Synchronized Chaos Mid-August issue: Self, Others, Source

First of all, an announcement on behalf of Synchronized Chaos Magazine. We’re going to help authors with research by setting up a section where readers and contributors can volunteer to provide information to authors who want to do research for their writing projects. So, if you have knowledge or lived experience in some area and are open to answering questions for someone’s project, please email us at synchchaos@gmail.com and we’ll add you to our upcoming list!

Now for this month’s issue: Self, Others, Source. As a teenager I attended a spiritual retreat where the leader encouraged us to think of our relationship to ourselves, the people and other beings in our lives, and our Source, the higher power, however we understood that. He commented that when we got in trouble, we could imagine sending out an S-O-S and looking within, to our social networks, and our faith.

Some of this issue’s contributors engage with the self.

Person with rolled-up jeans leaving footprints in wet sand on the beach.
Image c/o Marina Shemesh

Bari Robinson’s excerpt from An American Daughter of Brown describes the inner strength and struggles of a young civil rights-era Black girl claiming her sense of self.

Sandra Rochelle describes a healing journey where a woman chooses play and joy over self-conscious judgement.

Rus Khomutoff speaks to dreams, the surreal, and the subconscious as Texas Fontanella’s pieces express energy, tension, and action within the artist’s mind and Mark Young sends up swatches and swathes of color and texture. J.D. Nelson experiments with thought bubble bursts of words.

J.J. Campbell reflects on memories and disillusionment and the fragility of hope as Elan Barnehama offers an exploration of how an introvert and an extrovert cope with tragedy.

Jonibek Miraxmedov presents the poetry of youth: first love, optimism, dedication and determination, and joy in life. Z.I. Mahmud examines the psychological and emotional world of T.S. Eliot’s The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.

Ancient Greek masks of warrior Agamemnon with closed eyes and a nose and eyebrows. Four masks in a grid, yellow, red, blue, and green.
Image c/o Circe Denyer

Mykyta Ryzhykh speculates on the competing twin powers of passion and destruction, Eros and Thanatos, sensuality and fear and death. Prosper Isaac draws on the dual nature of the cultural symbol of flowers, joy and grief, weddings and funerals, the happiness and sorrow making up all of our lives.

Salihu Muhammad’s piece reminds us that like ripples in a pond, our attitudes and character shape how we view the world.

Other work addresses the human and natural world around us.

Kylian Cubilla Gomez’ photography captures moments of delicacy, small creatures or objects, and encourages us to pay attention to our world on a micro level.

Marisa LaPorte describes a quest for peace of mind and peace within a family. Taylor Dibbert continues to reflect on a divorce and all it portends for his poetic speaker. Abdel Zahra Amara’s short story, translated by poet Faleeha Hassan, comments on the difference between pretty sentimentality and actual love.

David Sapp reflects on adult friendship and what makes a good friend versus a good colleague as Quinn’s evocative story highlights the power of childhood friendship to change a life and remain in a person’s memory for years.

Country kitchen watercolor scene. Silverware in a bucket, jars and dishes on wooden counters and shelves, flowers and a bowl of lemons out, spoons and implements in a bucket. Lantern and trees and sunny day outside.
Image c/o Linnaea Mallette

Talia Borochaner finds the poetry in childbirth, gardens, and kitchens as the heart of much existence. Abdullajonova Zurakhan’s poem laments a caring and faithful uncle who passed away. Nosirova Gavhar writes of a young ballerina shaped by the love and encouragement of her father. Ilhomova Mohichehra celebrates the sweet fruit and memories of her home village. Tursunova Sarvino brings a scientific analysis to an aspect of childcare, the development of children’s speech abilities.

Akmalova Zebokhan Akobirkhan contributes a whimsical love poem about the disorientation she feels due to her emotions. Maja Milojkovic reflects on different types of sentimental sweetness in life and cautions us to enjoy with discretion. Mesfakus Salahin evokes the various senses in his love poem.

Raquel and Brian Barbeito reminisce on the joy of living with seven dogs throughout their lives, each of whom had a unique personality. Sushant Kumar merges with both the Earth and a lover in his poem. Sayani Mukherjee highlights the power of the sun in an evocative summer pond scene while Wazed Abdullah reflects on the calm of a moonlit night. Naeem Aziz’ poem draws on natural imagery to highlight the inner and outer beauty of a woman he loves. Maftuna Rustamova’s work urges preservation of the natural environment as Lilian Dipasupil Kunimasa calls on people to step up amidst their trauma and exhaustion to heal Mother Earth.

Madinabonu Mavlonova outlines methods to improve seed germination in a plant biology laboratory. Ilnura Ibrohimova points out the importance of food safety and safe preservation of food as part of a strategy to feed the world.

Stylized photo of white windmills in a grassy field on a partly cloudy day.
Image c/o Alex Gruber

Jonibek also suggests ways for Uzbek businesses to adapt to technological changes and increasing environmental awareness. Muquaddas Maxmarejabova outlines the many practical and social changes that came with industrialization.

Isabel Gomez de Diego’s work captures history still standing: a concrete cellar and castle from centuries ago and a dinosaur museum. Shodiyeva Mehribon asserts the pride she takes in her heritage and homeland of Uzbekistan as a young person shaping her country’s future as Alina Ibrohimova offers a tribute to the nation’s Olympic athletes.

Sitora Otajonova outlines the promise and problems of social media for contemporary users. Pat Doyne expresses her hopes for civil dialogue, equality, and progressive values.

Fatima Abdulwahab’s piece is a lament for a lost home and family in a war-torn country while Faleeha Hassan describes war as a hungry, predatory, grotesque animal. The poetry of Abdulrasheed Yakubu Ladan highlights the corruption often present in politics when there is a great power imbalance. Mahbub Alam draws on the metaphor of a large bird being chased away to depict the recent student revolution in Bangladesh. Daniel DeCulla’s poetry highlights how even candidates praised with lofty rhetoric and slogans will not be perfect or bring peace to our world. Naeem Aziz writes of students taking to the streets to make things right.

Anila Bukhari encourages writers to bring hope to those who struggle and bear witness to the world’s tragedies. Martha Ellen’s poetry muses about wide-ranging effects of trauma on a personal level, finding compassion for aggressors as well as victims. Komron Mirza laments the decline of dignity, ethics, and compassion in his society.

Darker skinned person's hands cupped in front of them with a colorful (yellow and green and blue) world map superimposed on them.
Image c/o Omar Sahel

Bekzod Ergashev highlights the problem of youth unemployment within Uzbekistan and its effects on the economy as well as on youth confidence.

Nigora Tursunboyeva’s short story highlights the pain of impoverished orphans in Uzbekistan and the fragility of all our lives. Sonmin Yoongi urges people to live lives of compassion, dignity, and faith.

And still other contributors consider matters of faith, the divine, and sources of ultimate purpose and meaning in life.

Stephen Jarrell Williams’ poem evokes the light of truth coming through the darkness.

Jacques Fleury reviews Lori Shiller’s The Quiet Room through a philosophical lens, as a memoir of finding purpose and meaning through community and service while living with disabling mental illness.

Papers with numbers on a wooden table with little dots of light and a wooden letter Q and a pen.
Image c/o Gerd Altmann

Amirah Al-Wassif renders family tragedies and spiritual searchings into surrealist poetry while Kahlil Crawford reviews the eclectic, evocative, and ethereal stylings of musical artist Pinhdar.

Duane Vorhees probes and turns over thoughts about religion and art, history and youth, in his poetry.

Of course, facets of our existence cannot so easily be divided into three boxes. Many contributors’ sense of self is shaped by their communities and cultures, many times meaning and purpose in life comes from serving others, and it becomes possible to live in a healthy relationship with others when one is strong within oneself.

So, while these dimensions inevitably overlap and influence each other, they provide a general guide to understanding ourselves and are a source of artistic inspiration.

Essay from Z.I. Mahmud

T.S. Eliot, courtesy of the National Library of America

Critically examine the postmodern poem of the greatest inventive genius of twentieth century poetry, The Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock.

T.S. Eliot’s Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock is substantially pontificated by the readings of Grover Smith’s discovery of Henry James’s story Crapy Cornelia about a chivalrous heroic charismatic personae in nostalgic temperament for being fallen in love despite polarized worlds. To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead, Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all———Should say: “That is not what I meant, at all. That is not it, at all.”

Verbosity of Polonius oriented Prufrock is cast in the image of Hamlet like dilemma upon the portentous questions touched by the magical boudoir of Lazarus comments upon the appealing picture of plight; despite baroque verbal embroidery of the afterthought along with the women come and go telling of Michelangelo marred by the deterrent of wondered fogg in the moorings of “Do I dare?” and “Do I dare?”


Prufrock’s deluded and diseased existentialist psychosexual spirituality reanimates after all the captivity of brooding alienation in the salvation from the redemptive quest towards security and non vulnerability. Mermaids are thought to be elusive and mystic fantastic beasts as byproducts of Eliotic phantasmic escapism. This solitude of the phantasmagoria world, shuffling memories and repressed desires ultimately pioneers ship wreckage of humanity. Harsh voices and harsh laughter of the women summoned upon the Prufrockian spirit from the shadowed archways and diabolical gothic apartments; along with drunkards reeling by chattering and cursing like monstrous beasts and grotesque children in awaital by the doorsteps and heard shrieks and oaths from the gloomy courts.

Whatmore is interesting of these mermaids fantasy is the imaginary wanderlust of Prufrock’s metaphysical asylum from being “pair of ragged claws/scuttling across the floors of silent seas” Furthermore textual genesis of Prufrockian spirit in metaphorical and rhetorical language exists as the new art emotion as well as the patient corpse—-the body post operative and post catalysis of sulfurous acid since emotional experience undergoes transmutation and transformation following depersonality of split consciousness and dissolving towards climactic dissolution of poetic personality/selfhood.

Nonetheless textual frustration and gender performativity of this dramatic monologue investigates heterosexual desire and heterosexual intercourse through colloquial euphemism as implied by “Let us make our visit”. Moreover, biblically the Hebrew double entendre of know implicates masculinized libidinal object of male gaze through the sexual encounter. “I know the voices dying with a dying fall” implicates the lovesickness of Twelfth Night Orsino and in this case, Prufrock masculine desire for the eroticization of the feminine corporeality. Orgasm of dying little death echoes masculine heterosexual desire; yet the insidious intent of orgasm happens spatially in the “farther room”.


Further Reading
“Till Human Voices Wake Us and We Drown”: Community in the Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock, James C. Haba [Glassboro State College] , Modern Language Association, Spring 1997, Vol. 7, No. 1, pp. 53-61, Modern Language Association

Eliot’s “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, November 1957, Vol. 19, No. 2, pp. 71-72, National Council of Teachers of English


The Textual Genesis of The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, Catalyzing Prufrock, Nicholas B. Mayer [University of Oxford], Journal of Modern Literature, Vol. 34, No. 3, Spring 2011, pp. 182-198, Indiana University Press.
Textual Frustration: The Sonnet and Gender Performance in “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock”, Brian Clifton [University of North Texas], Journal of Modern Literature, Vol. 42, No. 1. Fall 2008, pp. 65-76, Indiana University Press.


Prufrock and Other Observations: The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, A Guide to the Selected Poems of T.S. Eliot, B.C. Southam, A Harvest Original Publication.

Poetry from Mesfakus Salahin

South Asian man with reading glasses and red shoulder length hair. He's got a red collared shirt on.
Mesfakus Salahin

Love, Love And Love

I see love in the sea of your eyes

I feel love in your large heart

l get pain in your absence 

I pick up memories in your footprints

I get colour in your dream

As my dream is same

I read the poems in your pen

I breathe the air surrounding you

I walk in the forest of love and dream

l live in the island of mystery 

Come and make a history. 

If anyone loves you

My heart burns

I can’t control myself

When I see you.

Poetry from J.D. Nelson

Six Untitled Monostichs

terrific silence earwig wax tachyon

we’re in agreeance the fructose of edinburgh

rabid grounds for clipped clap clothing

what else mayoral I’d widen it

mineralist foam glum somersault

noted aroma I needn’t

bio/graf

J. D. Nelson is the author of eleven print chapbooks and e-books of poetry, including *purgatorio* (wlovolw, 2024). His first full-length collection is *in ghostly onehead* (Post-Asemic Press, 2022). Visit his website, MadVerse.com, for more information and links to his published work. Nelson lives in Boulder, Colorado, USA.

Poetry from Wazed Abdullah

Young South Asian boy with short black hair and a light blue collared shirt.
Wazed Abdullah

The Moonlight Night
 
The moon shines bright in the dark, 
Stars twinkle, tiny sparks.
Night is quiet, calm, and cool, 
Moonlight's mystery, a glowing pool. 
Shadows embraces across the ground, 
Peaceful silence all around. 
In the night, dreams softly rise, 
Beneath the moon in quiet skies.

Wazed Abdullah is a student of grade nine in Harimohan Government High School, Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh.

Story from Nosirova Gavhar

Central Asian teen girl standing out in a grassy field. She's in a flowered blouse with long dark hair.

Ballet queen

Every morning, when I took my little girl to the ballet palace, her eyes would shine and she would be very happy. She liked the elegance and charm of ballet movements. One day my little princess cried:

– Father, I can’t do it.

– My little princess, don’t cry, you can do anything. One day my little princess will definitely become a ballet princess.

– Really? When?

– If you keep moving forward.

«Ok» she said, walking away from me.

One day I came home and called my little girl:

– My daughter, your teacher gave you a gift.

– Really? What kind

– See for yourself.

– Wow, that’s great – her eyes were shining. In the big picture, a beautiful ballet princess in a blue dress, with roses in her hands, kneeling at the horse’s feet, and the silver roads, transparent canals and rivers of the paradise garden were depicted.

– Your teacher praised you. If you keep trying, this beautiful ballet queen said that you too can be.

– Thank you, father. I will definitely be a ballet queen as my teacher said.

Years have passed. Looking at this picture for a long time, today I was one of the ballet masters who embodied all the beauty and grace. But today my father was not with me. When I took the picture and hugged it tightly, I noticed the inscription on the back: «A gift from father to my little princess.»

Nosirova Gavhar was born on August 16, 2000 in the city of Shahrisabz, Kashkadarya region of Uzbekistan. Today, she is a third-year student of the Faculty of Philology of the Samarkand State University of Uzbekistan. Being a lover of literature, she is engaged in writing stories and poems. Her creative works have been published in Uzbek and English. In addition, she is a member of «All India Council for Development of Technical Skills», «Juntosporlasletras» of Argentina, «2DSA Global Community». Winner of the «Korablznaniy» and «TalentyRossii» contests, holder of the international C1 level in the Russian language, Global Education ambassador of Wisdom University and global coordinator of the Iqra Foundation in Uzbekistan. «Magic pen holders» talented young group of Uzbekistan, «KayvaKishor», «Friendship of people», «Raven Cage», «The Daily Global Nation», Argentina;s «Multi Art-6», Kenya’s «Serenity: A compilation of art and literature by women» contains creative works in the magazine and anthology of poets and writers.

Poetry from Faleeha Hassan

Young Central Asian woman with a green headscarf and a dark colored blouse and brown hair and eyes.
Faleeha Hassan
Raising the war

Like a pet
The tyrants raise the war
At first, they feed it
Their sick dreams
Their reviews of the soldiers under the heat of the summer sun
Maps they have imagined for their conquests
Speeches they have written in dark rooms
The future of our children
And when that war grows
It chews away at us
Every day
Every hour
Every moment
Like a ruminating animal.

Faleeha Hassan is a poet, teacher, editor, writer, and playwright born in Najaf, Iraq, in 1967, who now lives in the United States. Faleeha was the first woman to write poetry for children in Iraq. She received her master's degree in Arabic literature, and has now published 26 books, her poems have been translated into English, Turkmen, Bosnian, Indian, French, Italian, German, Kurdish, Spain, Korean, Greek, Serbia, Albanian, Pakistani, Romanian, Malayalam, Chinese, ODIA, Nepali and Macedonian language. She is a Pulitzer Prize Nominee for 2018, and a Pushcart Prize Nominee for 2019. She's a member of the International Writers and Artists Association. Winner of the Women of Excellence Inspiration award from SJ magazine 2020, and the Winner of the Grand Jury Award (the Sahitto International Award for Literature 2021). She served on the Women of Excellence selection committees for 2023, was a winner of a Women In The Arts award in 2023 and a Member of Who's Who in America 2023. She's on the Sahitto Award's judging panel for 2023 and a cultural ambassador between Iraq and the US.