FUnowTUwasRE Ecstatic electricity freezes into pulse as biologies become magnets / your eyes lip my cheeks / my koi mouth plumbs your pond / our trunks forest together, organs tromboned by desire fingers / perpetual fleshmachines yinyang existences / masses gasseate / consciousness shrinks to cosmos / our my-your selves merge, we share atoms we downlings deitise TAKE ME IN "Take me in," the poet said, "take me in." The prophet hid. "Take me in," the poet prayed, "take me in." No banker paid. "Take me in." The soldier fled. "Sink or swim," the lawyer pled. "Take me in," the poet said, "take me in." A woman did. "Make me warm," the woman cried, "safe and warm." The poet sighed. "Words are thin," he did reply, "weak and thin. But yet I'll try. Weak and thin, but yet I'll try." In the bin by page by page, in the bin the books were laid, inch by inch were set ablaze. Line by line the match was lit. Word by word the poems all went. "Now I'm warm," the woman said, "safe from harm. But poet's dead." Poet dead? Poet dead? He lives on inside her head. Words go on inside her head. ESOTERIC as eager initiates in lovers’ freemasonry that true and ancient order we are illuminati of the night’s old mysteries through its well-established rites its scripts, shared grasps, finger codes, its postures, pledges, passwords we advance by slow degrees our prescribed intimacies CONTRETEMPS The tense contentment of the nights before now in contempt give way to temptation. YOU SAY I SAY You say your bees come alive when I prod your hive. I lift your balloon and hold you to ground. I say I pour and pour ghee and you absorb me. ...
Category Archives: CHAOS
Poetry from Daniel De Culla
Image c/o Isabel Gomez de Diego. It’s of an older light skinned man in a plaid outfit sitting down with a young boy in a Christmas sweater putting a red nose on his face. He’s got a party hat and is in front of a table with wine and candles and glasses.
THE CLOWN KING
This Clown King is called King Cricket
Who fishes for trout
Under the bridge that crosses
The Riaza river
In Torregalindo (Galindo’s Tower), Burgos.
When he can’t find what to fish
Goes looking for crickets
Reciting that funny song
From popular folklore:
“When the fox goes to crickets
The sacristan to thistles
And the clerk asks
How are we doing this month?
The three of them are screwed.”
Catching crickets is going almost always
With his precious grandson
To whom he cajoles by promising
A couple of euros if they catch one.
They usually go around the Castle
Today in ruins
Where the townspeople say
That the last one that inhabited it
Was a rich widow, Benita
Married to a profitless king
To whom people they called :
“Potato of Importance”
Together with a young barber
That se fixed her hair
From above and below
With ease and without scruples.
This widowed queen
If a man walked through her door
She came out after him with a tool
As a whetstones, saying:
-Come on, man¡
Come and enter the castle
I’ll sharpen your joint.
The man ran away
Mount down, shouting:
-I don’t know what you gain with the barber
How bad you are¡
-Daniel de Culla
Photography from Isabel Gomez de Diego
Poetry from Mykyta Ryzhykh
*** “Hello,” – the butterfly whispers quietly with the flapping of its wings, The caterpillar moves its antenna in amazement. “I was you,” – says the butterfly, – “ And I know what you are waiting for. Your dream will come true very soon, And you will fly into the sky, beautiful and pure." That evening the caterpillar died, but the butterfly was never born. *** The voracious phone is roaring loudly Crocodiles of papers held together with a paper clip Boss instructs to drink ink blots letters Chitin grows on the back and computers glitch like rabbits A piece of sandwich has dried up on my table The head of the laboratory does not know that the work was paid for in blood Another day when I have to report Another day when I apply for a grant Another day when I quarrel with environmental activists over laboratory rabbits Another day I can't find a cure for cancer cells *** the wind speaks because someone knows how to listen autumn gives birth to sensitivity *** wife licks the spring wind puddles of clouds cut in half first part for death second part for waiting for death and the mirror is cracked and the cracks are mirrorfull the future is spreading over the sunday pan the sun ripens like an apple snakes twist like vines the past burns out in the corner of the trash bin cigarettes are the thing of the present time flows off cheek like spit birdsong awakens forgotten memories lips trying to kiss silence wife stealthily licks the spring wind *** The noise that doesn't exist Nobody came this time As always We have no choice but to let our shadows out into the street so that they knock on our door Knocking on the door - sounds full of desperation It is clear that there is no one there at the door Obviously no one will come *** black ridges of autumn grow in the pupils of a bird shot with a gun *** The bread of black heads is getting stale Someone is knocking on the door The aluminum bird breaks all the hinges Worms devour the remains of flesh *** Let's pretend there's a blue sky overhead Let's pretend that we live on a blue planet Let's pretend that blue blood flows in the pipes Let's watch the blue cats in the blue cemetery Let's paint the blue people in the colors of the blue rainbow Let's turn into blue butterflies on blue bushes No words can convey the heavy blue sweat on the cheeks of the deceased *** no one is born without a body everyone is born without sin weapons scream at the future dead people don't fuck with strapons but kill each other with guns man is a red triangle the throat of the torn night itches with a ballistic rocket *** night knocks on the back of the head and breaks the skull with a cast-iron finger no one rises again only the cemetery cries at the sight of flowers flowers in turn dream of living without graves and mourning ribbons and God's assistant presses the wrong button again *** no one will crucify Jesus once again because he will die on the threshold of a silent tree on the very first morning of burning poverty *** kitten in the red night sleeps motionless abdominal dreams do not bother the one who is not to be born feline cat jesus went on vacation in order to have a story dead cat jesus went on vacation to hang himself *** the sky screams at the ant because the ant is insanely small and prays to the grass grass is home grass is glass glass is a scar that will never heal *** Dad came from the street and said that the air is red Is it because the tulips are blooming? I asked my dad as I stumbled over my school bag. That's why, dad replied. I came to visit my dad with a bunch of flowers I said to the grave photo: the air is green now Is it because the tulips are blooming? - asked the father from the grave For some reason I kept silent A bird screamed on a lilac branch It was still dark around Morning still hasn't been invented Reprint: The Wise owl *** The loneliness of antiquity befell the cemetery Butterflies played a symphony of heritage with their wings: They were once in a cocoon They once cocooned themselves They were once their own parents Flowers tickle themselves with playful wings How much is the life of a butterfly if thanks to a butterfly spring comes and the cemetery lives again? Reprint: The Wise owl *** The sky is strangled without a noose The word death is almost the same as the word deal Who knows how to control death? How competently does someone use their talent? Body that belongs to Nobody In the middle of the road, the body that was allowed to go to waste Where does the unpronounceable road lead? The gold of the red walls scratches the throat Where does the path lead us along the night? Black mother-of-pearl coffins underground The wooden vision of a dead man blooms like a rose Nobody knows what the word dead means And overhead the black sky And overhead the dawn of darkness Reprint: The Wise owl *** The child is looking for bruises The child is looking for knees The child is looking for legs The child is looking for a torso The child is looking for himself A broken ladder rushes upwards Reprint: Тriggerfish critical review *** The weather forecast deceived Tears instead of rain Nobody is resurrected Dahlias have blossomed In every petal a breath of air In every breath of air God was called by his patronymic Couldn’t imagine it as a feminine They believed in God according to the national Calling a patch of unfortunate land a state a country Ripe apples in the garden And tomato juice floated through the veins In the spring, lips kiss Because they can’t stand their ugliness The weather forecast deceived In the spring, bones come down on the grass And nothing happens Reprint: Тriggerfish critical review *** belly torn in half by the birth of love I'm leaving you kissing your leaving shadow distance is the castle in which I placed myself my love is your gift to me you kiss in the dark with others and then fuck and I'm happy for you you will forever remain unimaginably beautiful on the other side of the castle I build distances so as not to harm you with my love we say goodbye to each other like trains that never dare to approach each other you will love and be able to make anyone happy you can give anything but not to me Reprint: Ouch! *** Three fingers crushed us with emptiness A knot has wrapped the air around my neck The alarm siren and explosion fatigue are drawn to the eyes We fuck like corpses that will never be separated from each other again Reprint: Ouch!
Poetry from Adam Fieled
The Painter The compact red book I ran around with: Crowley’s Book of the Law. I was goaded into knowledge that a reckoning was at hand. An archetypal Goddess had manifested as a tactile reality in my life. An image had been seared into my mind; a painting called The Vessel; it was hers, & yet I was a married man. The only path forward that tempestuous autumn of ‘01 was to cheat. The book laid down a gauntlet of what it meant to act in the world with a genuine sense of destiny; to be a man who had the mettle to be a real force of nature. She knew, my wife, that I had been possessed, & that winds were blowing me in a new direction, towards the forbidden. I had, it seemed to me, no choice. The night I spent with the painter, in a studio in PAFA, I discovered what it meant to have a hinge to true will about matters of the heart. She kept paintings there, of Dionysus & Apollo, & she would make me a myth, too. We shared red wine that had the effect of being blood between us; our chalice was the air, the sound of water pipes late at night in an old building, darkened corridors meant to hold only us, bathrooms which could be used as portal-ways into starry worlds. As I gathered steam, I felt the book hover in the air as well, a piece of text writ in boiling blood, pummeling towards spring. Adam Fieled is a writer based in Philadelphia. His books include Equations, Cheltenham, Apparition Poems, Beams, and Opera Bufa. A magna cum laude graduate of the University of Pennsylvania, he edits the journal PFS Post.
Poetry from Muslima Murodova Kadyrovna
My mother In the bosom of the nine moons, My honorable mother who gave birth to me. Nurtured in a warm embrace, My kind, loving companion. Her eyes shine with joy, The kindest, innocent world. She builds a castle of flowers in your heart, She prays in every word. Of course, intentions will be answered. I will take you to Hajj, my shining jewel. Thank you, thank you a thousand times, My pain, my pleasure, my confidante, my mother. Murodova Muslima Kadyrovna was born on June 29, 2010 in Jondar district of Bukhara region. Currently, she is a 7th grade student at school No. 30 in this district. Her first poem was published in 2024 under the name "Come beautiful spring." She won the 2nd place at the festival held in the district. She won the 1st place in the district stage and the 2nd place in the regional stage of the "Bakhtim Shul: Zulfiyasiman Uzbek" contest. Her first anthology was published by the UK publisher Justfiction Edition.
Poetry from James Whitehead
About this Whole Nature vs. God “Thing” I recall it now, in a time of plague. I was in love with someone. Who it was is rather beside the point. I loved her and she loved me, that much I remember. If it was the person I am with now, then the story makes no sense to me. That love is still good. And I associate the story with a fall. So, I am pretty sure it was a failed love. That we loved each other, but that something went wrong. What happened, which was not the terribly wrong thing that took away our love, was this: We went to a ballet. It was almost that simple. Other people went with us, friends, family members, they all joined us. We had enough tickets, that we all sat in a row, alongside one another. I had family there, she had family there. I had friends there, she had friends there. We both were surrounded by other people. I hated and hate the ballet. It felt like something forced upon me, like life itself. What I mean is, metaphorically, no one chooses to be born. But once born . . . we choose to live. I did not want to be there, but, there I was. And during the entire show, I only remember two corresponding sensations, which, combined, informed me about something . . . taught me something about this experience I never would have chosen to live through. To my left, I felt, repeatedly, an elbow in my ribs, and, whenever I turned, the person to my left kept saying, repeating, “Look at that DANCE!” To my right, I felt, repeatedly, an elbow in my ribs, and, whenever I turned, the person to my right kept saying, repeating, “Look at that DANCER!” So I, listening to both of them, trying to learn from both of them, how I might best enjoy this living experience, looked at what we were all there to witness and experience. And I kept seeing the same thing. Whether I looked to the Dancer, or to the Dance. It all looked the same to me. Aren’t Judas I just perfect, given the money? I give my money to the brewers of the world because they are truly great human beings. Still it does me no good for answers when I question almost daily the accident of my life, sitting in my apartment loft, reading Henry Miller, staring at my diplomas, wondering about my father, whose first job was holding live pigs’ hind legs, while the animal doctor cut there, or my father, whose last job was holding stock, or wondering about my mother, whose first job was teaching special children, or whose last job was teaching her children. My life does me no good for answers, petting two cats, one named for disappearing, one named for being seen, or listening to music – name the genre –or sitting next to a well-lit globe outlining already outdated countries – the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics, Czechoslovakia, Yugoslavia, all other countries all running their mortal course, including our own, or typing on an outdated machine, one worth more than a third world income, or wondering why these thoughts of mine do not inhabit another – a Muslim woman burning alive in more than the sun for being unveiled, a child of a disappeared Pole in a forest near white Russia, a South African miner, ass daily probed, giving the merry widow its glow, a rubber worker from Indonesia, his grandfather killed in 1965, in the uprising, an American nun, who taught sharing – that’s what she called it – in South America, now somewhere in its Incan ground, or a revolutionary living in a world without accidents of fate . . . or wondering . . . hung up, if he loved Mary, because he could, or if he loved her instead because he could not . . . The money that pays the next bills, it gives no answer, no clue, doesn’t it, as I give it to the brewers of the world . . . this well-lit, mortal world? Because They raised the children to be unkind because the world was unkind because they raised the children to be unkind because the world was unkind because they raised the children to be unkind because the world was unkind because they raised the children to be unkind be- cause the world was unkind because they raised the children to be un-kind because the world was unkind.