Poetry from Hauwa’u Naseer Mukhtar

Light-skinned Black woman with red lipstick, eyeshadow, and a multicolored headscarf. Crowns and stars in the background.

IN THE ARM OF SOLITUDE

Mark of flea, I feel indeed

Comes with wings, closed my breath

Unknowing dreams, praying beats

Wry the words with yo from head.

Thaw the rhymes of thee and this

Echo of silent, in the waves of is

Sound travel heavy seas

Solitude cry, but I and thee.

Sky of mirrow, it’s flea

Feeling the bite and dull I please

Beyond the eye beside lips

Brock the stone eye sleep .

Anon, I see lass in deep

Flea bite me in heart, I think

Is between fire and water drips

Wrapped in the arm of solitude.

Woo through the ocean flane

I hush forest of voiceless trees

Life speaks in riddle tongue

I see ehor mood, shadow whispers

In the arm of solitude, mute hand

Life on breath, days shadowed

Dull alive and killed the bright

Solitude speaks to me with her voice.

          By HAUWA’U NASEER MUKHTAR

         KEEN PEN

        HAWK EYE POET.

BIOGRAPHY

Hauwa’u Nasir Mukhtar, known in literary circles as “Keen Poet” or “Hawkeye,” is a burgeoning poet and writer hailing from Gombe State, Nigeria. My work is characterized by a keen observation of the world around me, weaving intricate narratives that reflect both personal and communal experiences.

EARLY LIFE AND FAMILY

Born and raised in Gombe State, I am the cherished daughter of Nasir Mukhtar and Rahama Muhammad. My upbringing in a nurturing family environment laid the foundation for my artistic pursuits. I shares a close bond with my sisters: Ummusalma, affectionately known as “Dazzle Poet,” and Zainab, dubbed “The Legend.” Together, they form a trio of creative minds, each contributing uniquely to the tapestry of Nigerian literature.

My foray into poetry began at a young age, inspired by the rich cultural heritage of Northern Nigeria and the vibrant literary community in Gombe. My pseudonyms, “Keen Poet” and “Hawkeye,” reflect my perceptive nature and my ability to capture the subtleties of human emotion and societal dynamics.

Poetry from Dr. Prasanna Kumar Dalai

HOPE NEVER BURNS!

To that land of blue fairy where the moon smiles
I 'll go wearing my favourite suit in this green earth
Where the assembly of flowers smile sprightly
And the silver vine blooms with diamond buds 
Where in a forest a golden bird brings ecstasy
In a boat made of floating clouds drifting along the sky
Where hope never burns and the lotus never cries
Life on earth full of separation and union is never a dream
Built with truth and dreams, disillusioned by the dreams only
Fooled by the deceptive truth, crush me not like a flower.


MORE THAN EVER BEFORE!

The Goddess of purity you are to me
I do hatch pain and my pleasure as well
My sleep often breaks for the first time
And I see the morn by rubbing my eyes
The sun light becomes brighter with you 
My day rises from behind the thin clouds 
The moonlight soothes with all the grace
My vibrant mood is hiding nearby me 
If you met me, sadness would be mine
I would console you though I'm broken 
My stars break to start falling nonstop 
I want your novice heart more and more
It incubates in me more than ever before.

GRIEF FOR THE LIFE TIME!

Walking alone, I did come across you
It poured and you got lost somewhere 
As if a dream had passed away from me
And it's a bit hard to forget you now
Just in a moment you became my life
Then you gave grief for the life time
On the rainy night my heart was broken 
I remember your wet face looking great 
You have never gone through memories 
I feel like feeling you here this evening 
As you and the very weather used to be
My journey of love caught the evil eyes
Tongue is silent though my heart breaks
You look happy and you are not mine.


I REMAIN SILENT!

Even if I remain silent without any word
Your love, face, and gaze'll grow & glow
I am witness to your love, downcast eyes
And all your grace indicates the depth
Someone has stolen your heart & mind
Whenever the swirl of your hair falls
Even more beautiful you look, like a fairy
With cherubic smile I read in the books 
I cherish to stay forever only in your soul
In mind and bosom, arm and embrace
And in your eyes & memories unlimited.

Biography of the Author

Dr. Prasana Kumar Dalai
(DOB 07/06/1973) is a passionate Indian Author-cum- bilingual poet, while a tremendous lecturer of English by profession in the Ganjam district of Odisha. He is an accomplished source of inspiration for the young generation of India. His free verse on romantic and melancholic poems are appreciated by everyone. He belongs to a small, typical village, Nandiagada of Ganjam District, the state of Odisha. After schooling, he studied intermediate and graduated from Kabisurjya Baladev Vigyan Mahavidyalaya, then M A in English from Berhampur University, PhD in language and literature, and D.Litt. from the Colombian Poetic House from South America. He promotes his specific writings around the world literature and trades with multiple stems related to current issues based on his observation and experiences that need urgent attention. He is an award-winning writer who has achieved various laurels from the circle of writers worldwide. His free verse poems not only inspire young readers but also the readers of the current time. His poetic symbol is right now inspiring others, some of whom are appreciated by laurels of India and across the world. Many of his poems have been translated into different Indian languages and have received global appreciation. Lots of well wishes for his upcoming writings and success in the future. He is an award-winning poet and author of many best-selling books. Recently, he was awarded the Rabindranath Tagore and the Gujarat Sahitya Academy for the year 2022 from Motivational Strips. A gold medal from the World Union of Poets, France & winner of Rahim Karim's World Literary Prize 2023. The government of Odisha's Higher Education Department appointed him as the president of the Governing body of Padmashree Dr Ghanashyam Mishra Sanskrit Degree College, Kabisurjyanagar.Winner of " HYPERPOEM " GUNIESS WORLD RECORD 2023. Recently, he was awarded from the SABDA literary Festival in Assam. The highest literary honour from Peru, for contributing to world literature, 2024.Prestigious Cesar Vallejo award 2024 & Highest literary honour from Peru.Director at Samrat Educational Charitable Trust, Berhampur, Ganjam, Odisha.
Vicedomini of the world union of poets, Italy.
Completed 248 Epistolary poetry with Kristy Raines, USA.
Books.
1. Psalm of the Soul.
2.Rise of New Dawn.
3.secret Of Torment.
4.Everything I never told you.
5.Vision Of Life National Library Kolkata.
6.100 Shadows of Dream.
7.Timeless Anguish.
8.Voice of Silence.
9.I cross my heart from east to west . Epistolary poetry with Kristy Raines

Essay from Xadjiyeva Nodira

DETERMINING THE CONSISTENCY OF PHRASEOLOGICAL COMPOSITION

Xadjiyeva Nodira

Qoraqalpoq davlat universiteti

Filologiya va tillarni o’qitish:

Ingliz tili 4-bosqich talabasi

     Annotation: This article looks at how stable or consistent fixed expressions—like idioms, collocations, and set phrases—are in everyday language. It explains why some expressions stay the same in form and meaning, while others can change a little without losing their sense. The paper breaks down different types of stability, such as structure, word choice, and meaning, and shows how they help these phrases keep their original form. The author uses examples from real texts (corpus linguistics) and simple tests to understand how fixed these expressions really are. The article also talks about how these phrases can be different in other languages and how culture affects them. In the end, the study shows why understanding fixed expressions  is important in language learning, translation, and even computer programs that work with language. This work is useful for students, teachers, and anyone interested in how language really works.

      Key words: phraseological units, fixed expressions, consistency, stability, idioms, collocations, semantic cohesion, linguistic analysis

     Abstract: Phraseological units are a fundamental part of any language’s lexicon, reflecting cultural values, cognitive patterns, and stylistic tendencies. This paper investigates the internal consistency of phraseological composition in the English language. It explores the criteria that govern the structure, stability, and usage of phraseological expressions, focusing on idioms, collocations, and fixed expressions. The study adopts a corpus-based approach to identify recurring phraseological patterns and their syntactic and semantic behavior in different contexts. The findings aim to enhance the theoretical understanding of phraseology and offer practical insights for language teaching and computational applications.

 Introduction Phraseology is a branch of linguistics that deals with fixed or semi-fixed combinations of words, known as phraseological units (PUs). These units include idioms (e.g., kick the bucket), collocations (e.g., make a decision), proverbs, and other set expressions. Their importance lies in the way they enrich language, express abstract ideas succinctly, and reflect social and cultural norms.

However, not all phraseological units exhibit the same degree of consistency. Some are fixed and unchangeable, while others allow variation. Determining the consistency of phraseological composition helps linguists and language users understand which parts of the expression are stable and which can be modified without altering meaning. This consistency also impacts how PUs are processed cognitively, how they are learned by non-native speakers, and how they are represented in dictionaries and language technologies.

        This paper explores the concept of phraseological consistency from multiple dimensions: structural (grammatical), semantic (meaning-related), and contextual (pragmatic). By examining authentic examples from corpora, the study identifies patterns that signal phraseological stability and variation. The term “phraseological unit” was first formalized in Russian and European linguistic traditions, particularly by scholars such as Vinogradov and Kunin. In English linguistics, similar concepts have been discussed under terms like “idioms,” “collocations,” and “fixed expressions.”

        A phraseological unit can be broadly defined as a multi-word expression that functions as a single semantic unit. These units often have non-literal meanings, especially in idioms, and are stored in the mental lexicon as prefabricated chunks. Linguists typically categorize phraseological units into:

   Idioms – expressions with non-compositional meaning (spill the beans).

   Collocations – predictable word combinations (strong tea, commit a crime).

    Phrasal verbs – verbs with particles whose meaning is not deducible from the parts (look after).

    Clichés and fixed expressions – stereotypical phrases used in social contexts (Nice to meet you, Best regards).

Structural consistency refers to the fixedness of the grammatical structure in a phraseological unit. For example, kick the bucket cannot be changed to kick a bucket or kicked the buckets without losing its idiomatic meaning. Some collocations, however, are more flexible (make/made/makes a decision), though they still exhibit a preferred structure. This refers to the stability of the lexical components within a PU. In highly consistent units, specific words cannot be replaced without altering meaning (break the ice, not shatter the ice). In less consistent units, some variability is permitted (give/take/have a look).

        Phraseological units vary in terms of how transparent their meaning is. Fully idiomatic expressions like kick the bucket are semantically opaque and highly consistent. In contrast, semi-transparent expressions such as make a choice are more flexible and their meaning is derivable from the parts. Certain phraseological units appear consistently in specific genres or registers. Legal language, for instance, uses fixed phrases like null and void, while everyday conversation prefers idioms like hit the sack. The consistency of usage across contexts also determines how recognizable and fixed a PU is perceived. To analyze phraseological consistency empirically, this study examined data from the British National Corpus (BNC) and Corpus of Contemporary American English (COCA). The method involved identifying frequently occurring phraseological units and observing their patterns of usage.

Methodology: Selection of 50 common phraseological expressions. Examination of frequency, structural variation, and lexical substitution. Categorization based on idiomatically and contextual flexibility. About 60% of the expressions were structurally fixed. Highly idiomatic units showed minimal variation. Some collocations, though semantically transparent, were preferred in particular forms. Contextual data confirmed that genre plays a role in preserving phraseological consistency. Understanding phraseological consistency has practical benefits:

    Language Teaching: Teachers can prioritize fixed PUs for memorization and teach flexible ones through pattern recognition.

    Lexicography: Dictionaries can mark degrees of variability to aid learners.

    Computational Linguistics: NLP systems benefit from clear data on phraseological units for better parsing, machine translation, and sentiment analysis.

In conclusion, phraseological composition in English demonstrates varying degrees of consistency. Fixed idioms maintain high structural and lexical rigidity, while collocations and semi-fixed expressions allow some flexibility. Corpus analysis confirms that consistency is influenced by grammatical form, lexical selection, semantic opacity, and contextual use. Understanding these patterns not only deepens linguistic knowledge but also enhances applications in education and technology.

                                        List of used literature:

1. Glaser, R. (1984). The Stylistic Potential of Phraseological Units in the Light of Genre Analysis.

2. Cowie, A. P. (1998). Phraseology: Theory, Analysis, and Applications. Oxford University Press.

3. Mel’cuk, I. A. (1995). Phrasemes in Language and Phraseology in Linguistics.

4. Fernando, C. (1996). Idioms and Idiomaticity. Oxford University Press.

5. Moon, R. (1998). Fixed Expressions and Idioms in English: A Corpus-Based Approach. Oxford University Press.

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6. Wray, A. (2002). Formulaic Language and the Lexicon. Cambridge University Press.

7. Granger, S., & Meunier, F. (2008). Phraseology: An Interdisciplinary Perspective. John Benjamins.

8. Biber, D., Conrad, S., & Cortes, V. (2004). If you look at…: Lexical Bundles in University Teaching and Textbooks. Applied Linguistics.

Essay from Brian Barbeito

Sojourn Scenes

Seagulls with their wings open gathering on pavement with warehouse like buildings and cloudy sky in the background.

There was a series of balloons, three, that the wind blew in. They were black balloons w/the number seven on each. I wasn’t sure what they meant, but felt they were auspicious and on the side of positivity. Then I saw three number nines and felt the same way. But, I couldn’t tell for certain what the repeating numbers meant as I wasn’t a numerologist or highly into numbers to begin with. 

Black and white photo of barren trees in the winter with a dusting of snow.

I saw a lady that reminded me of another lady I had once made fun of unfairly. I was immature and words had hurt the lady’s feelings but the lady either forgot or forgave me or buried it as she didn’t act as if it happened when I heard from her much later. That and one other thing were the only two things I worried about karmically. The other was that I had injured a hockey player and he was taken away in an ambulance. But it wasn’t done intentionally though several people thought it was. I hit him, which was allowed, but it the other injury was not done on purpose as he just fell on a bad angle. He turned out to be alright. I was glad for this. Those two things had happened practically another life ago as they say, yet they had bothered me. Other than those two events I felt clean, but like the numbers, it wasn’t possible from where I was standing to know for sure. 

Tree with twisting empty branches with green foliage in background.

You can’t always see the spiritual ledger. It is interesting that ledger also means a demarcation stone upon a grave because perhaps it not until we have a stone ledger that we can in the life review according to the canon of such experiences, see more accurately how our actions and words really affected others and the universe. 

Young middle-aged white man, bald, with black reading glasses, a small white beard, a gray coat over a red flannel top with a white collar.

I was low monetarily. The group in front of me was affluent and just exuded it. You can tell through intuition and life experience those who try to come off that way versus the actual.  When they left they forgot a purse leather green, the same colour as the jade some of them wore. Nobody noticed and they weren’t doubling back the way some people do when they realize they forgot something. There is about a five to ten second window you have to remember something is amiss before you have officially forgotten something. They were definitely leaving. I picked up the purse and went out the same door and called them back as they were getting into what looked like a new and definitely a tricked-up-decked-out high end SUV vehicle. 

‘Someone forgot their purse,’ I said, ‘holding it up.’ 

They came over and thanked me and took the purse. I returned it because it was the right thing to do. I went back to my seat in a booth, for booths are perhaps one of the greatest things ever created, and looked up through the adjacent window watching them leave. 

Text in blue ink on white lined paper reading "The the the moon bird sun poems. Poems. Poems. The the the walking world tarot poems. Poems. Poems. The the the angel dream pastoral poems. Poems. Poems."

At a field there were streams cutting through like a water swath. I paused and stared at them, admiring the movement of water. I thought of Herman Hesse and his book. I had two copies of the famous work, but had given away the better, newer one. My old one was tattered and torn, plus coffee got spilled on it at some point. I didn’t know what that meant either. A large woodpecker that had been alighted in a nearby tree took off and I was frustrated that I had not had my camera out. Yet, I still admired its flight and the silhouette it made against the afternoon winter sunlight. 

Golden sunset with the sun behind a tall conifer tree. Street with streetlights and a SUV going down the street. Power lines and streetlights.

I kept going around there. In the distance were train tracks but a train rarely as far as I could tell went by. There were large holes in the wall, the hillside, for the water to go under. It was a fine juxtaposition of water that appeared black against the snowy white sides. And then distant parts of the stream tumbled down a few feet in two places, bragging up its bits like cold clear and white flames and also many spark look a likes as if from a some giant sparkler. 

Indoor table with a houseplant with green leaves, a doorway and lamps, and stationery with a red heart.

I went by a bookstore, an old used bookstore that I used to patronize. Proper gems could be found there and for inexpensive prices. Books were like treasures. But the store was gone, replaced by a work-wear store. The vests and coveralls mostly beige and black, stood looking back at me from the windows. It was as if the bookstore had never existed. Though on the outskirts of town, the perimeter purlieu, it had been a wealthy town, but didn’t have a new or used bookstore. I guess the world had changed.

Large seagull aloft but landing on pavement next to a seated gull, wings and tail feathers outstretched. A fence and storage canisters in the background.

So I headed back home and did chores, prosaic, mundane things, sometimes glancing out the windows as I moved about. There was nothing besides a puzzle on a dining room table, an old piano, and a painting on the wall. Also a bookshelf and coffee table by the couches beyond. The hardwood floor was weathered by time but had character and was still passable. I had never been a huge fan of the neighborhood or its dwellings, but it was clean and quiet and that counts for a lot. It was better than many other places. That view to outdoors didn’t hold a lot. A fence handsome that I had stained with a brush and roller, a good privacy fence as they called it, with lattice work up top that was not too plain and not too gaudy either. Snow was on the ground. It had been a long and cold snowy winter. I hoped the earth and sky really were pregnant with spring. A shed storing summer chairs and a table. On its door, there were two Ontario license plates and two Virginia ones. The first couple were from 1973, the year and place I was born, and the second set 1972, the year and place my beloved was born. Other than that, mostly just old barren branches waited out there, stoic and alone. 

One day with some luck, spring would finally start for myself and for them. 

Closeup of a bouquet of red roses and white baby's breath.

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Short story from Bill Tope

Heresy

It was a meeting of the executive board of the church elders and, having conducted all the business at hand, the remaining five men sat around winding down, talking about their wives, their children and grandchildren. Adam, a widower who had never had children, felt a little left out. Mark looked his way and asked, “Adam, what’s new in your life?” Adam felt the others staring at him.

Finally, he replied, “I have a friend in New York, Annie, whom I met through a writers’ circle. I’ve known her for almost a year, and we’ve become pretty close.”

“A long-distance romance, ‘eh?” asked Quinn, with a little wink.

Adam flushed. “No. Not a romance. It’s not like that. We’re both writers and…”

“Is she,” asked John primly, “of our faith?”

“No. Annie is Jewish. Reform.”

This information seemed to fall like a leaden shroud over the group and, taking up the gavel which served as a token of his authority, John smacked it down smartly and the group dispersed.

That evening, Adam reread Annie’s latest email a third time. The woman has a definite way with words, he thought. Always concerned with him and asking after his health. He always tried to reciprocate. The land line jangled, almost preternaturally loud, and Adam jumped. He snatched up the receiver, thinking it was perhaps Annie. All he got was dead air.

After church that Sunday, Adam was confronted in the cloakroom by Laurel, a 60ish widow who’d made no secret that she rather fancied him.

“I understand that congratulations are in order,” she remarked without preamble.

“I beg your pardon?” asked Adam.

“I learned from Joyce”–John’s wife–“that you have a girlfriend in New York,” she said. “What’s her name…Annette?”

“Annie,” he corrected her at once. “And she’s not my girlfriend. We’re just friends. Another writer,” he explained.

“Oh yes,” said Laurel dryly, “your writing. Have you ever earned any money at your…hobby.”

Adam uttered a sigh. “No. Not so far.”

“Well, if you ask me, anything that takes up that much of your day, and you don’t get a paycheck, is a waste of time and effort.”

“You raise a legitimate point, Laurel,” said Adam. She looked at him. “The point being that I never asked you.”

“Humph!” she snapped, and turned on her heel and stalked off.

A day later, standing by his mailbox, Adam added the final flourishes to a playful cartoon he’d sketched in the card he was sending to his friend in New York. The snail mail they exchanged was but another expression of the mutual affection they felt for the other. Adam felt very lucky to have found someone with whom he could be fully honest. He added a complimentary remark about Annie’s latest poem, which she’d given him a peek at prior to submitting it to a journal. It felt good to be trusted, thought Adam.

The following Wednesday, after their business meeting, John gave Adam, who at 80 had stopped driving, a ride home. On the ride, John turned to Adam and said, “I’m not certain you’re exercising good judgement lately, Adam.”

Here it comes, thought Adam. Laurel was John’s sister-in-law, and fallout from their minor dust up was almost inevitable. “Go ahead,” invited Adam. “Say it.”

“Alright, I will,” said John, pulling into Adam’s drive. “You hurt Laurel, Adam. You know she has always had her eye on you ever since Merci died. Joyce and I felt it would be good for you two to come together, be a couple, and worship God and do good works together. Laurel is an attractive woman, Adam.”

“You don’t need to sell me on Laurel, John,” replied Adam. “She is a pretty woman and a good servant of God and will make some man a fine mate. But, not me.” There, he’d said it. Now for the blowback.

“So you have your eye on this New Yorker. May I ask how old she is?” John inquired nosily.

Adam took a deep breath and released it. “She’s 50,” he said.

“Well,” said John stiffly. “Laurel is nearly 70, so I suppose she can’t compete with your little tootsie.” Adam rolled his eyes a little.

“Annie is not in competition with Laurel,” said Adam. “Annie lives 2,400 miles away. She doesn’t even drive; she has narcolepsy,” Adam found himself confiding. “And I don’t drive anymore. So, our getting together, which neither of us has ever even talked about, is problematic. May I confide in you, John?” asked Adam.

John nodded curtly.

“I don’t even want a girlfriend, a lover, a wife. When Merci died three years ago, I was devastated. So much so, that I swore I would never get so attached to another human being. It simply hurt too much.”

“Adam,” said John. “You lost your wife, But, life doesn’t have to stop.”

“And it hasn’t. I began to write after Merci died. I found it cathartic at first, and then I found I had a knack for it. I enjoy it. Annie enjoys it as well, and that was the basis for our friendship at first.”

“And now?” asked John.

“I love Annie, John. I’m not in love with her; I mean I don’t want to live with her or marry her or make love to her. But, I do love her. And I’m not giving her up. She is good-hearted, sharp as a tack and really seems to get me. The church is not always there for me. People have lives, I understand, and I hold it against nobody. But, there it is. Annie and I are there for the other. I consider her my best friend.”

“And is that how this woman feels, too?” asked John next.

“We have discussed our relationship and she knows what I want and I understand her expectations as well. She loves me, too, John.”

“But, a 30-year age difference,” said the other man, knifing his hand through the air. “What can you two possibly have in common? And what’s the next step?”

“We have our writing in common: a love for language and creativity and sharing. She is an amazing woman. And the next step? Does there really have to be one? As I wanted to explain to Laurel, not every endeavor has to result in a paycheck in order to be measured a success; by the same token, not every relationship has to wind up between the sheets to be judged worthwhile.” Adam judged by John’s expression that he’d gone too far. “Have a good evening, John,” Adam said, opening the car door.

“One more thing,” said John coldly. Adam paused. “You were voted out of your eldership by the elder committee.” When Adam said nothing, John went on, “as an elder you have a responsibility to be a guiding spirit for the church, and to show by example what it means to be with Christ. Your eldership was at issue even before, due to your age. But now, Adam, I’m afraid your poor judgement has earned you this rebuke. I’m sorry,” he said insincerely.

The following Sunday, John, Adam’s regular ride to the service, did not show up, so Adam stayed at home. The same thing happened the next week, and so Adam put the whole affair out of his mind. And there it stayed until the ensuing winter, when two members of the senior outreach program showed up at Adam’s doorstep, collecting a love offering for Christmas gifts for the needy. Adam allowed them into his home.

“We’ve missed you at the services, Adam,” said a tall, rail-thin male with a high-pitched voice.

Adam struggled, but could not recall his name. “Really?” he asked.

“Yes indeed,” said a middleaged, medium-sized woman with brown hair. “We were startled when you resigned your eldership, but I guess everyone wants to finally retire.” She giggled nervously. “We weren’t sure you were at home,” she went on. “Your car wasn’t in your driveway.”

“I no longer drive,” he admitted.

“Oh!” she said. “Would you like to be placed on the list to get a ride to church?”

“Well,” he said, “John Badman was giving me a ride, at one time.”

“Oh!” she said again. “You didn’t know. John was in a driving accident and broke his pelvis. He hasn’t driven in months. So that’s why you haven’t been to church?”

“What about Joyce?” asked Adam, remembering that John’s wife didn’t drive either.

“I  think she catches a ride with her sister. Do you know Laurel? Maybe she could drop by to pick you up. You just live a mile or so from them.”

“How long will John be laid up?” asked Adam, suddenly concerned for his old friend. Perhaps there had been no great conspiracy after all.

“It’s difficult to say, Adam,” replied the man, whose name Adam could yet not recall. “He’s in a nursing home for the foreseeable future. He’ll have to learn to walk again. Man’s 75 years old, you know.”

After Adam gave them a generous donation to the Christmas toy fund, he thought about returning to church. He’d felt rather lost without his faith. Although he had not forfeited his personal relationship with God, not attending church had left a hole.

That evening, Adam received a lengthy email from Annie, the first contact she’d initiated in nearly a week. Normally, they communicated by phone or email almost daily, but he’d been forced to write or call her, and had detected a vague, unsettling distance in her most recent communications. As he sat near the PC to read her email, he told himself he would call her again and ask her, straight out, what the problem was. He printed out her email so he could sit back in his recliner and enjoy himself. Settling in, he read:

Dear Adam,

I hope this evening finds you well. As for me, there have been some rather drastic changes, with respect to my situation and my future.

I’d like to preface my remarks by telling you that over the past 15 months I have relished our deepening friendship. I feel a closeness to you that I’ve not felt since I lost Bruce nearly two years ago. It was your comments on my published work which prompted me to reengage with writing. It also showed that perhaps there was a new tomorrow, with new interests and new people.

You were very patient with my awkwardness at first and I want to tell you what that meant to me, to my recovery and my reemergence into the world. Adam, you are my dearest friend. I love you as a very close friend, as we discussed.

That being said, we come to the reason for this email. Adam, I am getting married. Brian works in the same office I do and I’ve known him for almost ten years. We were always friendly, but never close. Not like you and me. A year ago, he was divorced and our mutual attraction and curiosity for one another just blossomed. What I’m trying to say, Adam, is that I’m in love with Brian. And he loves me back.

This does not affect the way I feel about you. I will always love you with all my heart. I would love to continue our relationship, our phone calls and emails, the silly cards in the mail. However, Brian can be a little possessive, a little jealous. He’s unwilling to share. Also, there’s the matter of our respective faiths. Like me, Brian is Jewish. That’s why I’m writing, to tell you that there can be no more contact between us. I wish you all the best and maybe you’ll find someone some day too.  Please don’t write or phone me, or I’ll be forced to use my spam filter or change my telephone number. All the best. And happy writing.

Annie.

Adam sat in the back of the church that Sunday, paging idly through the hymnal. He didn’t join his voice with the others. In the week since Annie said goodbye, he’d thought of little else than his erstwhile best friend. After the service, Laurel and Joyce came up to Adam and asked if he was ready to leave.

“I’m ready when you are, ladies,” he said with a gentle smile.

In the car, Laurel looked back over her shoulder at Adam, seated in the rear. “Are you still in touch with your New York friend, Adam?” There was no apparent rancor on her part. She had obviously moved on.

Adam shook his head. “No,” he said. “Not for some little time.” Before Laurel could pose the inevitable question, Adam stemmed the tide by telling them that, “Annie died some months ago, Laurel. Covid,” he explained.

“Adam, I’m so sorry,” said Laurel, whose sentiments were echoed by her sister. “I wish we’d known; we would’ve been there for you.”

“Well, you had a lot on your plates, what with John and all,” said Adam magnanimously. He saw Laurel smile smugly.

“God moves in mysterious ways. She was Jewish, yes?” she asked, staring at Adam in the rearview mirror. He nodded. “That’s too bad,” she said, before turning back to the road.

Poetry from R.K. Singh

HERITAGE

Rechristened streets or cities

with Hindu names make no history

nor erase the Muslim past

they assault country’s culture:

diversity of lived glory

politics of pain, joy and care

liberatory future

in hate game add to frozen hearts

no discourse would ever heal:

memories may fade but won’t die

like I die every day, yet live

2

OLD FILES

I burn my years and erase

memories that couldn’t be stacked

against the wall of a broken home

I’m too old to hold out long

the fall is certain

and the burden too much

I can’t be a hostage to the past

nobody would buy

the smoke is momentary

and the heat hurts more

let me live life through my self

doing nothing, thinking nothing

just sitting silently and watching

time takes care of the rest and life too

3

FIVE MICROPOEMS

i.

 I knock at your body’s door

 or peep into the room 

through the little crack 

for a bit of love 

squeezing my rise above 

the cynosure and reduce 

to a drop at the labial path

ii.

vagina museum:

painted femininity

jelly fish rising from deep

no good luck, gropers asked

not to touch the cleavage

iii.

icy water

stabs my body in dark:

Mahakumbh

I hold on to the rope

my soul trapped in me

iv.

teary eyes

with sparks and lightning

dried vision

caged existence

seek deliverance

muttering old prayers

v.

I grow wings to become a bird

on bed rising to dream in a room

that couldn’t be church to breed hope:

end up a small hope in grave

no sun reaches to raise me again

Ram Krishna Singh, also known as R.K.Singh, has published poems, articles and book reviews in various magazines and journals over the years and taught English for Science and Technology, Indian Writing in English, and Criticism at IIT-ISM, Dhanbad for nearly four decades. His published poetry collections include Against the Waves: Selected Poems (2021), 白濁:

SILENCE: A WHITE DISTRUST (English/Japanese, 2022), Poems and Micropoems (2023), and Knocking Vistas And Other Poems (2024). More at https://pennyspoetry.fandom.com/wiki/R.K._Singh                                 

Poetry from Inayatullah

Older South Asian man with thinning hair and a blue shirt in front of trees and water.

Soul Awakening

A vivid light splits through darkness, depth and despair

Opening my heart to new beginning, diving deep inside to go aware

Nothing, and no one can block your way in finding the truth

Get comfortable with yourself, leave the messy things, be in sooth

Somewhere beyond the deep horizons, is a place you belong

Where an orchestra plays your favorite sweet melancholic song

Save from vultures that feasted on my loving and peaceful heart

The hungry predators preyed upon to tear me apart

Rising from the past failures winning the battle of ebbs

Still finding courage, gaining strength to stand upon my legs

The scars will heal, and you will feel lighter and better

You will change and blossom,  to get more positive and wiser

Love is not the only endeavor to hang  and hold on forever

Open your soul to new awakening, feel the nature’s hidden treasure

Essence of Peace

The world is going through unprecedented chaos

Wars, hatred, confusion is  looming widely across

Death and destruction is bringing enormous loss

Conflicts are raging high, the affected people are living in pathos

Love and hate are closely related with one another

It is only in the human nature  to feel certain cloud cover

Hating someone leaves scars that are too ugly to ponder

Avoid toxic people, fear the path of darkness, feel better

Elegance  is when the inside is as beautiful as your face

The further you drift from hate, the more beauty you embrace

Forgive your enemies, let your anger pass and tenderness surface

It is only the light that can drive out darkness and bring grace

Good things are hard to achieve,  and bad things trouble free to grab

It is very difficult to save a fellow human,  but easy to stab

Freedom  from prejudice,  discrimination, snobbishness is better to nab

The worst sin towards humanity is violence, that needs a dab

The Night of Solitude

The night is murky and lonely, lights have gone out

After showing their beautiful effects, stars enshroud

The moon has hidden her face behind the clouds

Stormy winds have silenced their sounds

Colour of spring is fading away in oblivion

Stop a while, the atmosphere is full of passion

Sing a song for me, full of joy and exhilaration

The confusion buried in my heart has no easy solution

When there is resolve, why to stay untraced?

How many dreams from the beginning, I have braced

Alas!  When my eyes opened, dreams have fled.

Leaving me to lament, the mind body and heart to bled

It is not so easy to suppress the bounties of emotions

Wounds may be healed but scars can’t be cured by lotions

One can forget the pain by pretending to be fine

But it returns when the loneliness and solitude combine

Inayatullah is a well-known poet, essayist, and academic from India. He is a regular contributor to renowned international poetry groups and journals. His weekly posts “Sunday Slice,”  has a wide readership and has earned him recognition  in scholarly forums for providing value based education to the student community. His poetry covers a variety of themes and has earned him many accolades.