you’re not real
do you remember the night that you told me
i look like how saffron flowers taste
dancing on your tongue and coating your fingertips in a red golden hue
like the color if we set the world on fire
we were laying in that one hammock
in the backyard of that one party (i don’t remember who threw it)
and it was dark
so i don’t know how you could’ve seen me
with only the moonlight and a shot of tequila to help you perceive more clearly
maybe you thought you could save me
or maybe i thought you could save me
either way
you made me believe arson could be beautiful and
saffron mixed with tequila wouldn’t taste so bad together
both bitter, both burning, but in the end
something you either hate or love
do you remember that night as clearly as i do
where we dreamed of setting the world ablaze (metaphorically speaking)
and you matched my warmth
all i could think was that
you’re not real
as you covered my torso
with the blanket the host gave
(october chills are no joke)
i could see the kindness in your smile
and the understanding in your touch
i liked how you didn’t want me to be cold
(even though I loved my outfit and didn’t want you do cover it up)
you kept holding my hands and kissing them
like they were actual saffron
to try and get its medicinal properties to seep into your skin
and hopefully infuse me into you.
that night was the first i realized
there’s no way i won’t be consumed by you.