Life

I always thought life was easy.
But now I know life is tougher than the hardest rock.
It keeps getting harder.
But I'll keep fighting on till it's over.
If life is a war then am a soldier. 

I find myself doing things I swore never to do when I was younger.
I see myself doing what I condemned other people for doing.
I keep finding myself under bad influence that I find difficult to manoeuver. 
I find myself giving in to the pressure around me. 

I kinda feel that my life is about to take a new turn.
I feel my life is about to change. 
But everyone around me seem to be asking me if I'm actually ready for the pain ahead.
Voices Keep echoing.
Asking if I'm ready for the pain. 

I've got a lot of friends and foes.
Some praying not to see me fall.
And others praying for my downfall.
I've been on the highway speeding.
Afraid of ever crashing.
I see myself on the battle field.
With no commander.
With no weapon for defense.
Wondering whether to quit or to keep fighting. 

I know I've made some decisions am not proud of.
I know sometimes regret is impossible to overcome. 
But sometimes it's better to regret things you've done than to regret things you haven't tried. 
So I keep working hard to correct my mistakes.
Because working hard is what successful people do. 

Many people have been asking who I am.
I keep telling them am just a boy with empty pockets and a bag of dreams. 
A boy that has been through a lot.
A boy that has seen it all. 
A boy that has cried streams of tears. 
Shed tears of blood. 
Been to hell back and forth. 
Been through many rise and falls. 
Trying to make it to the top. 
Trying to be the best my generation has ever seen.