Salihu Muhammad Ebba known by his poetic name as Wordwhisperer is a bright and ambitious individual, currently studying At Legend International School Minna with a strong foundation from Guided Medal Model School, Minna. He was driven into the world to succeed and make a meaningful impact on the society. Salihu Muhammad Ebba is a promised Nigerian poet, short stories writer and spoken word artist from the heart of Minna.
PINHDAR returns with the ethereal A Sparkle On The Dark Water.
The album begins InThe Woods with skipping electric synths, prickly guitar licks and dragging baselines carrying Cecilia’s angst into the Cold River where pummeling kick drums levitate Max’s winding guitar licks.
Home drags in with spatial chords punctuated with sparse percussion punctuating longing lyrics as Cecilia paints a portrait of lost dwellings that seem interdimensional.
The subterranean Little Light dances into deeper waters:
Will we be able to survive and
Shine in the dark?
Maybe…or perhaps not, for there exist harmonic Murderers of A Dying God that are:
Shouting
Despairing
Crying
Freaking out
Going mad
Is our fate as Humans death or merely madness?
Solanin opens with mourning synths as Cecilia whispers her urban observations accompanied by Max’s tasteful guitar plucks followed by orchestral notes and despairing tones;
We are like raindrops in a storm
Just before the big fall
We are like raindrops in a storm
Just before the big fall
then fades into a synthesized sea of Frozen Roses where choppy drums smatter Cecilia’s retrospective lament into haunting harmonies:
Ask the wind that whispers its
moans why the sun rises,
the stars shine but the darkness
remains
Abysses displays beautiful guitar chords over a marching drum that crescendos into hard rock At the Gates Of Dawn;
Darkness needs to be deep
for the the first stars to appear
mystical guitar licks, lazy drums and a silent piano.
Pride is burning in the heart of every young person.
Fayz-u is full of refreshment every day,
Gratitude on the tongue, tears in the eyes.
Allah also made us independent,
All conditions are for us young people.
The door of opportunity is open,
The youth of Uzbeks are in trouble today.
It’s okay, no matter how much I praise
Day by day, our land grows brighter.
“We will never be inferior to anyone!”
This is our noble goal, our motto.
Shodiyeva Mehribon Amin’s daughter was born in 1998 in Shofirkon district of Bukhara region. The young artist’s poems have been published several times in newspapers and magazines such as “Shofirkon Ovozi”, “Bukhara Sharif”, “Istiqlal Gunchali”, “Bukhara Literature and Art”, “Bilimdon”, “Dono Word”. Collections entitled “Nurli addresses”, “Begubor otsylar” have been published. Currently, he is an independent student of the Bukhara State Pedagogical Institute.
PIPEDREAMS
I dream of a landscape where greetings don’t flash fangs.
A family table where discussion is civil; folks listen—
don’t just wait to break in and berate those they hate.
I dream of a climate of inquiry; fair, open-minded,
where research is key, and critical thinking weighs facts.
Yes it’s a fantasy. Courtesy, tolerance, trust—
trampled to dust by the name-calling, self-righteous rants
of shock-jocks who rage about enemies, dangers from immigrants,
Muslims and Buddhists, gay couples, uppity women…
I dream of a land where the “great” days weren’t back in
the ‘50’s,
and no one is trying to turn back the clock with grim laws—
rather, pursues equal rights, equal justice for all.
I dream. Dream and hope. Harmony. Healing. I vote.
“We must bring the issue of mental illness out into the sunlight, out of the shadow, out of the closet, deal with it, treat people, have centers where people can get the necessary help.” –John Lewis
“I Hear Something You Can’t Hear” Exploring the Subjective Experienceof Mental Illness and Resiliency in “The Quiet Room”: A Book Review
by Jacques Fleury
[Originally published in Oddball Magazine & Fleury’s book You Are Enough: The Journey to Accepting Your Authentic Self]
Just Before the Darkness
Imagine a world where darkness swallows darkness and swallows more darkness. Picture a world of shadows and obscurity where dogs look like wolves and a world seemingly crumbling around you waiting to be rebuilt. The world of which I speak is that of Lori Schiller’s in her ghastly and chilling book “THE QUIET ROOM: A JOURNEY OUT OF THE TORMENTS OF MADNESS.”
The book details Lori’s gruesome tale of the illness experience of the disease of schizophrenia. The illness experience differs from the disease in that it focuses more on the day-to-day effects of the disease, how it permeates over all aspects of one’s life. By this I mean how it can affect family relationships, friendships, career and general interaction with the inner and outer world.
In the following article, I will focus on Lori’s resiliency and using aspects of the analogous theories of Carl Rogers, Alfred Adler and Carl Jung and existential ideologies to illustrate the point that in the midst of immense strife, how an individual manage to strive for purpose and meaning in their lives.
At the beginning of the book, Lori wrote “I hear something you can’t hear…” She went on to write about how in the brevity before the darkness, how bright and beautiful the world seemed.
She explained that during her seventieth year at summer camp, how “The Lake seemed more blue…the trees of the Catskill Mountains that tinged our camp took on a deeper green than I remembered….”
She goes on to say that she was “…overwhelmed by what life had to offer.” And that she “could not run fast enough, could not swim far enough, could not stay up late enough…” She described herself as “…energetic…happy… bubbly [and] a friend to everyone.”
However, things soon changed for Lori. She mentioned a sense of doom “…settled around [her].” The camp that she once defined as beautiful became a thing of disgust, “…a thing of evil…” So began her tragic journey on the hard and often satanic and precarious road to mental health recovery. Lori stated that during one of her episodes, she did not sleep, stayed in her room and declined to go to class. She was engulfed in “…the blackness of [her] depression.”
Lori’s father, Marvin Schiller, refused to accept the fact that she was gravely ill. Something very common in the afflicted persons themselves and their families as well. The issue of stigma is of course one of the major motivators in this scenario. Lori’s dad wrote, “I didn’t want my daughter to be stigmatized by some temporary rash act.” Mr. Shiller thought that it was his fault that Lori was sick.
He wrote that when he was studying psychology back in the 1950’s, the cause of mental illness was determined to be “…a faulty upbringing.” Of course, as he stated, there were other theories.
For example, the Freudian model which focused on the intrapersonal (within oneself) ideologies that the id, ego and superego were the root causes of everything. Carl Jung’s concepts of unconscious myths were also considered, but most of the population believed that “…early life experiences…were behind mental disorders” Marvin Schiller wrote.
Today most of us know the root causes of mental illness operates under a more holistic framework in that it has both a biological (nature) and environmental (nurture) origins. As Lori strived to survive her illness, some of her actions made it painfully obvious that she had a defiant need to transcend her “voices” or demons that threatened her very being. She struggles to grab some remnants of sanity in the midst of the insanity of her ailment. She felt that she was only a shadow of who she once was and thought that she would never return to a normal life again.
However, she was determined to keep trying. Resiliency is one of the core coping strategies people often use during intense periods of trauma and strife.
Hope and the Possibility for Ongoing Recovery
Lori has hoped for something more than just being given a raw deal in the diagnosis of a disease.
She foresaw a future decorated with options and opportunities. The following theories directly coincide with these innate needs and desires in the social context.
Unlike Freud, who focuses on the “intrapersonal” or “within oneself” concepts, Alfred Adler, Carl Jung and Carl Rogers all offer the more practical, I think, approach in looking at the individual in relation to a more “holistic” context of their lives, particularly Jung and Adler’s ideology involving spirituality which I will refer to later.
Adler proposes a “holistic wholeness” ideology. One of the major life tasks he purports is finding where one fits in society, which includes vocation, contribution and spirituality.
Jung proposes a similar concept of “individuation”. He describes it as “…developing wholeness through integrating all the various parts of the psyche. However, Yung “…ignored the negative, maladaptive side of human nature.” Nonetheless, in modern times, an increased interest in “human consciousness and human potential” has catapulted a resurrection of curiosity in Jung’s ideas.
Carl Rogers also makes a similar point in that he sees the individual as heading in the path of “…wholeness, integration, [essentially] and a unified life.” He believes that consciousness is engaging in the broader “…creative, formative tendency.” By this he means a “directional” or “actualizing tendency”, a tendency on the way to achievement, on the way to actualization that entails not only the preservation but also the improvement of the individual.
Lori made many repeated unsuccessful attempts to find and keep employment in her community. She persevered until she was able to stabilize and made small steps to getting back to the work force and feeling like a contributing member of her community and essentially her world.
She found some solace in the use of prayer. Both Jung and Adler promote the idea of “spirituality” as a way to mental health recovery, and I completely agree. I know that the power of prayer, patience and perseverance have helped many on the path of recovery from mental illness. Existentialist ideations dictate “life is meaningless or meaningful as one experiences it.”
Furthermore, it defines “…regret in existentialist terms, is grief and loss over a life not lived. The best way to deal with …regret is to discover what is worth dying for is that is worth living for.” So by Lori risking her life to try the then new drug Clozapine, she decided to risk dying so that she could live a fruitful life. She found meaning in suffering in that it has broadened her perspectives and enhanced her as a human being. For some, 90% of recovery can be attributed to the integration of spirituality (i.e. activities in their communities) and 10% medicinal (drug therapy).
In The Quiet Room, Lori Shiller wrote that her successful recovery process was due to the love and support that she received from family, friends and her general community; which have essentially put her on the track back from mental hell to mental health.
Jacques Fleury’s book You Are Enough: The Journey Towards Understanding Your Authentic Self
Jacques Fleury is a Haitian-American poet, author, educator and literary arts student at Harvard University online. His book “You Are Enough: The Journey to Accepting Your Authentic Self” & other titles are available at public libraries, The Harvard Book Store, The Grolier Poetry Bookshop, Amazon etc…
