Essay from Amina Kasim Muhammad

The world feels so loud sometimes,

So alive that you forget you’re running out of time.

Not today. Not tomorrow. 

But someday, grief shows up one morning and just moves in. 

And love?

Love stands by the curtains.

Not handing out comfort to everybody.

Just watching. Waiting.

Seeing what you actually need. 

This isn’t a biography I’m trying to list its  dates.

This is just a heart that kept going after it got broken.

A soul that figured out the ground is cold,

But still decided to sit in the chair anyway,

Behind the curtains. 

This isn’t really about the chairs or the curtains.

It’s about how still you learn to be,

To sit in your grief without letting it crush you.

Like no matter what cracks underneath,

That chair holds.

Except, death… 

We call it the uninvited guest,

A weight that settles in the hollow of the chest.

Death is the one crack that swallows everything.

No sounds.

Just a hole that takes the sorrow and the love both at once. 

But here’s what I’ve learned:

Death took the person,

The creative mind,

The talented hands.

But it didn’t take what they left behind. 

Grief teaches you something If you let it.

Not right away. It beats you up first.

But eventually,

It shows you how to pay attention.

How to hold things tighter without squeezing too hard.

How to sit in the quiet and still find something worth making. 

Maybe we don’t get over it.

Maybe we just learn to build around it.

We take the loss and turn it into something.

A poem, a meal, a small kindness,

Or a minute of patience we didn’t have before. 

And when the poem forgets it’s a poem

And becomes a room,

It becomes a room where loss finally takes off its coat.

Where love doesn’t just visit anymore,

It sits down to stay.

Where grief and gladness walk in together,

Like they always do, and for once,

They don’t have a single thing left to ask. 

Except…

What does the poem say about us?

It says we are the ones who need it.

We’re the ones who take these little black marks,

These little arranged scratches on a page,

And we make them bleed.

We make them bleed with our own blood.

We make them sing with our own throats—

The ones that get tight.

The ones that crack.

We make them hold everything we cannot hold by ourselves.

And then… somehow… we can.

Because we are the creatures who build bridges out of breath.

We are the ones who go looking for our own faces in the ink.

We let the poem teach us death.

Not by lecturing.

Not by explaining.

But by showing us how to live. 

And it’s not about filling the hole.

It’s about learning to live around it.

Knowing it’s there.

And still… still creating.

And maybe, that’s enough.

Amina Kasim Muhammad is a Nigerian writer and spoken word poet with a deep passion for storytelling. She finds herself drawn to the way stories can transport readers to different worlds and how ideas can be shaped and shared through the power of writing. Valuing her pen and book as essential tools of expression, she is also an advocate for the Sustainable Development Goals (SDGs).  Amina is an active member of the Minna Literary Society (MLS) and Open Arts Kaduna, where she engages with fellow creatives and contributes to the literary community. Her work has been published; one of her poems appeared in Synchronized Chaos Magazine.  You can connect with her on Instagram: @meena_kasim. 

Poetry from Gionni Valentin

Way of Origami

I fold

fold paper in

fold into myself

fold my hand

a Royal Flush

folded from me

when I fold into myself

I create these things

and imbue meaning

into them 

through

my writing 

and you believe this

because you finished

reading me

Property of Doctor Yes

A white boat made of wood,

wood refined into something they call paper.

It sits on a wooden river

colored a rich caramel

with a white background.

It has no sail

so isn’t permitted movement

Why is it there?

Because it allowed me to write this

A Game of Sudoku

They speak wrong numbers

a syntax line,

an error column,

a diagnostic fault of reality

warring over my way of thought

moving through my straw head

of full entry and brain matter,

whispers of shape with no end.

Like the quiet, you want nothing

because something is missing.

I Am Content

I eat when hungry,

I drink when thirsty,

I sleep when tired.

What more could I want?

That’s how I know 

I’m trapped.

Mount Olympus

And then boom

a drywall with holes from butterflies

and a leaf with ostrich eggs

the skeleton lay

an ant caught in his joint

looking at Life

her heavenly skin

a green away from him

he explodes into ash

is reborn

a rose bush

with no

thorns

Gionni Valentin is currently is his UD2 year at St. Benedict’s Prep in Newark, NJ.

Prose from David Sapp

Holy Grail

Each afternoon, between Gomer Pyle and Big Ten Theater, the pantry door opened to a small altar and a humble gray amphora, the cookie jar Grail of my Oreo eucharist. My arm disappeared into the dark, wide mouth womb eagerly to the elbow. My small fingers fished for six. There was a compulsive comfort in the number, and with blackened teeth I’d sit before the TV transfixed in ritual, gulping a glass of Nestle’s Quick.

After Mom stopped cooking, cleaning and comforting, after Dad lost the house, the business and confidence, after thrown curses, clothes and coffee, a hysterectomy, psych wards, divorce, therapy and thirty years, my mother sent the forgotten vessel on some well-intentioned birthday errand. She’d glued the broken lid to contain the cargo of my childhood pain. For a while it was on exhibition, an empty antique sitting upon a shelf. I brushed my teeth obsessively after each occasional cookie.

Today I’ll reap and rejoice in a quiet little catharsis. With hammer and shovel, I break and bury the jar in my backyard. Today, I can see my wounds as a sliver slices a finger. What I once thought brought solace, now appears brittle and sharp. Blood fills my hand and drips wet, warm and sticky into the earth. This new grave is moist, fertile and sweet.

Saint Francis

I was canonized, or nearly so, in Ogunquit, Maine last summer on vacation. At dawn, along a granite edge, a collision of continent and ocean, gazing at the Atlantic’s implacable crush upon the shore, I sat in a deck chair cupping a croissant and five-dollar latte (no vow of poverty quite yet).

However presumptuous, a passing fantasy, I thought of myself as Saint Francis. Ridiculous. (On my pilgrimage, a tourist charter to Assisi, I only recall the charming Giotto frescos there; no birds congregated in the basilica; however, I wasn’t paying attention.)

I wasn’t blessed with a martyr’s beatific vision, no celestial seraphim. I was more attuned to inconsequential sparrows flitting about my feet in unassuming feathers, in browns, grays, the drab shades of friars’ habits. Unlike the brash gulls, sparrows, humble, timid and admittedly and prudently so, were terrified of the sea.

My Fioretti: I’d like to believe they gathered for my sermon, my wisdom, my eloquence. Surely, I would allay all fears; so, I mimicked their small chirps, but they cocked heads skeptically.

Graciously indifferent, they skittered, too busy with pecking and scratching, a miracle they listened at all.

Weapons

When Vietnam took all the boys and splayed them on the evening news, a boy, like most boys emulating most men, but especially in uniform, I was smitten with TV shows on World War Two, diluted versions without the gore, without the complications of falling red dominoes.

After failing at catch, Dad tried again in a trifecta to win my affection. Dad fashioned a wooden machine gun (my deadly 30 cal.) to mow down Nazis in Normandy. Keenly, I provided the “rat-a-tat-tat.” However, screams and morphine were not included.

Dad built a cannon from a board and a pipe, artillery on wheels pulled behind my tricycle, a barrage devasting for the Hun. However, my little howitzer was mothballed, rusting when I began riding a real bike. Undeterred, Dad bought more lumber.

Dad spent hours (I was not around) on the envy of all the other boys. An ace over France, I sat in the cockpit of my Spitfire shooting Messerschmitts from the sky. However, trouble was, it lacked altitude. I never left the driveway, never wore my parachute.

Dad was on yet another sales call and I was home alone when I took a hammer to my grounded fighter. After the crash, it never flew again.

Before I Die

An artillery shell stirs my flesh with mud and soldiers divide my limbs among dogs. Just before I die, I’ll taste the softness of my beloved’s lips and a ripe, sweet, summer peach, not bitter plastic tubes or pain-killing pills. I’ll listen to the house finch and the wren but not the television getting in a final commercial, nor one last bit of Mozart’s brilliance.

My body glides in perfect, choreographed grace over steering wheel, dash, through windshield glass, my blood painting car hood and pavement in sweeping, expressionistic gestures. Just before I die, I’ll gaze upon a pale blue sky filled with the warm light of morning. I’ll not look up to a clean, white ceiling and harsh fluorescents flickering; I’ll inhale the humid breath of Spring or the pungent decay of October; I’ll not smell disinfectant on cold stainless steel.

I’ve lost my speech; my right side hangs as limp as a nursing home prick, but I manage half a smile when I’m told my heart has worn too thin. Just before I die, I must hold something in my hands: my grandchild’s face or my son’s graying head; I’ll dance one last time upon the forest floor amidst Mayapples and sassafras; my feet will never reach the clean tile beneath an iron bed.

Essay from Asalbonu Otamurodova

Why Can’t We Say “No”?

Why is it so difficult for us to say “no”? It’s an interesting question. Throughout our lives, we often believe that we are living for ourselves, when in reality, we may be living under the expectations of others without even realizing it. Naturally, we all have our own needs and desires, but so do the people around us.

If we fail to set boundaries with others—if we cannot say “no”—we will continue to live under their demands. This is not just an unfortunate situation; it can be deeply harmful. Let me tell you this: learn to set boundaries with the people around you, even if they are very close to you. Until you define those boundaries, you will gradually become a prisoner of others’ expectations, because they will always continue to demand more.

Only when you stop living for others will you truly begin to live for yourself. I once read in a book: “If you consider burning in fire to be natural, you will turn into ashes and come to believe you deserve every suffering.”

Be courageous. At this point in your life, your primary responsibility is to be able to say “no,” not to wait passively like a sacrifice. Never forget this. Living under the pressure of others’ expectations will only harm you and slowly extinguish your self-confidence.

Poetry from Bhagirath Chowdhary

Global Spiritual Unity

Humanity must have one God

Or do without God

Many Gods divide humanity

Humanity must stop dividing divinity

The divisions of divinity

Ultimately divide human minds and hearts in reality 

Human hearts divided thus

Lead to divisions of one reality as such

Because of this divided reality

The human consciousness suffers duality

Divided human consciousness in reality

Condemns humanity to terrible suffering 

When one hand doesn’t know what other hand is doing

To divide God is the greatest human ignorance

Dividing God is indeed no work of any prophetic intelligence

Proposing and having divided divinity

Leads to the greatest planetary confusion

Divided God is truly a grand illusion (Maya)

In fact many divisions of one divinity

Caused a terrible fragmentation of one reality   

Aristotle talked about the holistic holon

Arthur Koestler talked about it in detail

Ghost in the Machine was soul’s hidden tale

David Bohm explained it by explicate and implicate order

Science and spirituality played with it at every corner

If we can’t recognize and realize this divine holon

Then humanity must leave the God alone

Humanity can’t reach ultimate truth without spiritual unity

Evolutionary wisdom shows the path to only one reality

Humanity must rediscover God

Through unity of spiritual diversity

All else shall lead to ignorant arrogance and vanity

God becoming many gods at the beginning of creation (एकोहम् बहुस्याम भवति।)

Needs to become One again at the apex of human evolution (बहुहम् एकोस्याम् भवति।)

But as great Aristotle said 

The whole is greater than the sum of its parts

Through global unity of all spiritual paths

Humanity shall enjoy a far greater spiritual whole

The sum of whose parts will be greater than the prevailing mole.

Poetry from Joseph Ogbonna

The Nightingale’s Song 

Perching on the dried out somewhat fragile branch,

I am attired in plain brown grandeur atop my rusty brown pants, veiling my pallid bottom.

In an accustomed migratory demeanor with the best decorum of an itinerant lover,

I render a tuneful, lyrical and sweet sounding ode, sung in mellifluous high and low pitches to nothing more than her utmost delight.

Innately endowed with the soprano, alto, tenor and bass choral tunes,

I whistle with trilling and gurgling notes.

Notes that romantically convey my nocturnal intents and proposals.

Mellifluent notes that take her even much deeper into an alluring estrous cycle.

Joseph C Ogbonna is a widely published poet. Some of his works have been published by Spillwords Press, Waxpoetry magazine, Written Tales magazine, North of Oxford, Doublespeak, Synchronized Chaos, PoetryXhunger, SoulfulValley, the International human rights arts movement, Empower Magazine, India, Poetrysoup and more than a dozen anthologies. He was a columnist for a magazine in India. He is also the winner of three poetry contests. 

His poems, ‘Napoleon to Josephine and Josephine to Napoleon,’ were both aired by the BBC Radio 3 to mark the bicentenary of the death of Napoleon Bonaparte. He lives in Enugu, Nigeria.

Poetry from Joshua Martin

A Third

Fate   banned   opposition
    accounted              human
resignation          famine
                 hesitated        losses
tragedy          parking lot       fortune
        an indeed         appointment to
railroad                             obscurity
             figured              rabid
    talkative           feted        boom
association    prickly     conduction
         ambidextrous                  ironic
      plight                  lackluster
serial               complexity         industrial
            pit                       stomach
                diplomatic           user
preventative        causing in
      bureaucracy          courts
                   indignation           pipes
                               views
generalist                        competence
            cited
domino       geologist          period
               featured         salacious 
incognito            flame
     network            calling card
         fortune teller                   average
profile            breaking                pinch
           discontinuity       memoir






no actual pepper

pillage offer of little capacity
corpse of desolation
                        an impeachment
                        sweeping plunder

          boom prince racked
          confused epilogue
          tracking hangover
          recognized credit
                               tangle handguns
                               nestling ink
                               and social scale

quill gravely half-timbered
downriver twenty minutes
worth ermine trace spires
feathery measured stovepipe
goatee hatred golden chain reaction

     cross,pit,currant,earlier,
     haberdasher,docks,notaries,
     penny,euphemism,clutch,
     voyages,gums,unilateral
     baffled,isolated,profits,flames

globe suffers navigational cargo
fraught astrolabe raids enthusiasm
viable endeavors plant icebergs
bone-jarring celebrity dully exact
shipmate grotesque jumping deck

                                           reach back
                                           looted event





Ongoing perpetuated concrete battlegrounds

Tape MACHINE wings
ballet elementary
        denial

>>> sessions
,             contents
     ,                rescinded
creditors influence
an influx of
           constructivist
disCOURSES<<<
………………..
	AS A
matter              of
       fluently
theoretical vigor
             CrashinG
&                   revising
     likewise
                eradication
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         Deep proactive
assumptions
                    caught
            glued          to
the portrait
of the embedded
                   sculptures
.
.
. 
   Oriented surface
napping                  ON
                  TOUR
        to                 floor
an invisibility collective
collaborating
    dissonant
shingles assembled
            fluorescent 
clusters
                       permeating
END
     notes
,              zeroed
         out              ,
left to flounder
                    in
unstoppable
                 elsewhere
a medium
     simplistic
preexisting
     generational
habit
     ineffective
,                day
   dreaming
           ,
       associated
detailed
              medium
          cool          dalliance
,
      variable               ,
artless          ,
            struggling
to                     possess
            a
                 curated
reserve.





Still fluid notion

Rude keeps guessing thumb imprint
suddenly spared sword allowances
no bazaar turning flair gold record
formerly airport research material.

Activation cosmopolitan funnel
     gliding     voracious     quartet
expanded self-regard amended
                 start vandalism
                 a piece whining
                 recorded barrel
                 ball of defection
                 scaling palace.

                                Splendid
                       telescopic fountain
                  : ToMb ToWeR   ,   unlikely
            diverting Rome,Istanbul,
                             Cairo,selfhood.

Groaning                        overgrown
             might reoccupied
        thousand-pillared             mosque
shapeless            shrine                  pilfered
                 eccentric heaps of
                 figurines contradict
                 wrecked courtly litter.

        “What they saw has gone native.”

                      “Very few words report friction.”

               “Distant assistants four later editions.”





Invisible or living

Weekly incidence welded to caution
: manure feigned membership :
           acute collarbone identity
          ,cosmic instigation,
                                an overreaction.

Critiques
        THUS = however futile
             separated caricature,
    verbose cartons of
                           ridicule.

                Feral outlook
                judges syntax.

                               [humane dystopian
                                madness (horizon)
                               ,supper club
                                        destined
                                film still       ,
                                turmoil of
                                effective
                                            drives].

Maxims aren’t full-contact programs.

     Atmospheric nihilism [collage
                             one another     ,
                             subjected to
                                    membership
                             dues & don’ts].

Underground segments
critical hysteria
hostile
          center=
                   stage.

Cacophonously burping
,mainstream contribution,
     hack,heck,hack,heck,hack.

                              Geriatric sponge
                              kicking backside /
                              slide discourse
                              features excerpts /

satire renews an activation /

                        themed civil wars / 
 
         public replicated self-definitions.

                Unconscious ethos broader guilt
                : exacting imaginary citizens :
                                               “Knotted ties apply
                                                 triumphant lust to
                                                 outstretch physiques.”

Musical rather than coherent.
                 [ideas campaigns
                  first person
           , judges harsh flasks]

Impaling begins.

Joshua Martin is a Philadelphia based writer and filmmaker, who currently works in a library. He is a member of C22, an experimental writing collective. He is the author most recently of the books punctuated avalanche (Stone Corpse Press) and en=raptur=ed [riverrun] & mingle (Ranger Press) He has had numerous pieces published in various journals. You can find links to his published work at joshuamartinwriting.blogspot.com