Poetry from Taryn Allan

Twilight’s Pale Reverse

The borrowed time of a hotel room

(‘It’s the nearest thing to pretending you’re dead’)

Smoking is a distraction

The smouldering cigarette end

A last star beneath the foredawn

Outcast to outcast

Neither relishing the coming hours

His head is the maquette of a skull

Gaining depth within the sculptural 

Antechamber of his hands

As twilight’s pale reverse 

Blisters into day

(‘Oh god, not another one’)

What god lacked in variety

The restless mind feels in malaise

Hell is only the endless now

An impossibly diminishing sameness 

(‘And on the seventh day god rested,

And the eighth day drifted free,

And every iteration thereafter’)

Nothing at the End of the Day
 

Walking beneath the black bandage of night

I can feel the memories 

Seeping through

The wounds of the waking world

As the first light of day threatens

To cauterise in reverse

I look up at where the stars should be

And consider leaving them behind

Funny how easily eternity 

Can be overcome 

If you really try

It’s an Inferno Out There
 

We were quick to express our sorrow

When the city skyline burned

To show solidarity in the face of disaster

As we gathered to watch the flames

Eating away at the facades

Exposing ourselves to the cancerous dust

Which filled the air like regret

A violent pornography

We took home for later

‘I never thought something like this could happen here’

A fellow onlooker said

Admitting to a life spent looking the other way

To a community extending no further than sight

The violence has always been here

Behind every door and curtain

A rage in thermal runaway

Which can never be put out

With bruises worn like scorch marks

Licked by flames of wayward desire

Ghostland

The fluorescent tube light strobes the shadows

With the jagged pulse of a heart monitor patient after the assault

A safety measure against the imminent dark

Down this shambles of an alleyway

Its broken cadence indicative of our failure

To inhabit the alien worlds we created

The indecipherable morse-code of that light

Keeps me awake, reminding me

Of the old BBC idents

When each new programme seemed preceded by

The ghostly chiming resonance

Of an angel’s wings in flight

When I was too young to understand

The images which followed as anything other

Than reports from a realm I could not understand

During the day the light is an annoyance 

Somewhere between a lightning strike and a migraine 

Once the night settles it reveals itself entirely

As just another human idea

Losing the battle against the dark

A Certain Kind of Happiness

‘It’s not altogether darkness’

So Malcolm Lowry said

Dictating into the echo-chamber

Between the bottom of two bottles

It’s a sentiment I stand beside

True, we’ve crucified ourselves at every opportunity

Made martyrs to our own misery

But there’s a stoicism to that

A street-level setting of the face against the wind

Like the brief moment of joy the fetishist feels

Before he’s choked into oblivion

Taryn Allan scribbles things into notebooks. Occasionally, these scribblings coalesce and have been known to appear in such places as the Horror Writers Association’s Poetry Showcase, Horror Sleaze Trash, A Thin Slice of Anxiety, The Beatnik Cowboy, The Pixelated Shroud and Disturb the Universe Magazine, amongst others.

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