a mind in a marble
in an echoing, wide open world far far away from you, i run.
only then
to stop suddenly.
and a shout rings out as i cry in circles…
turning into a tune, that begins to play,
splintering from the last letters of scream.
and I'm thrown into a nightmare.
my breaths beating,
unsteady.
imagining the end,
of everything.
the tune,
the world,
the screams,
my life,
you.
who waits at the end,
holding a gift wrapped in red,
that melts when i reach out
causing the iron stench of blood
to pinch my mouth
from nowhere and everywhere
all at once.
this isnt something i want.
just something given to me,
something expected of me,
but not quite
not yet
me.
nevertheless,
i take this gift for now.
because something else
red
taints my vision.
love or possibly hate
for the tune,
the world,
the screams,
my life,
you.
who has,
given everything,
knows everything,
loves everything.
just as i will.
but you, are not quite,
and never will be
me.