Delusion of destination
The life seems to be a mound of muck
In which my luck is entangled
The more I try to free me from it
The more I drown in the quicksand.
Somebody of my knee age
Pounds me like a pendulum
At one end I try to love her with gifts
On the other I am bombarded with insult.
I try like a good athlete
To appear in the field tirelessly
I am disqualified every time
Can’t punish her to avoid greater loss.
I adventure to scale the summit
Taking part in the contests
New judges dump me in the drain
After luring to follow their whims.
At the start of the life race
Everybody thinks himself a champion
He looks down upon most as inferior
Whoever appears before him.
I am a lonely bird flying at twilight
My home is not to be seen
Wings are exhausted due to fatigue
Do not know whether I shall reach.
2
I do not have any desire nor want to exist
Like the earth or any celestial body
Each of us is floating
They are in the space
We are in the utter bewilderment.
The earth is stable
Because like the central pillar of a tent
It is under tension by equal force
From all directions.
Every human being
Is suffering from similar tensions
That of ambition, success, failure…
Due to which he/she cannot move.
I was in a great trouble so far
Climbing up the ladder of life
To compete all the time
With something or somebody.
Desires used to harass me
Like a divorced wife for alimony
Driving me to commit blunders
Just as a harassed man commits suicide.
Now I have discovered the golden old way
What the saints get after Tapasya
They have little to boast
But possess peace abundant.
I have worshiped science
Earned money, reached milestones
Now I have no desire
Nor I want to exist anymore.
3
Upliftment
From the very moment of our birth
we hanker after lifting ourselves
from a lower plane to the higher.
All through the course of our life
this phenomenon drives us forward.
In philosophy there are said to be
three gunas – Satya, Raja and Tama
in the order from the best to the worst.
Tama guna people are lazy, evil nature
Raja guna people work hard for wealth
Satya guna people do not work much
but full of virtues to attain enlightenment.
How to know where do I belong to now?
I need to go through all the stages
these three gunas offer.
Leaving aside idleness I should become
honest and struggle through work
to overcome one hurdle or other.
I did all these throughout my life
enduring minor to colossal destructions
now I tasted the successes –
I did scientific inventions
worked for the nation’s needs
people are enjoying the benefits
out of my work in water pollution control,
beryllium technology, ceramic synthesis …
I traveled through thirty-one countries
wrote seven poetry collections,
199 poems in 65 journals and anthologies.
Now I have attained the stage
where doing work in no more important
rather I am getting rid of all desires
to circumvent the miseries of life
which is the ultimate goal for human.
4
Without Hindus the humanity will not survive
Sanatan dharma is an integral part of human civilization
It is like fire and heat, one cannot be thought without the other
It was not born and it will never disappear from this world
No tyranny can slay it however brutal it may be.
It is an ocean of consciousness encompassing the existence
All other religions are floating in it, like a mother holding the kids
They all are non-existent without the mother’s milk
That provides all nutrients they need.
As man is after destroying the mother earth
Polluting it with deadly emissions of factories
Dumping all poisonous effluents in rivers
Annihilating flora and fauna in forests
As rogue boys and girls are disobeying parents
Even killing them to acquire their properties prematurely
Hindu girls are eloping with Muslim boys in love jihad
Eventually only are being murdered brutally by the paramours
Converted people have inundated the Indian subcontinent
Breeding like virus exponentially to acquire political power
Surpassing the population of their parent countries,
They have become worst enemies of Hindus.
They become united only to kill Hindus
Otherwise, they quarrel each other splitting into fragments
Cannot form a big country like India
Where Hindus live together from the antient time.
5
You all need to die
The Islam dawned
About fifteen hundred years ago
The Christianity birthed
About twenty-one hundred years back
The earth was born
About four and half billion years before
All of these are bound to die one day.
When the concept of Sanatana came?
It was with the first human on the earth.
As mind came along with man
Lust, anger, greed, attachment, jealousy
All were embedded in him
The eagerness for Sat Chit Ananda
Also accompanied them.
There are fool believers
Who want to annihilate this Sanatana
Invaders came to India
In different era
Killed many million Hindus
Converted much more of them
Still, they are unsatisfied.
You all killers
Can never be satisfied
Since Sanatana is not only present
In all those who are called Hindus
Mind, lust, anger, greed, attachment, jealousy
And inherent desire for Sat Chit Ananda
Are present in you too, you all need to die.
Sandip Saha won two awards from India, one from USA, was finalist in ‘Origami Poems Project ‘Best of Kindness Contest’, 2020 and Lengthy Poem Contest of Defenestrationism.net, April, 2022, both USA, published eight poetry collections, 199 poems in 65 journals in seven countries- India, USA, UK, Australia, Israel, Romania and Mauritius.