Synchronized Chaos Second October Issue: What Will We Carry Forward?

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First, an announcement. Our regular contributor Rui Carvalho invites readers and contributors to submit poetry to the next annual Nature Writing Contest.

Our contest, Nature 2025-2026, is a new opportunity that we, as organizers, create to reach the rest of the world. Every Contest is a challenge for authors participating and to people that make it happen. This year we invite all authors to write poetry about:
(i) Flowers;
(ii) Trees and wind;
(iii) Water;
(iv) Nature Conservation;
(v) Turtles;
(vi) Love for people and nature;
(vii) Hope and Happiness.

Rules and submission information here.

Now, for this issue. There are moments when the world seems to be asking a single question in a hundred different languages: What will we carry forward?

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We inherit bodies and cities, languages and technologies, griefs and gardens, family stories and national histories. We inherit wars we did not begin and forms of love we did not invent. Yet inheritance is never merely passive. Each generation must decide what deserves preservation, what requires transformation, and what must finally be left behind. Across this extraordinarily varied collection of poetry, fiction, essays, criticism, interviews, visual art, and scholarship, that act of choosing becomes a common human task. Whether the subject is artificial intelligence, flowers, domestic violence, potatoes, punk zines, cybersecurity, mothers, jazz, education, or death itself, these contributors ask what remains when the world changes—and what we can make from what remains.

Soumen Roy provides an apt beginning by imagining life as something crafted, chiseled as though we ourselves were sculptures. Mistakes and struggles do not disqualify us from beauty; they become part of the material from which the work is made. Lan Xin approaches the same resilience through love, refusing the idea that love exists only when another person gives it to us. Love can be chosen and preserved inwardly, becoming one of the forces that keeps the soul alive. Biswanath Kar’s blue butterfly similarly makes the fragile beautiful: its delicate form becomes an emblem of the poet’s own longing soul. And Brian Barbeito raises flowers beyond decoration, making them a bridge between cultivated and wild existence, humanity and divinity, ordinary perception and transcendence.

Dilxiroj Yangiboyeva’s dream poem also finds meaning in flowers and in caring for others, while Christina Margeti uses natural imagery to turn grief and longing into something elemental and enduring. Toya L. Walker expands this ecological language into a philosophy of regeneration. The garden’s cycles of growth, decay, and renewal become instructions for living: if we want life to continue, we must care for its conditions, including our bodies and relationships. Nidia Amelia García reminds us who performs some of the most literal forms of this work, honoring the farmers and peasants whose labor feeds the world.

Yet what we cultivate is not only biological. We cultivate minds, skills, institutions, and futures. Madina Mirzayeva looks toward Uzbekistan’s youth and the role they can play in digital education. Ibragimova Bikajon Ergash qizi examines technology’s transformation of the Uzbek potato industry, while Sherzod Suvonov considers how accounting knowledge and artificial intelligence might modernize Uzbekistan’s financial and tax systems and prepare professionals for a data-driven economy. Suvonov also approaches AI from another, more intimate direction, demonstrating that personality and communication style are genuine dimensions of artificial-intelligence design rather than superficial additions to technical performance.

Zihad Hossain Rafi traces the development of cybersecurity in Bangladesh, and Boymurodova Feruza Jumanazar qizi turns toward medical science, describing microscopic and genetic methods for diagnosing parasitic infections. Abduxafizova Sitora Farxod qizi reminds us that preparation for the future happens socially as well as technologically: volunteering is real formative work, developing responsibility, dedication, discipline, and teamwork. Shodmonova Aziza Sherzod qizi brings that process into university life by examining the inevitable distance between what students imagine higher education will be and what they actually encounter there.

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Technology, however, can never completely describe the world it measures. Al Pal’s poetic triptych exposes the gap between digital representation and physical reality. GPS, heat maps, and CAPTCHAs attempt to classify experience, but the messy street refuses to become identical with its data. Mark Young’s five poems extend this suspicion into a suite on dislocation, probing the distance between what things actually are for and what a distracted culture takes them for. The absurdity of contemporary metrics becomes another kind of estrangement.

This is why books, language, art, and cultural memory matter so urgently. Hasanova Manzura argues that books are not simply entertainment but vessels carrying accumulated human wisdom from generation to generation. Dilnura Qurolova similarly insists that Uzbek literature deserves an international readership because a national literature ultimately contributes to humanity’s shared story. Orifova Feruzabonu makes the stakes even more explicit: preserving the Uzbek language is a responsibility of its speakers because a nation’s continuity depends upon the survival of its tongue. Munira Shermamatova answers that challenge with a generational pledge, taking up the responsibility of carrying her nation’s values outward into the wider world.

Menda Vreto takes us still deeper beneath formal records, suggesting that the truest archive of a people may not be an archive at all. It is what passes from heart to heart, including what existed before anyone thought to name it. Imène Daoud explores this mystery from inside language itself, presenting poetry as an experience of discovering and inhabiting words while simultaneously being inhabited by them.

The handmade archive matters too. A.J. Iwasa defends punk zines precisely because their personal, imperfect, human-scale materiality preserves something mass culture cannot easily reproduce. Alex S. Johnson, interviewing Carol Queen, likewise treats the counterculture and its writers as a living lineage requiring conscious remembrance, particularly at a historical moment when AI may flatten distinctions and erase cultural history. Remembering becomes resistance.

Ri Hossain complicates that duty by reminding us that preservation must not become uncritical mythmaking. His re-examination of Sukanta Bhattacharya challenges the familiar image of a solitary teenage Bengali literary genius, arguing that this reputation was politically constructed. Dr. Jernail Singh Anand approaches literary inheritance differently, seeking renewed prestige for epic poetry by locating it within fiction while claiming for it fiction’s most elevated, passionate, imaginative possibilities. Dr. Fernando Martinez Alderete looks toward the beginning rather than the accumulated canon, affirming childhood and a humane philosophy of education grounded in love, optimism, hope, and faith in the future.

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Art itself repeatedly becomes a way of carrying experience through time. Frederick Schardt hears Lee Konitz playing jazz on a Broadway morning and discovers an image of the artist’s spiritual path: disciplined surrender to craft becoming an avenue toward freedom, grace, mercy, and charity. Elsewhere, Schardt celebrates the uninhibited voices of older people as the soul of a caring community. Poet and painter Timothee Bordenave, in his interview with Eva Petropoulou Lianou, similarly demonstrates how personal suffering can be folded into decades of creative practice, with tradition and innovation coexisting and art functioning both as catharsis and quiet moral communication.

William Crawford achieves transformation visually through intense color, dramatic geometry, and unusual perspectives that turn ordinary urban structures into abstractions. Sofia Fountoulaki’s painting moves toward a different visual register, suggesting a quiet inward gaze toward a glowing horizon. Thomas Fink makes the physical arrangement of words inseparable from their meaning, fracturing language across a pipe-shaped form so that reading becomes an act of assembly.

Sometimes art must assemble what history has shattered. Jerrice Baptiste joins poetry and visual art in explorations of ancestral memory, resilience, and reclaimed heritage. Ashiqur Rahman asserts the hopes, dreams, and very existence of the exiled Burmese Rohingya community. Dr. HC Rozalia Aleksandrova joins prayer, Bulgarian patriotism, and artistic creation, wrapping her homeland imaginatively in a canvas of love and entrusting its fate to God.

But love of one’s inheritance need not become rejection of the wider world. Abdullayeva Sarvinoz Aktamjon kizi considers globalization and youth culture and argues for a balanced middle path. That balance—between inheritance and openness, memory and transformation—runs throughout this collection.

It becomes especially urgent when the inheritance is violence.

Eva Petropoulou Lianou issues a fierce appeal for peace against the greed that produces war. Xhuli Spahiu answers from the level of everyday conduct, arguing that peace is constructed from below, one compassionate act at a time, and that these acts constitute our real legacy. Shannon Scoates and Lucille A. LaRoche turn toward children, reminding us that the young inherit emotional wounds from wars and disasters created by adults and that adults therefore bear responsibility for helping them heal.

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Duane Vorhees examines what violence and power do to culture, poetry, and ordinary human beings—and nevertheless keeps singing through ghazals, puns, and collage. Sandip Saha moves among exhaustion, ambition, and career success before satirizing the supposedly righteous anger that perpetuates cycles of religious violence. Deepika Bhatnagar addresses both tyrant and victim with the conviction that wrongdoing does not ultimately escape consequence.

Delsa López Lorenzo transforms the writer-activist into a contemporary knight-errant, someone willing to turn the supposed madness of caring too much into moral combat against injustice. Rezauddin Stalin, translated by Ashraf Chowdhury, invokes myth to envision the awakening of women and the gradual eclipse of inherited masculine supremacy, imagining a movement from imbalance toward greater equality while refusing to pretend that transformation comes without cost.

The struggle against violence also enters the home. J.L. Orango’s poetic sequence examines how language, society, and passive witnesses can enable domestic violence and how survivors negotiate its presence in everyday life. Abigail George responds with a raw cry against domestic and intergenerational trauma, demanding that someone finally speak and interrupt the cycle. Ermira D. Ifandi shows that violence need not always be loud: the silent treatment itself becomes destructive, turning home into a ransacked emotional space and transforming the speaking “I” into an “other.”

Sana Jangeer Hamad therefore makes reclamation crucial. Trauma may be real, but another person’s interpretation of that trauma need not become the survivor’s final definition. Milena Pčinjski carries this reclamation into defiance: the woman who was once trampled now demands that the world kneel and learn. Priyanka Neogi likewise refuses brokenness as a permanent identity, making inner resolve an act of resistance.

Sayani Mukherjee’s struggle is subtler but related: how can one be formed by heritage, inherited faith, and other people’s expectations without becoming merely a character in somebody else’s story? Adamu Muhammad Ja’agi approaches the question through identity, family, gender expectations, and language, exposing the pain of being erased or denied by others. Anja Sekulić discovers identity through care when the caretaker suddenly recognizes herself in the person she is trying to save.

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Reema Salman Hamza asks what remains possible amid both public and private grief. Her answer is not denial but transcendence: one keeps singing, stitching, and gathering light even as the world continues to break. Raida Jarjes’ review of Faleeha Hassan’s Forty Years of Snow similarly finds poetry moving beyond catastrophic events toward their echoes, allowing restraint and silence to transform the residue of loss into understanding.

Richard Dulgheriu’s triptych dwells within quiet suffering, masculine endurance, and the lonely dignity of people carrying burdens they rarely articulate. Milka J. Šolaja turns toward the moral aftermath of speech itself—the guilt and spiritual reckoning produced by words spoken in anger or ignorance. Elmaya Jabbarova gives alienation a refrain: the burden of feeling misplaced in the world coexists with dignity and a longing for something more authentic.

Stephen Jarrell Williams enlarges personal disconnection into civic catastrophe. His city falls not because an outside enemy conquers it but because its own inhabitants cease to care about one another. Community, the poem implies, can die before its buildings do.

And yet community can also be recovered through the smallest human pleasures. Christina Chin’s haiga captures the simple happiness of a night shared with girlfriends. Her tan-renga with Paul Callus and Andrew Brindle’s collaborative work move in different intimate directions: the former balances composure during danger against the cold that remains after violence, while the latter allows human and dog to speak almost as one, two lives settling into a shared, unhurried rhythm.

Graciela Noemi Villaverde locates the ultimate sanctuary in the mother: origin, inexhaustible love, and the place to which the self imaginatively returns in order to become whole. Egamnazarova Shahina similarly discovers that memory turns ordinary experience into treasure. Winter awakens longing for summer, but beneath seasonal nostalgia lies something deeper—the remembered warmth of childhood and family.

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Yeon Myung-ji’s remembrance of her strong, earthy aunt is more difficult. What remains is a “taste,” a fierce vitality inseparable from shame over an ending marked by loneliness and neglect. Memory here refuses simplification; love must carry both celebration and remorse.

Bill Tope takes another route into remembrance through tragicomedy. A grandmother’s funeral, revisited through the consciousness of the nine-year-old the narrator once was, becomes both grief and absurdity. Gregg Norman pushes mortality further into the comic grotesque: death comes for everyone, but it may arrive through circumstances so mundane, absurd, or anachronistic that solemnity itself becomes unstable.

Mooch Simon responds to death by refusing its power to terrorize. Mortality, historical violence, grief, and depression can be acknowledged without being allowed the final word; grief itself can be transformed into legacy. Shah Jehan Ashrafi reaches a related truth through satire, skewering arrogance, conspicuous wealth, and self-importance by invoking the great equalizer: none of them survives death.

Usarova Shirin Orif qizi therefore asks us to measure life differently. Wealth disappears; deeds remain. Kindness, integrity, and goodness become the true inheritance. Mesfakus Salahin’s speaker acts on this principle by taking pride in poverty when poverty is the consequence of choosing integrity and authenticity over worldly advancement. Shahzoda Habibullayeva finds another antidote to endless striving in gratitude: happiness begins when we stop chasing long enough to notice what is already present.

Türkan Ergör offers a similarly contemplative ethic. Echoing Ecclesiastes, she recognizes that life contains different seasons for different actions and reminds us of the necessity of pausing, praying, reflecting, and choosing. Hong Ngoc Chau’s poems arrive at acceptance through time, hardship, loss, and change, discovering peace and gratitude within rather than in circumstances that can always be taken away.

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Isaac Dominion Aju pushes inwardness toward the sacred: the Divine is within, the story is within, and bringing inward truth into the world can heal both the individual and a fractured society. Allison Grayhurst builds an entire spiritual autobiography from this relationship between inward mystery and ordinary life, finding love, memory, suffering, survival, faith, and the wonder of existence in everyday objects and beloved people. Nazzira Nezzar similarly celebrates the protected interior sanctuary that the poet creates and inhabits.

But inwardness is not necessarily peaceful. Mesut Şenol imagines interior life as perpetual weather, winds that refuse to stop as reality continually dissolves toward dream. His poems arrive not at mastery but surrender. Salimeh Mousavi turns inner haunting into literal haunting through a story of a young mother pursued by lifelong fear and despair.

Love, too, occupies every point between sanctuary and haunting. Saeed Koushan writes of the love that was forbidden or never pursued yet becomes permanently incorporated into identity. Matt D. Ivansky explores unrequited love, sacrifice, and the painful wisdom of releasing what cannot be possessed. Tanja Ajtic mourns a love that ended without explosion: tenderness simply passed into silence.

Anwar Rahim’s three poems inhabit the point at which language fails before the ache of love and loss. Valentina Pavlović uses deceptively simple archaic language to explore love, absence, and the price paid for wisdom. Katica Protić asks one of separation’s hardest questions: when people who once shared a life encounter one another again, can they truly recover each other—or even recognize the people they have become?

Vesna Malović Petrović gives love another form entirely: elemental force, overwhelming and uncontrollable, destructive yet somehow worth the devastation. Alan Patrick Traynor places longing inside a church until sacred desire and human desire become impossible to distinguish. Jacques Fleury’s “Bull Riding” turns desire toward bawdy humor, using masculine camaraderie and the metaphor of bull riding to explore a closeted or forbidden attraction between working men and the thrill of crossing a boundary.

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Alan Catlin’s dense allusive cycle moves further into transgression, bringing murder mysteries, pornography or “blue movies,” and literary and cinematic canons into collision. Here art does not purify experience so much as investigate the unstable boundary between culture’s respectable surfaces and its forbidden fascinations.

Marjorie Thelen returns us to the city, but to a city in which people seek stillness. Her works, linked by a single New York afternoon, search for human connection inside overwhelming urban noise. Abin Roychoudhury’s Kolkata is far less serene: a living, wounded creature in which mythic history and fractured modernity occupy the same streets.

Perhaps that is the condition of the world represented throughout this collection: multiple times occupying the same street.

The past remains inside the present. The dead remain inside memory. Old languages encounter artificial intelligence. The handmade zine survives beside digital culture. Gardens teach lessons to technological societies. Ancient epics demand recognition in contemporary literary categories. National traditions seek global audiences. Violence is inherited, but so are compassion and resistance.

Mahbub Alam captures this contradictory persistence beautifully: human existence is imperfect and impermanent, grief and memories of bloodshed repeatedly return, and still we grow toward sunlight, awaken love, and rise toward beauty. Karimova Maftuna Erkinovna’s tribute to her father gives that rising a personal model: survival is not merely enduring the fall but rising beyond the people and circumstances that attempted to break us.

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And perhaps this is also what the poet does.

Frederick Schardt’s jazz musician plays. Duane Vorhees keeps singing. Reema Salman Hamza gathers light. Delsa López Lorenzo fights with words. Imène Daoud inhabits them. Jerrice Baptiste retrieves ancestral memory through image and poem. Faleeha Hassan’s losses survive in their echoes. The punk zinester keeps making something by hand. The farmer plants. The volunteer serves. The scientist diagnoses. The teacher believes in the child. The student discovers that reality is more complicated than expectation. The survivor refuses someone else’s definition. The mother remains a refuge. The old speak freely. The young inherit languages and decide whether they will carry them forward.

Even the apparently smallest acts therefore participate in the collection’s larger question.

What do we carry forward?

Not everything.

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We need not carry tyranny, cycles of domestic violence, religious hatred, arrogance, neglect, inherited gender supremacy, or the silence that permits suffering to reproduce itself. Some inheritances demand interruption rather than preservation.

But we can carry languages. Stories. Books. Memories. Craft. Compassion. Cultural lineages. Scientific knowledge. Gardens. Friendship. Humor. The dignity of labor. The wisdom of elders. The imagination of children. The voices of displaced peoples. The courage of survivors. The inconvenient handmade artifact. The strange poem. The difficult truth. The blue butterfly. The sound of jazz on a Broadway morning.

And we can carry love.

That may finally be the deepest thread joining these radically different contributions. The world these writers and artists describe is neither stable nor safe. It contains technological upheaval, displacement, war, ecological fragility, violence, grief, estrangement, mortality, and forgetting. Yet it also contains people continually making meaning from what threatens to disappear.

Life is carved, as Soumen Roy suggests, from imperfect material. We do not receive a finished sculpture. We inherit the stone and the marks already cut into it.

What happens next is our work.

Essay from Ravshanova Niginabonu

My mother tongue is my identity, my national pride, and my future.

Every language is not just a collection of words. A person begins to understand his identity by first getting to know and study his language and history. Every nation has an invaluable treasure that reflects its identity, culture, and passes on its history from generation to generation. This is its native language. Through its language, every person introduces the values, customs, and culture of its people, which have been formed over the centuries, to the world. Language is an important tool that elevates a nation, introduces it to the world, and determines its present and future.


My native language, Uzbek, is not just a means of communication for me, but an incomparable treasure that unites my entire being, my national pride, my great history, and my future.


The Uzbek language belongs to the Turkic language family and is distinguished by its attractiveness, intelligibility, expressiveness and unique grammatical structure. Its centuries-old history reflects the arduous path of our people. The role of our great thinker, grandfather Alisher Navoi, in the development of the Uzbek language is incomparable. Navoi proved to the whole world through his immortal works how powerful the Turkic language is. His historical heritage does not lose its significance even today. Each language has its own unique features, and the difference between the Uzbek language and other languages ​​is that it has the ability to create new words and change the meaning of words by adding suffixes to words. Most importantly, in the Uzbek language there is the ability to use one word in different meanings.


Nowadays, learning foreign languages ​​and mastering the heights of modern science are the main tasks of every young person. Learning foreign languages ​​creates an important opportunity to introduce the Uzbek language on an international scale. It is the task of each of us to bring our native language to the international arena. To do this, we can increase its international prestige by translating our literature into different languages, teaching our language to foreigners, and developing various Uzbek content in the digital world. After all, if our language sounds in the world, our national values ​​and history will spread even more widely. Our homeland will rise another level. Language unites the entire nation. Without a language, there will be no nation, and where the nation disappears, the concept of the homeland fades.

Therefore, we must respect the Uzbek language, that is, our native language, keep it pure, and introduce it to the world. After all, we should include our language not among the dying languages, but among the developing ones. The goal of introducing the Uzbek language to the world is not only to show our history and values, but also to teach other peoples a new language, new literature, and new culture.


Although today the Uzbek language is not among the most developed languages, for me, my native language always stands at the top in any situation, I am proud of my incomparable language. The Uzbek language is our identity, our pride, and our bright path to the world, our future.

Ravshanova Niginabonu was born in the Urgut district of the Samarkand region of the Republic of Uzbekistan. Currently, she is studying at a specialized school in the agency system. She strives to learn new knowledge, work on herself, develop and discover new opportunities. Her main goal is to become a diplomat in the future and make a worthy contribution to the development and prosperity of her homeland, Uzbekistan.

Essay from Hasanova Manzura

Books and Reading – A Mirror of Human Spirituality

Hasanova Manzura
Student of School No. 22, Nurobod District, Samarkand Region

Abstract: This article is about reading, promoting reading widely, book study, and its benefits. Additionally, the article provides information about the age categories of readers and how to work with them.

Keywords: library, president, Shavkat Mirziyoyev, initiative, young reader, readers’ festival.

“A book is a person’s most loyal friend, a priceless treasure leading to knowledge and thinking.” A person who reads books broadens their worldview, deepens their thinking, and enriches their spiritual life. Every book read brings new experiences, knowledge, and opportunities into a person’s life. Books are the most reliable bridge passing down the experiences of generations to future generations. Moreover, a person who reads is never truly alone, because a book can be both a companion and an adviser. The roots of the words “book,” “reading,” and “library” are taken from Arabic and serves one purpose, which is to enrich human spirituality.

The reforms being carried out in our country to increase young people’s reading culture are not without reason, and therefore, the development of future generations is defined by gaining knowledge and being educated. In this regard, on January 12, 2017, the President of the Republic of Uzbekistan, Shavkat Mirziyoyev, announced a decree “On promoting reading and increasing the reading culture.” This, in turn, is an important step that contributes to raising the level of reading in our country and publishing new, meaningful books. By wisely taking advantage of such opportunities and reading new meaningful works as they are published, young people can grow intellectually, deepen their thinking, and become more independent. It should also be noted that the five initiatives proposed by our President have today become an important factor in further supporting young people.

Organizing systematic efforts to raise spirituality and widely promote reading among them is becoming an important program. Thanks to our country’s leader’s special attention to enhancing reading culture, events like ‘Young Reader’, ‘Reading Festival’, and competitions held in general education schools, universities, and all educational institutions, as well as libraries opened in recreational areas, play an important role in meeting the spiritual and intellectual needs of the younger generation and familiarizing them with books. The essence of the book is eternal… This essence immortalizes thinking. Reading a book guides a person to directly harmonize with life and gain spiritual benefit. The word ‘reading’ in Arabic means ‘to read’, and today it has a broader meaning than just reading books. No source can elevate a person’s spirituality like a book.

References used:

1. Mirziyoyev Shavkat. New Uzbekistan Strategy. Tashkent: Uzbekistan. Publishing House 2021-464 pages.

2. Akbarova M., Tursunova G., Abdunazarova Z. Section Theater art // European Journal of Arts. – P.125 3.

3. Umarova X., Usmonova Sh. A life dedicated to the book. // Oriental art and culture. 2019 N/IV (1)

Hasanova Manzura is interested in learning, reading books, acquiring new knowledge, and working on herself. She pays special attention to education and development in her life.

She has a strong interest in her native language and literature. She especially enjoys writing articles, conducting scientific research, thinking about various topics, and sharing her knowledge with others. Therefore, she has been researching a lot in the field of article writing and studying different types of articles.

She also considers reading an important part of her life. She tries to draw conclusions from what she reads, convey useful information to others, and create educational content.

Essay from Shodmonova Aziza Sherzod qizi

First Year: The Harmony of Dreams and Reality

Yesterday, a school student stood eagerly awaiting the sound of the school bell and bid farewell to school with tears in their eyes during the graduation ceremony. Today, that same student is sitting in the spacious and magnificent lecture halls of a university.

Student life is one of the brightest, most dynamic, and most responsible periods in a person’s life. As we step across the threshold of university, it feels as though wings have grown on our shoulders. We are filled with the enthusiasm to change the world, ambitious plans, and unquenchable dreams. However, just as every high flight has its point of landing, the encounter between dreams and reality is inevitable.

The Flight of Dreams and the Illusions of Student Applicants

The period of preparing for university entrance examinations has its own challenges. During these years, almost every young person imagines university life as a wonderful, almost heavenly world. Thoughts such as, “Once I get into university, everything will be different. I will read as many books as I want, start the projects I have always dreamed of, and finally become free and independent,” fill their hearts with excitement and hope.

When the gates of the university finally open and students receive their student ID cards, these dreams become even more vivid. You feel like a hero who has just received a ticket to a great new chapter of life. The lecture halls, unfamiliar faces, and professors’ lectures all seem like scenes from a fairy tale.

The Hard Ground and the Warm Truth: When the Challenges Begin

However, these sweet illusions do not last long. Reality gradually begins to reveal its entirely different sides. Suddenly, you find yourself moving from the structured environment of school, where teachers monitor your every step and assign every homework task, into a vast ocean of freedom. Yet, this freedom immediately confronts you with two important realities: the struggle to keep up and the burden of responsibility.

The fast pace of a big city, morning traffic jams, the everyday challenges of living in a dormitory or rented accommodation, and complicated class schedules can turn the romantic excitement of the first few days into uncertainty. Complex academic terminology introduced during lectures, hundreds of pages of reading material, and the heavy demands of independent study may suddenly make you think, “It is not as easy as I imagined.”

The inability to manage time effectively, the desire for financial independence, and the challenge of balancing studies with other responsibilities are among the first serious tests that every first-year student may encounter.

The True Beauty of Reality: Personal Growth and Discovery

Nevertheless, the collision between dreams and reality does not break us; instead, it shapes us and makes us stronger. The brightest aspect of reality is that these very difficulties and obstacles help us grow, develop resilience, and become more mature individuals.

Being surrounded by thousands of peers from different parts of the country creates opportunities to make like-minded friends and explore various university clubs, reading communities, and academic projects. Childhood dreams, once simple and vague, gradually turn into specific and achievable goals. Plans such as “I will achieve a C1 level in a language examination,” “I will write a scientific article,” and “I will actively participate in university life” begin to take shape.

The ability to think independently, manage one’s own time, and find solutions to problems develops significantly during the first year of university. Little by little, students learn that success does not come merely from dreaming but from taking consistent action, accepting responsibility, and learning from experience.

In Conclusion: The Power That Turns Dreams into Reality

The first year of university is one of the most remarkable periods of life: somewhat frightening on the one hand, yet full of endless opportunities on the other. The gap between dreams and reality represents one of the first courageous steps a person takes on the journey from childhood towards maturity.

Reality does not extinguish dreams; rather, it lays a solid foundation for them. Dreams become meaningful when they are supported by determination, patience, responsibility, and continuous effort. Ultimately, the first year of university teaches us that the path to achieving our ambitions may not always be easy, but every challenge can become a valuable lesson and every experience can bring us one step closer to the future we envision.

Shodmonova Aziza Sherzod qizi was born in 2008 in Qarshi District, Qashqadaryo Region, Uzbekistan. She is currently a first-year student at the Uzbekistan State World Languages University, Faculty of English Philology, majoring in Philology and Language Teaching (English).

Essay from Sherzod Suvonov

Not Every AI Should Sound the Same:
Building AI Personalities in Uzbekistan

By Sherzod Suvonov | Tashkent, Uzbekistan

What if the future of artificial intelligence is not just about making machines smarter, but about making conversations feel different?

The Problem with One-Size-Fits-All AI

Imagine asking two AI assistants the same question. One responds politely, carefully choosing its words. The other answers more bluntly, with a sharper tone and a little attitude. Both aim to be useful, but the experience of talking to them feels completely different.

This is the idea behind my experiments with AI-powered Telegram bots.

My name is Sherzod Suvonov, and I am exploring how conversational AI can become more engaging through personality, tone, and the way it communicates with people. From Tashkent, Uzbekistan, I have been developing AI bots with different conversational identities: Ziya, which has two distinct versions, and George, a friendly AI assistant that I am still working on.

My interest is not simply in making another bot that generates answers. It is in exploring a more human-centered question: What makes an AI conversation interesting enough that someone wants to continue it?

Meet Ziya: One Name, Two Personalities

Ziya is the clearest expression of this idea in my current projects. I have two versions of the bot, each designed around a different conversational style.

The first version, @Ziya_uzbekbot, takes a friendlier approach. It is intended to provide useful answers in a more approachable and comfortable conversational style.

The second version, @ziya_ozbekBot, has a rougher, more direct personality. Its style is less polished and more provocative, aiming to make conversations feel lively and memorable while still giving answers that are intended to be correct.

The contrast is deliberate. Not everyone enjoys the same style of communication. Some people prefer a calm, respectful assistant. Others may find a blunt, humorous, or slightly cheeky conversational partner more entertaining.

These bots are an exploration of that difference. They are not proof that one personality is universally better than another. Instead, they raise a more interesting possibility: the usefulness of an AI assistant depends not only on what it says, but also on how it says it.

Of course, a strong personality cannot compensate for incorrect information. A blunt answer is not automatically an honest one, and a friendly answer is not necessarily a reliable one. The challenge is to combine an engaging voice with accuracy, appropriate boundaries, and a willingness to acknowledge uncertainty.

Personality Is More Than a Tone of Voice

When people discuss AI development, they often focus on model size, reasoning ability, benchmarks, or the number of tasks a system can perform. These are important considerations, but they do not fully explain the experience of interacting with an assistant.

Conversation has a social dimension. People respond differently to language that feels formal, casual, humorous, encouraging, or direct.

An AI’s personality can be understood as a designed pattern of communication: its tone, vocabulary, response style, humor, and approach to disagreement. These characteristics can influence whether an interaction feels natural, frustrating, entertaining, or helpful.

This does not mean that an AI assistant possesses human feelings or a genuine personality in the same sense as a person. Its conversational identity is a product of how the system is designed and how it generates responses.

For developers, however, that design creates room for experimentation. Rather than treating every assistant as an interchangeable interface, we can explore how different communication styles serve different purposes.

A student asking for an explanation may appreciate patience and encouragement. Someone looking for a quick answer may prefer directness. A user who simply wants an entertaining conversation may enjoy humor and a more distinctive voice.

The important question is not whether every AI should act human. It is whether its communication style helps people use it in the way they actually want.

George: A Different Kind of Companion

Alongside Ziya, I am working on another AI bot called George.

George is still under development, so I do not present it as a finished product. The idea behind it is to create a friendly, sincere, and informal conversational assistant—one that feels more like talking to a supportive companion than interacting with a conventional question-and-answer tool.

Where the two versions of Ziya explore contrasting styles, George represents a different direction: warmth, friendliness, and a more personal conversational atmosphere.

This project also gives me an opportunity to keep exploring what makes AI interactions feel natural without confusing an artificial system with a human being.

A friendly assistant should be able to communicate warmly without pretending to have experiences it has never had. It should be engaging without manipulating users into continuing a conversation. And it should remain useful even when the most appropriate response is to admit that it does not know something.

For me, George is an ongoing experiment rather than a finished answer to these challenges.

Why Telegram Is an Interesting Place to Experiment

Telegram provides a practical environment for exploring conversational AI. Bots can meet users inside a messaging interface they already know, making it possible to experiment with different assistant concepts without requiring every project to begin as a separate mobile application.

For independent developers, this offers a useful way to explore interaction design, test ideas, and learn from the behavior of real users.

It also creates opportunities to think beyond text-based conversations. As multimodal AI technologies develop, assistants may increasingly combine text with images, audio, and other forms of input. A user might eventually expect the same assistant to explain a screenshot, respond to a voice message, or help organize information from a document.

These are broader possibilities for conversational AI, not claims that my current Ziya bots already support every such feature.

The combination of distinctive communication styles and multimodal capabilities could make future assistants more adaptable. Yet the underlying challenge will remain the same: creating systems that are useful rather than merely impressive in a demonstration.

The Balance Between Character and Responsibility

There is a line between a memorable personality and an unpleasant or harmful interaction.

Ziya’s rougher style makes this distinction particularly interesting. Directness and humor can make an assistant entertaining, but they should not become excuses for harassment, humiliation, or confidently delivering false information.

A responsible design should distinguish between being blunt and being abusive, between being confident and pretending to know everything, and between creating an engaging conversation and encouraging unhealthy dependence.

Accuracy also deserves special attention. Generative AI systems can produce convincing but incorrect answers, regardless of their conversational style. Developers therefore need to consider testing, transparency, privacy, and appropriate safeguards alongside personality design. The National Institute of Standards and Technology’s Artificial Intelligence Risk Management Framework: Generative Artificial Intelligence Profile offers a useful reference for understanding and managing these broader risks.

The goal should not be to remove every distinctive feature from an assistant. It should be to make those features compatible with reliable and responsible behavior.

A Personal Experiment with a Wider Question

My work on Ziya and George is part of a broader question about the future of AI interaction.

As AI tools become more accessible, developers do not have to compete only by building systems that perform more tasks. They can also explore better ways for people to communicate with those systems.

One assistant might prioritize clarity. Another might emphasize friendliness. A third might use humor and bluntness to create a more entertaining experience. The success of each approach should be evaluated through real interactions, user feedback, and the quality of the answers—not simply through the strength of its personality.

For Uzbekistan, this work also offers an opportunity to experiment with conversational AI in the local digital environment and to explore how assistants can communicate naturally with the people who use them.

I am still developing these ideas. Ziya’s two versions represent different approaches to conversational identity, while George remains a work in progress. I see these projects as opportunities to learn what works, what fails, and what users actually value.

Perhaps the next stage of conversational AI will not be defined by a single perfect assistant. Perhaps it will be defined by assistants that can adapt their communication to different needs while remaining honest about their limitations.

The future of AI may not be a world where every assistant sounds the same. It may be a world where intelligence is shared across systems, but the experience of talking to each one feels distinct.

And sometimes, the most interesting question is not simply what an AI can answer—but what kind of conversation it creates.

Reference

National Institute of Standards and Technology (NIST). Artificial Intelligence Risk Management Framework: Generative Artificial Intelligence Profile (2024). https://doi.org/10.6028/NIST.AI.600-1

Zine reviews from A.J. Iwasa

One Punk’s Guide to Therapy

By Kurt Morris, $2.00

Razorcake

PO Box 42129

Los Angeles, CA 90042

One Punk’s Guides are a regular feature in the punk fanzine, Razorcake, as was this ‘zine originally printed as a feature length article.  They can easily be about the fun side of punk like one I particularly enjoyed about surf music, or the no less important, serious sides such as sobriety and volunteerism.

I think this is a very important contribution to a much needed conversation about mental health in punk.  All too often undiagnosed and/or untreated mental health struggles are ignored or even celebrated in underground music scenes, leading all too frequently to tragic outcomes.

Though there are a few different punk rock or punk adjacent personal ‘zines out there that deal directly with navigating the mental health system in the US, I am beyond excited that this first appeared in a fanzine with printruns in the thousands, and that it continues to be available as a stand alone ‘zine.

In the clear and accessible language that makes the RZC One Punk’s Guides so fantastic, Morris writes about both getting therapy and becoming a therapist, while clearly remaining in the context of what’s made the mental health system in the US both helpful and hurtful.  Hopefully this will continue as an expanding trend. 

The Ravens Way Review #4, Summer 2026, $4.00

PO Box 3067

Laurel, MD 20709  

Made up of four personal essays, ‘zine reviews and a letters section, this is everything I like about a perzine and then some.

The first essay deals with computer technology, a hot topic for many a ‘zinester.  This ‘zinester, Joe3, seems to have a pretty nuanced take on these subjects for someone who seems thoroughly plugged into The Matrix (blogger and podcaster) while remaining comitted to print and print culture.

This feeds nicely into an essay about The Singularity.  It turns out I had a vastly different idea of what that is, as did Joe3.  For the record, I first read about it in Lumpen circa 2003 or ’04, and am sticking to the definition as the moment Artifical Intelligence becomes sentient.

The third essay is the completely personal type of essay I think a lot of fans of perzines are looking for:  travel, philosophy, spirituality, hardship:  it’s all there from David Goggins to His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada… seguing into an interview with a doorknocker (actually an “Overheard” piece, but I’m not going to be That Guy), the perfect analysis of a seemingly mundane interaction that makes this all seem worthwhile.

Holy Cow on the ‘zine reviews and letters.  Don’t get me started or I won’t get this review done anytime soon.

Go Cat Go #4:  Hasil Adkins

By Fishpit

C/O Wiseblood

1304 175th Pl. NE

Bellevue, WA 98008

Hasil Adkins first landed on my radar because of The Cramps’ cover of his, “She Said”.  The Cramps were the first punk band I ever got into because of the obvious influence Elvis had on their music, when I was generally too young to appreciate what was so cool about them.  Over three and a half decades later I’m finally starting to understand what’s made them one of my favorite punk bands:  by going into deep dives on some of their influences in this rockabilly fanzine.

This has been my main attraction to Go Cat Go so far, but anyone interested in rockabilly should probably check it out.  Written in accessable, conversational language, this is music writing at it’s best.  Warts and all.

Postcards from Irving, Vol. 15, winter 2026

PO Box 111

Winooski, VT 05404

Exactly what I Love about the seemingly random nature of ‘zine world fandom.  Ben Irving was a 1920s band leader, 1930s traveling salesman, and 1940s Vaudeville-revivalist.  The ‘zinester behind this is a Dead Milkman superfan, which practically explains it all, retracing Irving’s travels through his postcards and related ephemera. 

Poetry from Munira Shermamatova

I AM AN UZBEK GIRL

The lullaby’s sweet melody has been with me since birth,
The song of my Motherland lives in my heart.
My homeland is my heart, my happiness, my world,
I am an Uzbek girl — the light of my nation.

I wear good manners like a crown upon my head,
I cherish my ancestors’ heritage deep within my heart.
I love the world through my mother tongue,
I am an Uzbek girl, smiling with happiness.

Atlas silk suits my graceful figure,
My love for my homeland fills every line I write.
Honour and dignity suit my noble name,
The pride of being Uzbek flows through my veins.

My fields and gardens blossom in spring,
My people’s hearts are filled with love and pride.
My heart beats for my homeland every moment,
Uzbekistan is the dearest place to me.

My dream is that the sun smiles upon my homeland,
May happiness blossom in every home.
May the glory of Uzbekistan fill the whole world,
I am an Uzbek girl — may my name bring pride!

Munira Shermamatova is a young student from Asaka district of the Andijan region, Uzbekistan. Born in 2010, she is currently a 10th-grade student at a specialized school in Asaka. Munira has a deep passion for literature and poetry, alongside her keen interest in natural sciences like biology and chemistry. Her ultimate dream is to become a physician and contribute to society through medicine. She hopes to help people and make a positive difference in their lives.