Self Portrait with a Piano
The bench doesn’t know me anymore.
Not like it knows my sibling,
Or my mother,
Or my grandmother,
Or my grandfather.
Not like it used to know
Me.
A poet sits down at a keyboard and tries to remember what it felt like when letters were in order
from A to G.
Tries to remember a language of symbols she spent so long studying
And too long forgetting.
Grandfather stares down at her and she wants to share anything with him other than a name.
Music has been proven to help the forgetful remember
And she is forgetting how to look at something written
And make it her own instead of picking it apart.
She is trying to forget how hard dedication was
So she can have just this one thing.
She is trying to hold on to everything she ever was without fighting for it
And it is slipping away.
I sit down at the piano again and pretend I never left.
I will let it all return to me slowly.
Love it, Chloe. Such a poignant piece ! True and delicate. Touching the deep. Your soul remembers. Piano and song ……not as faraway as you think.
Nana
This brings tears to my eyes. Your use of language is deep, evocative and emotional. I remember you remembering how to make beautiful music and struggling to meet expectations others had for you. You left the piano behind for a while so you could find your authentic voice. I can hear you, Chloe. Are you coming back to claim the family legacy in your own time and in your own distinctive place?
What an amazing piece of work this is. I love it!
beautfiul!