Barbie
“Dear Elaine,” she writes on a new postcard. “I saw Barbie today. I did. A Barbie doll come to life. This woman. I swear. That’s what she looked like. I was out with Holly. You know. Running errands. Took a break and stopped at Starbucks. Got a Mocha Cookie Crumble Frappuccino for me. A Puppuccino for Holly. And there she was. Barbie. No kidding. In a pink convertible. Barbie pink. It was. I swear. Driving down the street. Right in front of us. We were sitting on the patio. You know. Enjoying the sun and our drinks. When she zoomed by. Looked just like my old Barbie doll. I swear. She did. Oh, how I loved that doll! Her long, silky, ash blonde hair. Her bendable legs. Saved my allowance for months. I did. Bought her at Zayre. Spent all my money on her. Every month. No kidding. Lots of outfits. I bought for her. A wardrobe case. Accessories. Everything I could. Except that car. That pink convertible. Too expensive. But everything else? Yeah. I bought it. Only the best for my Barbie. And now, and now. Here she is. Today. Driving past us at Starbucks. In that convertible. Barbie pink. Just think. My Barbie doll come to life. Seriously. Forty years later. What are the odds? You know?”
Who Knew?
“Dear Elaine,” she writes on another postcard. “It’s like this. In this dog magazine. The current issue. Yes. That’s the one. An article on dental care. You know. For Holly. For dogs. It says dental chews aren’t enough. I mean. They say, they say. They don’t do the job. Not completely. Even though my groomer. She’s the one. Not me. Never me. No way I’m brushing a dog’s teeth. Nope. Not happening. Every month. She does this. Brushes Holly’s teeth. My sweet Yorkie. And then, and then. I give her dental chews. Holly, that is. Every day. I do. But these people! These vets. This magazine. They say daily dental chews aren’t enough. That I need to do more. Oh, yeah? Like what? Like dental powder. Alright. So I found some. At PetSmart. Kelp. That’s what it is. Just sprinkle it on her food. Once a day. That’s it. Nutritious to eat. Plus, plus. It dissolves plaque. It does. And tartar. That too. So I bought some. And she likes it. Holly, that is. Okay then. Mission accomplished. Good to have that behind me. What’s next?”
Laura Stamps is the author of 50 novels, novellas, short story collections, and poetry books. Forthcoming: “The Good Dog” (Prolific Pulse Press 2023) and “Addicted to Dog Magazines” (Impspired, 2023). Recipient of a Pulitzer Prize nomination and 7 Pushcart Prize nominations. www.LauraStampsFiction.blogspot.com
Happiness
It’s a great blessing that the heart beats
It’s a blessing the souls are alive and well
It’s a blessing to live safe and sound,
Tell, hey, person what else is needed?
It’s a blessing the tree of ignorance has died,
It’s a happiness that the hearts full of freedom
It’s a great blessing to be servant of Allah,
Tell, hey, person, what else is needed?
It’s a blessing to have big bravery
It’s a blessing to earn with difficulty
It’s a blessing fate gives us to feel lucky
Tell, hey, person, what else is needed?
It’s a blessing my mom says loving words
It’s a happiness that my father’s eyes smiling
It’s a happiness that our country peacefully living
Tell, hey person, what else needed you?
Imaginations
They say imagination has sharp wings
Oh, it flies anywhere
Which in human imaginations
Reach the heavens everywhere
They surrounded me too
Flew away towards the dreams
Filling my world with joy
Everything came alive around me
I travelled to Paris, America and Rome
I was on the seventh sky at that moment
That Turkey welcomed me warmly
But I missed my sweet home.
I saw so many places
Almost laughed for a moment
Looking at the purest sea
Missed you, my Motherland.
Turning the road of my thoughts
I returned to my place at once.
Strange joy, strange pleasure
A special feeling spread over my soul.
Ochildiyeva Shahnoza Abdivohid qizi was born on July 17, 2006 in the republik of Uzbekistan, Surkhandarya region, Denov district. Presently, she studies at school number 49 in 10th grade. She is a Captain of the Denov District Council of the Youth Union of Uzbekistan. She actively participates different national competitions, festivals, gaining honorable places. Also one of the youngest and most active members of several international organizations. Her poems have been published in several newspapers and magazines. In 2021, the first collection of poetry was published under the name “Yurakdagi orzularim”. Samples of creativity were included in the anthologies “Türkçenin dünyadaki özbek sesi” published in the Republic of Turkey and “Talented voices of Uzbekistan” published in America. In 2022, her new book came out of publication under the title “She’riyat o’ziga ayladi asir”. Her new book which was called “Happiness” was published in Amerika. Nowadays her books are selling in 26 countries of the world!
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straight from cuba
seek out the lord
in the piano bar
down the street
maybe in the
curves of the
beautiful woman
playing the bass
guitar
maybe the lord
is lining up on
the table in the
corner
or unzipping her
shirt a little as she
tries to make an
impossible combo
shot
seek out the lord
in a plume of cigar
smoke straight from
cuba
the lord surely must
be in this glass of
whiskey
you have to be
a little drunk to
believe in a place
called heaven
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proud to say
spent the afternoon
listening to dolly
parton songs while
my mother was in
her physical therapy
session
proud to say
none of the
poems were
about the
obvious
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the conversations get a little wordy these days
i never had the need
to keep up with anyone
never cared for kings
and queens, presidents,
principals or gods
got really comfortable
talking to myself at
an early age
the conversations get
a little wordy these days
someone wants to show
off all those thirteen letter
words they know
i know i am the odd one
the one everyone could
think would be the next
mass gunman
and i have never even
owned a gun
although the local gun
shop and i share the
same first name
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live longer than me
walking with my mother
up and down the sidewalk
on a finally sunny day
she wants to get more
mobile again
either she really feels
alive again or she is
determined to see if
she could live longer
than me
my anxiety has put
the money on her
it must have forgotten
how stubborn i really
am
i could probably live
to 100 just to fucking
spite everyone
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who will check my emails when i die
the white noise
is meant to calm
dull you to sleep
instead, it is slowly
driving me insane
who will check
my emails when
i die
do ghosts need
dick pills or
have the desire
to contribute to
a political
campaign
sleep in the
sunshine
go drinking
at midnight
the lost souls
like to gather
at the corner
humming jane says
like we did thirty
years ago
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J.J. Campbell (1976 – ?) is old enough to know better. He’s been widely published over the years, most recently at The Beatnik Cowboy, Horror Sleaze Trash, The Black Shamrock, The Rye Whiskey Review and Yellow Mama. You can find him most days on his mildly entertaining blog, evil delights. (https://evildelights.blogspot.com)
I Don’t Trust Spring
I don’t trust spring so I wore my winter coat
And now I am too warm thanks to duplicitous spring.
Fate moves too quickly for me
Like the important email I am waiting for which will not arrive,
But in reverse.
The world is too fast for me
Or possibly too slow.
The joggers are not over dressed
The trees sprout leaves in just the right amounts.
But I am left out of the season
Like an email which will not arrive.
Like an email which will not arrive
I should go to sleep in my coat
And dream of the bare arms of winter.
And dream of the bare arms of winter.
And dream of the bare arms of winter.
I don’t know what comes next.
Revolutionary Song
There’s a great pale beetle in the brain of James Madison.
It crawls through his buttocks onto the cheese plate of Benjamin Franklin.
Cheese bounces like rubber upon the fiery honor of Alexander Hamilton.
The narrative journey wears the green plaid socks of George Washington.
Do not doubt it; do not doubt it.
History will swallow you if you doubt it.
We have found a fearless squid writing fearful poems in its ink sac
and they all say do not doubt it.
Thomas Jefferson winds up his wooden teeth
and they chew upon the wretched fungus in the eye of compromise.
In Paris they sing to the great wigs
marching on the cloudy rhetoric of Thomas Jefferson.
The ink sac is dry; the doubt drips like chicken soup
into the soul of the brain of the heart.
The origins of cryptids rise from tea like terror
and Patrick Henry holds a frisbee between his gleaming gums.
Every toss is a vote for truth.
Every miss is a vote for death.
The country stands strong as the pudding
that leaks from Daniel Webster’s forehead.
Do not doubt it; do not fear the porcine call
Of gregarious egregious sand worms in the stall.
JFK and LBJ come drifting down like fall.
Praise until you doubt it but don’t doubt it.
we thought we weren’t
all that i was
was a compilation of what
i wasn’t:
how we bounced a
deflating rubber ball to and
fro across white faded
lines on the schoolyard blacktop talking and
talking about trivial
things that led us to cover each
other’s cool gray surfaces so when
finally the romantic
disruption we had
waited for came we
realized there was this empty
sphere of dry air below
the other’s surface and
plasmatic energy, unstable, below our
own, a dammed-up deluge like a
sip of carbonated
drink; rising
anticipation for the syrupy
taste then the spiky
needling in the soft
skin of your cheeks as you
attempt to swallow and
swallow as the drink goes
flat in your mouth and still you
carry the lingering taste and the
memory of craving junk
food; now you
wonder what was the
appeal and the firmest
memory you retain is that of the
deflating rubber ball, worn, durable, and
unremarkable.
my health matters too
down in the hard black earth
before the shadow-gifted body-
shaming shrieks with future rank
refused among the fresh night
blossoms on a cork-popped psyche
stashed by means you guessed
were taken back on board you eat
what’s yours and listen for today
is just the ticket for a hunt through
city streets you seem to recollect
a flock of bats you made some
conversation with the sith you
welcomed sharp incursions
of the mob her mouth’s the
thing you seemed to say was
viscous there was flowing under
glass was then bizarre in vain
so let his head fall back on
bones and set aside more
surface bursts the searching
worse the land was hot she
nursed him to his smooth
and privileged form then
edged his syncopated back
a corpulent in ball and
chains they wrapped him
up in veneration and in
pink to table and to then
compare with all the fuck-
ups on our screens a teenage
fantasy for sale a part of that
a piece of his the warmth and
then the getting-good it’s
morning if it’s bright enough
the house anxieties that led
to fill the plague graves early
on are like a growing list of
foods their scatterings were
surely doomed and sometimes
tampered with in sheds
we spoke lovingly of roe
deliverance through a glancing-off of riddles
in one untidy corner of the mind delusions
widely disapproved of as yet others are
reluctant to placate themselves at all and
almost perish with their pleadings and denial
and you might even get tugged off when once
the tired poetry arrives with stomach botch
the wilder sort and if there is a god or not
you stumble through your stratagems
hallucinating forest fires and now she’s
troubled by her arms again and only so much
scribbling through the pain can halt this placid
streak if that’s allowed to gift you motivation
but it’s not like that at all it’s milk two sugars
then the mescaline arrives and long-term
prisoners are forced to stream some aspects
of that vicious night with pushing motions of
their blood-stained hands while pools of septic
effluence gush out from washed-up dreams
so short on fatherly affection yet again but
this time on the railway banks or rolling down
the river tyne with bark from ripped-up holy
trees while glancing round at comic-book type
treatments line by line or understanding great
cathedrals in the season of the wight the un-
remembered and the meaningless shape up
the artist in you rides the london eye
partly political
keep them squaddies on their metal by the by
no longer visible like beasts persuaded through
your efforts down against the rusted factory
gates while dipping bending showing all the
glowing stacks of burnt remains of shamed
officials on bell-bottom nights without the
magic mountain camp with boots that shine
like bathroom taps or crawled neck residue
that thrashed was where it started then was
torn the thing that’s feared the most was
taken from a point on stolen braille maps by
the river’s scent a three-lane highway out of
nowhere on a mountain bike or steaming
thick and creamy cabbage by the light above
a patch on posh boy’s vast inherited estates
that’s got to be extruded from a space that’s
partly labelled by the past and having spent
the morning playing human chess in tunnels
or a maze it crawls a london boy by chance
unorthodox supplies a big old grub to catch the
only interspecies still at large perhaps the
bloodied swimming pool has given up its secret
to those corresponding principles at last and
with an excess of its like to read a telepathic
slow-descending self-erasing spine and side-lined
masks a crudely nauseating metronomic tick
within its zone beyond the pale with wish-
fulfillment at its core while washing out the
tupperware in fits who knows where
morning is before the shrivels week by
week still hating thatcher as they weed their
beds those nervous tits have been out there in
charge of landscape-format glass-based art
events an installation of suspended things that
much was visible along the curved beak’s
nesting lost in limbo and was long-suspected
by his friends of putting tories in the ground
without permission be widespread he states
the high mind's ornament deserves the block
and matter of the hours it is suggested that
the bold take notes on unscratched holograms
with common praise in some hard past was
smoking rocks and shooting up on city streets
with skipping ropes and spinning plates
while those of us who did refuse still wonder
when and why our hormone levels peaked
Eddie Heaton studied innovative and experimental poetry under the tutelage of post-modern poet and educator Keith Jebb, achieving a first-class honours degree. He also won the 2021 Carcanet Award for Creative Writing. His work has been published in Blackbox Manifold, Otoliths, Lothlorien, Focus and Fold Editions
Why Me?
I have Tourette’s syndrome and bipolar disorder yes blessed with them both
And once I was even arrested under oath
One is neurological no one can explain
The other is caused by the unnecessary pain
Normal basic an average are words of dismay
I’m here to share with you there is another way
No need to judge another for how they make you feel
Take a look in the mirror and see what is real
Love is truly the answer thank you God above
Even Sigmund Freud said hard work and love
As we open up our backpacks and take one thing out
You can always put it back in if you have a doubt
Life is not easy no manual given at birth
Yet 8 billion humans exist together on earth
There is no one like you nor anyone like me
Put one foot in front of the other and soon you shall see
That God above has never let us down
It’s time to hold hands again my friends in each and every town
Trauma
It happened at birth a coma for
me, for others I'm not sure
The fact of the matter is, there is no cure
It comes in many avenues, from physical to the mind
There is no defining it, no particular kind
Some have it for a lifetime, some right away
If we don't deal with, forever it will stay
Exposure to so many has really made me ache
Accepting my own trauma has really made me wake
The pain is deeper than I ever thought it could be
As I open my heart to others they can clearly see
How much I am hurting over this recent tragic loss
Not only losing my wife but
dealing with a horrible boss
What I am realizing is that I am not alone
Coming together with complete strangers
and seeing how they have grown
Gives me inspiration way beyond belief
Never did I imagine there could be so much relief
I thought I was alone suffering this awful pain
Thinking I was crazy, literally going insane
Listening to their stories as they
share their lives with me
Has surely made me realize that I can plainly see
That trauma is a creature that comes in many ways
I am thankful for this experience
and cherish all my days
As I wake each morning wondering
what the day will bring
And listen to birds outside my window sing
I can't help but think and hope that
each day brings a smile
To everyone's lives that's here on
earth for only a little while
I pray to God each night as I lay my head down to rest
That ALL our trauma lives will turn out for the best
My trauma is forever, but my heart is now stronger
For human bond and love of life will last even longer
Tourette's and Bipolar Disorder, Yes, Both
Hey, Darin and Marcy, I finally found
out I have Tourette's, holy shit!
"You can have them all little sons of
bitches and get away with it!"
In Tau Kappa Epsilon, my fraternal
name was "Twitch."
A term of endearment, a nickname I will never ditch
Living thirty-five years of my life,
always wondering why
I would go from complete laughter
to a sudden tearful cry
Teased my entire childhood mainly by those we "trust"
Adults were the worst of all; high
school was a fucking bust
Called a son of a bitch by Dale Thomas
and literally kicked out of class
And Jeff Nynehouse, "I can't handle you
on the bus," what a fucking ass
My label given to me has long been misled
Even those who have this "gift" have been misled
Medication was prescribed; what a fiasco that became
It is not okay for medical professionals
to cause "US" to go insane
The only neurological disorder known
to those prescribing drugs
Sorry, Dr. Narus, LOVE is the answer;
please start prescribing "hugs"
"I want some of what you're on,
can I have some SHIT?"
"I have Tourette's, you want some of IT?"
My final straw came when I was
arrested and thrown in jail
"DUI other than alcohol," just try and make bail
Before you judge those of us who suffer from this pain
Think to yourself, "What do I have to gain?"
We all have a disability; just take a look in the mirror
"Can I walk on water?" or do I just have a fear?
How to accept others, no matter the
twitch, the glasses, or the creed
Thank God for those who can understand
why I choose to smoke weed
It is the only true relief I have
ever had other than LOVE
"Footprints in the Sand," my friends;
thank you, God above
So often people walk away or simply want to ignore
Maybe Tourette's will go away, we won't
have to deal with "THEM" anymore
To all of you that have this "gift,"
the one that makes me, ME
Don't ever let them put you in the
"box," live and be free
I am proud of my life each and every day
Of course, there are times I think, make IT go away"
So when you are passing judgment
or "choosing" to discriminate
You are one of "THEM," you are causing the HATE!
This poem is from William Hartwick’s book The Invisible Backpack. which is available for order.
The Invisible Backpack is a labor of love created from a life-long struggle to come to terms with who the author is and accept himself as he was meant to be. We are all born with an invisible backpack on our backs. It is where we put all the hurts of life. When we are young and courageously climbing the stairs of life, it is extremely light, and we really don’t know it’s there. As we get older, it gets heavier with whatever pain, grief, or trauma we experience. Unfortunately, we resist taking these feelings out of our backpacks and let go of them. Some of us hold onto them so tightly, we forget to make room for the things that lighten our load…forgiveness, acceptance, tolerance, and love. For if we can put these items in our backpacks, it will cancel out all of the negative things we’ve been holding onto, and our life journeys will become much lighter.