lifetimes ago i remember wishing upon a star as a child i'm still waiting for that wish to come true i know i'm patient but fuck me my childhood feels like two or three fucking lifetimes ago when i see them these days i don't bother to make any wishes fool me once... -------------------------------------------------- a hamster wheel the constant race have or have not first or last rich or poor it is a hamster wheel that has no stop not even with death i still know dead people gone for over twenty years still getting mail it is why i stay within the fringes out in the margins and creases of life you can't imagine what you can get away with when no one is paying attention ----------------------------------------------------------------------- the years apart the muse has slid back into my life i think the years apart weighed on each of us it reminded me of just how big of an asshole i can be at times it also taught me how much a sincere apology can mean to someone now, i never thought of marriage or children or even being allowed to get close enough for anything but now, given this crazy world all these options seem to be on the table should be an interesting summer ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- in hindsight and of course just when i start to think about having a wife or whatever in my life no one is interested anymore in hindsight i'm sure this is how it was meant to be loners don't suddenly have a spell of good luck and the perfect wife appears and utopia ensues life is about learning to swallow the hate and pain and pretend waking up the next day it will all change ----------------------------------------------------------- be careful what you wish for death is creeping closer to my door my mother has already cheated death twice i doubt i will get that fucking lucky
J.J. Campbell (1976 – ?) is stuck in suburbia, plotting his escape. He’s been widely published over the years, most recently at Horror Sleaze Trash, The Rye Whiskey Review, Disturb The Universe Magazine, The Beatnik Cowboy and Cajun Mutt Press. You can find him most days on his mildly entertaining blog, evil delights. (https://evildelights.blogspot.com)