve the former & the aftermath. how i will come to miss the tree & the fruit it produce. how the leaves, forming a debris on the floor, will etch grief on my brain. to eat a father's sin is to take a kola from my father's palm & chew: my teeth, browning like his. how i look old from the way i munch. he do tell me how much his grandfather love to break a lobe daily & offer him one. after his dead, responsibility were shred to each child to wash the debts his father left behind. & that debilitates him, sweeps him into the stream of solitude. where i come from, we are living in claustrophobic hamlet & everyone fears, debts spread like flood & enclose every home. my father once gargle a palm gourd of about a future & i was the collateral. in another, he induce an urchin & the street knows me for trudging. & now my father chaps a tree, a fecund tree which i will spent days, drudging to breath life to the scion faggots. Grievous monologue I & there was rain. A voice from heaven telling me I must bath in its springs, if I want to be clean. If I want to be free from all grievous cobwebs, stitching to my reins. II How easily to be swindle. I mean, find a rhetorical & watch yourself sway with the wind. I was woo by the wind, a breath from grief & I inhale more than enough. There's always a releasing whenever I exhale & heaviness anytime I inhale. III In this part of the earth, I have watch people live with grief as a cloth & call it a souvenir from God. All their effort to erode the threads is merely a daily routine - I mean: wash, dry & rewear into the same agony. & I have heard one asks: what is the use of shaving when another hairs will regrow? IV I walk into a basilica one time in August. The heavens were reseating all their tears into clouds, & waiting for a moment to sieve them out. I met the pastor, whose teeth preach peace; preach gnawing - meaning, come unto me & I will chew your problems like cola. I biography my life, in a way a screed will be needed. But he mustify his mist, shook a loom at me. He said my problem is a rock he can't chew. Said my problem is a train, driving to its location, of which a mere wedge can't clog. I swallow them back, into a belly & wobble, my mind hobbling. V What can I do to eradicate this grief infusing into my biography like an inevitable comma? There's more to life that just procuring a solution. What can I do to soften this grief for my body bearing the burden? Will you teach me, hummingbird? How you carry a message without thrumming a jeremiad? I want to be the next eulogy in the mouth of wind, to inhale & not feel heaviness. So Lord, I am in Your sanctuary with Hannah. My lips, rarely splitting. My heart, sacred to Matthew 11:28. Soften my yoke now before I break into shards. A Friday I Hold A Mist Of My Uncle Friday is a of solemn prayer in my mouth. Chibueze Obunadika Still skinny as ever, my uncle stretch himself over the mat that was soon to carry his back into a night that will have no voice or light. My uncle said it's a way of keeping the mat holy, that when it bedriddens him, fire will not gush from inferno to carpet the mat; but music from alujuna. On days when he laid himself on the mat as though the walls were a god & he was kissing his feet, I question him on why he must murmur words into the air. He would say, to kiss the air before the air kiss him goodbye. I swear, I saw this obliging homesickness as schizophrenia carving out of his mind, when insomnia seize sleep as hostage. He said it this night & his voice was thin, as if tilting on something that was soon to let it go. Night flood down with a filming lunar, perforating our curtain. & his voice was like an organ, about to complete a hymn. He draws me, so close, our breaths - sultry & wintry, entwining, on a mat. He said: when my breath freeze to flux, let me dwell with my prayer mat, my holy mat. A rendition to Abiku, when harmattan scarified our skins. there's a cry inside: first joy; then death morphing the green leaf to yellow & twirl. outside there's breeze. outside, there's wheeze of pain & ferric chloride agony. dear Abiku, i see your star(dom) how it trails with the mockingbirds to scorn our last hope. how the owls carrying your voice, saying: arise, there's no antidote to the plague. ____________________ i wake up this morning & your face stride past like a firefly in my eyes. i know i have anew wedge to lift - pain, something uneasy to bypass. outside, the family sits again to decide how the placenta will not regrow in the woman's womb, to birth Abiku again. & i know this method is mouth: once the words windfall, they will dried like spittle. outside, the breeze is blowing again. outside, the walls & skins are being scarified from the breath of Abiku.
Synchronized Chaos July 2022: Tension and Solace
Welcome to July’s first issue of Synchronized Chaos!
This month’s issue explores themes of tension and solace.
Are there unavoidable sources of tension in life, and is a life without anxiety even desirable? Where can we find solace and peace when we need them? Where do we need to maintain a certain level of awareness and vigilance?
Satis Shroff comments on the continuing human cost of Russia’s war with Ukraine. Steven Croft reflects on how soldiers and civilians endure the other armed conflicts around the world.
Jelvin Gipson expresses through a fable the need for wisdom to prevent endangering oneself or committing hasty acts of violence. James Whitehead’s poetry speaks to the impact of reproductive legislation and sexual assault on women’s lives.
Richard LeDue and John Thomas Allen highlight moments of humor and beauty found within hospital settings, where patients make the most of their encounters with illness and injury.
Ike Boat reports firsthand on a destructive flood in Amanful, Ghana. Stephen Jarrell Williams explores themes of society’s end and nature’s rejuvenation.
Closer to home, Yusuf Olumoh seeks comfort in the sea and solitude after the loss of his parents. Linda Crate describes the recovery of one’s self after an unbalanced relationship, while Scott Strozier illustrates the need for maintaining relationships and how they stay intact or fall apart. Shakhzoda Kodirova’s short story highlights the importance of maintaining our natural and human communities.
Andrew MacDonald’s poetry captures the moments that may seem fleeting or mundane, but which cement relationships.
Thadeus Emanuel comments on change and creativity in nature and in a writer’s mind, and how our creativity and relationships can be derailed by hypocrisy and deceit.
Candace Meredith’s short story illustrates the horror of not only the monster attack its protagonist survives, but of how she’s completely alone in her perception of danger.
Linda Hibbard expresses ambivalence about change and progress: will making things different make them better? Mahbub’s poems draw on dual meanings: bridges between the past and present, symbols that can represent multiple concepts.
Doug Hawley explores the limits, nuances, and paradoxes of personal and political freedom.
Peter Crowley humorously dramatizes various sorts of literal and metaphorical birth pains, looking at the cost of different sorts of creation.
Jason Ryberg contributes vignettes of middle America looking into the drama of ordinary life and little moments of grace or annoyance, while Peter Cherches dramatizes an unexpectedly familiar encounter with jazz great Mingus.
John Sweet shares the ways in which many ordinary people in middle America can become stuck in life, left behind in modern Western society.
Mark Young’s amusing poetry explores the different sorts of “deliveries” we receive in life while Debarati Sen waxes poetic about the joy and beauty of the plethora of words and figures of speech available to all of us.
Ian Copestick’s narrators simply check out of their ordinary lives, using whatever means are available to them. Jack Galmitz delves into a photograph of a man cooking at a barbecue who’s deeply engaged in what he’s doing.
John Edward Culp sends in a somewhat ineffable piece on transcendent travel by means of light, while Diana Magallon contributes a mixed media meditation on discordance. Alan Catlin’s Southern Gothic poetic landscapes, after Sally Mann’s visual art, immerse us in the murky history of swamps and American Civil War battles.
Jim Meirose relates a piece with humor, charm, and dialect while Nathan Anderson breaks language down to syllable and syntax and nonlinguistic symbol.
J.J. Campbell captures the wisdom and cynicism of older age, while Santiago Burdon’s tale of teen angst and athletic shoes humorously reminds us there are times to keep our mouths shut.
Gaurav Ojha also encourages us to quiet down. He says we’ll find wisdom when we stop thinking and speaking and directly experience and learn from life, whether a beautiful sunset or a dentist appointment.
Michael Robinson and Sayani Mukherjee reflect upon the spiritual solace and comfort they find through the faiths of their heritages. Chimezie Ihekuna’s poem reminds us of the spiritual meaning of Christmas as a holiday with a message we can reflect on all year.
Matthew Defibaugh and Christina Chin’s collaborative poetry presents images of gentle movement within nature. K.J. Hannah Greenberg’s set of bird photographs illustrate and comment on the variety of ways we as humans coexist with and treat other species.
Thank you for reading this first July issue of Synchronized Chaos. May it invite you to ponder, consider, and engage with the writers’ and artists’ work.
Poetry from Gaurav Ojha
Nirvana Gaurav Ojha There is no way out From the prisonhouse of language As long as we keep on hanging To symbols without content imprinted on our neurons We are the self that exists without reference of its own Assumption of a thinker hiding behind a thought A drop of rain separated from a cloud for the ripple on lake There is no still point that holds things together We are living a dream with a dream We have been speaking too much Let us put aside these tedious monologues And, listen to the silence of non-human existence It takes us beyond the meaning humans have made Why remain as a burden to our brains? Humans exist, therefore the denial of reality What is it like to live without our stabilizing assumptions? We have ideas for everything Our heads have become so weighty For the respite from this headache Take a dip into constant toothache of existence No need for a great renunciation Even as we embrace our illusions We can still become a Buddha on the dental chair No need to glue the self together for a social protocol Discompose your desires, identifications and memories As nothingness of being overflows, the self empties (KATHMANDU, NEPAL)
Poetry from Nathan Anderson
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Bio: Nathan Anderson is a poet from Mongarlowe, Australia. He is the author of Mexico Honey, The Mountain + The Cave and Deconstruction of a Symptom. His work has appeared in BlazeVox, Otoliths, Selcouth Station and elsewhere. You can find him at nathanandersonwriting.home.blog or on Twitter @NJApoetry.
Short story from Santiago Burdon
Converse Black Label Gym Shoes My mother possessed an arsenal of proverbs, idioms and cliches, which she used to comment on almost every situation. I became increasingly annoyed with her trite statements that never actually answered a question or solved a problem. Just some pointless remarks that didn't offer a solution. Let me give you a couple of examples so you have a better understanding. "Mom, I don't know what to buy with my birthday money?" I'd ask. "A fool and his money are soon parted." She'd answer. After getting mixed up in some trouble. "I promise it won't happen again mom. I'm sorry." "A leopard can't change his spots." You get the idea. I think she felt it made her appear educated by using them in conversation. I always respected my mother and loved her dearly. I just couldn't take listening to any more worn out, unoriginal and overused sayings that I didn't consider clever or helpful. I desperately needed Gym Shoes for my Physical Education class in High School. I had worn a pair of wrestling shoes handed down from my older brother during Junior High School that were two sizes too big. I was razzed and teased by my classmates constantly. The worst part was having to wear them at dances held in the Gym. No " Street Shoes" on the wood court floor. There's a huge disadvantage being the youngest boy in a family with three older brothers. Besides being told what to do all the time, getting pushed around or being pummeled whenever they felt like it, most of my clothes were hand me downs. Occasionally my mother would even sneak underwear my brothers had worn into my dresser drawer. I became wise to her high jinx and I threw them in the garbage. I seldom received new clothes which didn't bother me all that much because shopping for clothes with my mother was torture. Her fashion sense was trapped in the fifties. There wouldn't be any tie-dyed or paisley shirts, bell bottom jeans or pointed toe shoes if she was buying. I always ended up looking like Beaver Cleaver or Opie Taylor. I waited for the perfect moment to approach my mother with my request for new gym shoes. The old man left with my sister over to my grandparent's house. My older brothers were gone leaving just her and I in the house. I asked if she needed help preparing dinner. She accepted my offer although with a hint of suspicion. " Yes, that would be wonderful. Could you cut up some carrots, celery, tomatoes and cucumbers for the salad? And while you're doing that you can tell me what you've wanted to ask me all day. Don't cut off your fingers, be careful." There was no pulling one over on my mother; she had honed her skills from raising my three older brothers. " Mom, I really need gym shoes for P.E. I'd like a new pair of my own that fit me. Please." " What's wrong with the shoes you have now? You didn't seem to have a problem with them in Junior High." " Mom, they're wrestling shoes, they get dirty real quick and they're two sizes too big. I gotta stuff 'em with socks or toilet paper to make 'em fit. I can't run or jump and do stuff while wearing them." " Honey, I'm not sure we can afford them right now. I just paid for your brother's high school class ring. And the dentist bill came due as well." I expected her to use that excuse and I had prepared for such an answer. " Mom, I've saved nine dollars from my birthday and from mowing lawns. We can use that and you can help pay the difference. Please mom, I really need gym shoes." I whined. "I don't want you to have to use your own money. Let me think about it and mention it to your father." " Well I need them on Monday or I'm not going to class. I'll take the demerit and detention.I'm not wearing those wrestling shoes and let people make fun of me. I put up with it all through junior high and am not going to do it again." I screamed. My anger was getting the best of me. Then it happened, she did the one thing that sent me into a complete raging maniac. " Listen to me. I cried because I had no shoes and then I met a man with no feet." She preached. "Oh ya, well I'd ask the man with no feet for his shoes since he didn't need them." I hollered. "What the fuck does that have to do with what we're talking about?" I had completely lost it. The words just spilled out of my mouth without thinking about what I was yelling. I could see the result of my tirade in my mother's face. " What did you say? Who do you think you're talking to mister? Don't you get fresh with me! You will treat me with respect. Do you understand? I never want to hear that kind of language out of your mouth again. I don't appreciate your response to my proverb. You know that verse is in the Bible, Jesus Christ said it." There it was, whenever she needed to validate a statement or fact the Bible was the source from where it originated. Then adding that Jesus had said it meant it was an irrefutable fact. I wasn't going to contradict her statement although I knew the proverb wasn't in the Bible and Jesus never said it. All it would do is piss her off even more and I was already in deep shit. . It wasn't often when my mother became angry, but when she did the heavens would shake. "You've really crossed the line Santiago. If I told your father about this he'd make sure you never used that word in this house again." "I'd appreciate it if you didn't tell him. Besides I picked up the word from him. It's one of his favorites and he uses it for everything. I'm really sorry for saying that mom. Just lost my temper and took it out on you. Please forgive me. " "To err is human, to forgive is divine." She lectured. Did she really just say that? Throwing gasoline on the fire. Now she's got me doing it. No! I was one step closer to insanity. "Are you finished there? Why don't you go to your room and think about what you did. Go on." " Mom I'm fourteen years old and you're sending me to my room? Don't you think I'm too old for that kind of punishment?" "You get to your room right this minute. Don't you start disobeying me. I'll call you for dinner. Now go young man." Sure I'm a young man and she's sending me to my room. I thought it was ridiculous to send me there with my TV, record player, radio, games and books. What a harsh punishment. "And no TV, music or games. Read a book." She hollered up the stairs. " No wait, no reading books either. I forgot you like that." "Can I do my homework that's due on Monday?" " Yes, that's good. Do your homework. I'll call you for dinner in a couple of hours." " Thanks mom." "Your father just pulled into the driveway." "Mom please don't…" "Don't worry, I'll keep it between us " " I dashed over to the heat vent connected to the dining room to listen to what was being said. "Where's Judge?" "Did you buy them and in the right size?" "Yes I did." " He's upstairs doing his homework. And look at you Jocelyn, did you get new shoes? How pretty." I heard my mother say. My sister got new shoes. What the hell is going on? I have to beg and plead for a new pair of gym shoes that are required for school and my sister gets shoes instead. Of course that sounds about right. I was thoroughly pissed off but there was nothing I could do about the injustice I was subjected to by this family. Why is everyone so hard on me? I can't get a break. I woke up to my brother shaking me and slapping my face. "Get up, squirt, time for dinner." "Okay, I'm awake, stop slapping me asshole." "Let's go. And just to warn you the Dad is in a pissed off mood. So be careful. You hear me?" "Ya thanks for the heads up." I sat down at the table while my mother was talking. "And Santiago helped with dinner and made the salad." "Why, what'd he do wrong?" My brother George commented. "I'll have everything except the salad." My sister said. Everyone began to laugh. I had just loaded my plate with manicotti and red sauce when the Old Man started his line of questioning. "So Judge, your mother told be that…" She ratted me out to the Old Man after she said she wouldn't. Damn it that just isn't fair. I figured it was best to confess so I'd have a chance to explain. " It was an accident. I didn't mean to yell and swear at her. I lost my temper and it just came out. I told her I was sorry and would never use the word again. I feel horrible about what I did." "What in the hell are you talking about? I was going to say I bought you some new gym shoes, Converse Black Label Gym Shoes. Now what did you call your mother?" "He didn't call me anything. He used profanity when he became upset, that's all." Mom said in my defense. " I told you I'd keep it between us and wouldn't say anything. Now you went and opened Pandora's box." On top of my screw up she had to add an idiom. "I don't know what's going on here . But could you at least say thank you and tell me you like them." The Old Man said. He handed me a shoebox but my brother intercepted it handing it off to the other then to my sister then to my mother. She got up and walked to me with the shoebox. She gave me a kiss and the whole table erupted in a taunting chorus of awe. "Sometimes Santiago you are your own worst enemy." She whispered. "Oh hell yes. Converse Black Label Gym Shoes! Thanks mom and you too." I said looking at the Old Man. "I'm gonna try 'em on now!" "Did he say hell yes?" The Old Man asked.
Poetry from John Sweet
self-portrait in tar and words aren’t actions, and prayer is as meaningless as regret the temperature is a nervous stutter between rain and snow the town is a vast expanse of empty parking lots, of grey shot through with crushed plastic and dead leaves i have wasted my life i am afraid of growing old and dying in front of my children i am afraid of growing old and dying in the end we are only something subtracted from nothing the drowning years it’s always the same stupid shit, always these self-inflicted wounds his 15 year-old girlfriend pregnant, the asshole from the barfight in a coma and not expected to live but brenda laughs, says why not dead-end job at the minimart and her boyfriend doing six months in county, and he says his stepfather has a place down in north carolina tells her he’s had a crush on her since middle school, and she asks if it’s gonna be a boy or a girl and he says he doesn’t want to know doesn’t really give a shit one way or the other, and she nods tells him she needs to leave a note for her sister needs to feed the dog small, ordinary acts to help her feel like she’s moving into the future the forest of the profane early autumn frost in the shadows of sunlit buildings, all blue sky and junkie dreams man walking past you says he’s got god in his veins says there are other versions of hell that have nothing to do with faith, and his smile is filled with blood this town is where i live but it’s not my home this idea of judas as scapegoat needs to be reconsidered despair is a sickness not a weapon but it will always be used by tyrants to beat you down will you suffer the first blow or will you burn down the castle? will you set the gospel aside and hear the truth instead? all choices come to an end when the dog you fail to praise decides to take your tongue as his own skeleton afternoon this is the man with no eyes who tells me he pities my blindness this is the party to celebrate the death of the deathless kingdom i fuck his wife in the back seat of someone else’s car or he seduces my daughter before they both disappear a stalemate a gun for every starving child so they can all grow up safe even here in this cramped and sullen space between disposable gods we are all someone’s enemy notes on ideology good times in the suicide factory down on your hands and knees swallow the cock or swallow the barrel, and how many choices do you really need? how many lives are you planning on screwing up other than your own? goddamn kids gotta grow up sooner or later, i guess can’t be sucking at their mother’s tit forever they need to know they’re useless need to know how much blood is required to solve each problem, and maybe you have to smack them around a little to drive your point home maybe a house gets burned to the ground, maybe a car gets stolen or some fifteen year-old girl from the trailer park out at the edge of town gets knocked up, but this shit happens every day you fuck or you get fucked you walk or you crawl a lifetime of meaningless rules and blown chances, and then you die and the story ends the body is found, but how do we get there? same goddamn way every time 14 yr old girl sits on her bed, curtains pulled, father’s gun, instructions on her laptop screen knowledge is power, right? puts the muzzle to her head and pulls the trigger, and so turn the music up a little louder send flowers bring shovels a lot of bodies left to be buried before this part of the story ends halcyon tired of being so fucking old, and tired of all the goddamn years i wasted tired of being on the wrong coast or not being able to forget your face of everything i write sounding like a suicide note
Poetry from Mahbub
The Padma Bridge The moon has risen in the dreamy sky of us From Mawa to Janjira you dreamt of Linking the two parts over the river Padma 25 June 2022, the plan got established It blazed the light on the dark river Long waited love came to light Joining the south and western part of the country to Dhaka city Facing the challenge we once had for freedom in 1971 Our great leader Bangobandhu Sheikh Mujibur Rahman handled the leadership His fittest daughter Sheikh Hasina, our prime minister Just proved how brave she is in her heart and fruitful her merit! The Padma Bridge provided us all to live in connection Mitigating the needs from one part of the river to everywhere in speed. Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh 28/06//2022 Fire Fire is in, fire is out The heart is firing for sex On the other it's firing in love Look! the bodies are firing in the container depot fire at Chattogram In some distance the body is fired on suicide The sun-burnt eyes are firing in terror On the other some are firing in anger or pain Some are firing for the absence of the lovers or beloveds The garments factories are firing with bodies of the workers Plastic warehouses containing hazardous chemicals At Nimtota of Chawkbazar in Old Dhaka fired hundreds of lives Some are firing with the neighbors to win the fight Some are smiling with fire Over the glory of entering into world unknown Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh 28/06//2022