Fires, L.A. Ashes is bright Malibu, Altadena’s palms, black, naked, gravel of bitter alms. Roses devour the monarch wood, blown from Santa Ana to a cold tide; rags left from brocades of towns, tapestries of cities burning down. Katy’s house, white against ash, drops tears into her outstretched hand. Great dragons of fire snake the night hills, seeking their reflections in abandoned swimming pools. _____ Christopher Bernard is a poet, novelist and essayist living in San Francisco.
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Essay from Gulsevar Bosimova

Famous athletes from Uzbekistan
Information about Gulsevar Bosimova, a coach-athlete of the “Uzbek Martial Arts” sport at Sports School 1 in Gallaorol District, Jizzakh Region
Gulsevar Bosimova Dilshod qizi was born on December 21, 2007. Since 2023, she has been practicing the “Uzbek Martial Arts” sport at Sports School 1 in Gallaorol District. Her dedication and passion for sports are particularly noteworthy. Over the years, she has represented our region honorably in various International and Uzbekistan Championship competitions, achieving numerous successes.
Notably, on December 26 – 29, 2023, she claimed a prestigious 1st place at the Jizzakh Region Open Championship in Uzbek Martial Arts for children, juniors, and adults.
On June 27 – 29, 2024, she earned a well-deserved 2nd place in the 53 kg weight category at the Jizzakh Region Championship among juniors, youth, and adults.
For her remarkable performance and 1st place in the 49 kg category at the Uzbekistan Championship for youth born in 2007-2008, she was awarded in recognition of her achievement.
On September 21-22, 2024, she secured a 3rd place at the Uzbekistan Cup held in Tashkent. Her most remarkable achievement came in the World Championship held in Tashkent from November 1 to 7, 2024, where she earned a 3rd place in the 49 kg weight category, proudly raising the flag of our country.
On December 26, 2024, she was honored with the title of “Best Athlete of the Year” for her outstanding achievements in International and Uzbekistan championships throughout the year.
Despite her young age, Gulsevar Bosimova has shown great experience, resilience, and determination in the field of Uzbek Martial Arts. She always strives to complete every task entrusted to her to the highest standard and is highly respected among her peers. In life, she is modest, courteous, honest, and a constant hard worker, setting an example for others in diligently completing assignments. She is an exemplary student.
Poetry from Mykyta Ryzhykh
1
Green grass in the belly of a dead cow
The sun hides behind a bashful horizon
2
And when the banana peel turned black, God was no longer able to fix anything.
3
man rested his head
against the wooden sky
and there is nothing
higher than the sky
4
My hand has dried up and my stomach has rusted. I have become an empty iron can of cola that will cut your tongue in half. My home is now a cesspool of industrial history, because no one needs me either. (As well as world history and culture.) The doctors will try to help you, but sepsis. There is a commercial break on the surgical screen and then shit again. The freckles have disappeared. Someone will have to pay back the loan for all this.
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Kill me with a clay name oh chitinous god
But others are dying again
Someone is watering the lilacs that grew instead of a cemetery
Linda S. Gunther reviews Nikki Erlick’s The Measure

Writing a good story is something authors pray to be able to do every time we set out to craft a work of fiction. A clear voice and a zesty Imagination typically make for a satisfying fictional read.
When I picked up Nikki Erlick’s contemporary novel titled THE MEASURE, of course, I was hopeful it would be a read well worth the time I would invest. But I had no idea that within the first few pages I’d have my mind turned upside down and inside out; the disturbing tumble unfolding quickly.
The scenario presented involves a date in time when all human beings, 22 yrs or older, across the planet, receive a small wood box on their door step. These boxes appear out of the blue and from who knows where. Inside each box is a single piece of string, which serves to inform each person how long they will live, almost exactly how much time they have left. I scrambled to wrap my brain around the provocative scenario.
I must confess that on that night, after reading the first 75 or so pages, trying to get to sleep proved almost impossible. I tossed-and-turned in my bed. A sense of dread coursed through my body. What I had taken for granted in terms of being unknown had been thrown out the window by this author. I’m not quite sure why I had such a visceral reaction. I believe it was the combination of personal fear and the sheer intrigue I had, which was generated by Erlick’s inventive premise. Of course, I knew the book was pure fiction but I kept thinking to myself, what if this ever really happened?
Each of the eight lead characters in this novel is deliciously vivid and authentically layered. These individuals come together in a support group held at a school after hours which is located on the upper east side of Manhattan. The purpose of the group’s formation is to help “short stringers” come to terms with the fact that they won’t have the privilege of living a long life. Sean, a therapist and the group’s facilitator, hopes to provide a safe and supportive space for each person to explore and navigate the slippery slope of knowing the difficult truth.
What was so fascinating to me about this read is how each character finds their own unique and personal way of dealing with the harsh reality. My immediate thought: would it be freeing or completely traumatizing to suddenly learn how long you will live and that no matter what you do, there is nothing that will alter your prescribed and timed ending. Your time left is fixed! Period.
Although an extreme theme is presented in this book, there are a number of parallels made relevant to today’s America, brilliantly yet subtly highlighted by the author. At least a few philosophical questions jammed my brain immediately after turning the last page.
So, get ready for a scary and provocative journey that may take you outside your comfort zone. Don’t pass up this opportunity to consider the potential key take-away from this story. It may simply be “live for today.”
If this book is a “pick” for your book club like it was for mine, I predict that your discussion about these colorful characters and the spell-binding plot will be extra rich. And perhaps the depth of the usual sharing of perspectives may go even deeper than your group’s ever been before. The one question that may come up is this:
If such a tiny wood box holding a single string which indicated the exact amount of time you have left to live, landed on your doorstep, would you open the box to find out or would you put the box away in the very back of your closet, and maybe never open it?
THE MEASURE by Nikki Erlick. I invite all readers, young and old, to enjoy the ride.

Linda S. Gunther is the author of six published suspense novels: Ten Steps from the Hotel Inglaterra, Endangered Witness, Lost in the Wake, Finding Sandy Stonemeyer, Dream Beach, and Death is a Great Disguiser. Most recently, her memoir titled A Bronx Girl (growing up in the Bronx in the 1960’s) was released in late 2023. Ms. Gunther’s short stories, poetry, book reviews and essays have been published in a variety of literary journals across the world. Website: www.lindasgunther.com
Poetry from Yucheng Tao
Where am I
where am i
an extremely
cold stream
soot-streaked trees
desolate
& bare mountain
grains grow
in the roses
but
the roses reach
into the vast tracts
the wheat is dancing
beneath obsidian clouds
the rain kisses the roses
with tender lips
where am i
there are no peacocks
crowned in rainbow hues
there are no hummingbirds
alight in beams
there is no shimmering lake
to mirror Eden’s vision
i’ve forgotten
i am cast out from
the Garden of Eden
hard to harvest my soul
whispering for the time past
choking back my tears
praying
until my spirit recovers—
after
leaving god
Blue Horse
We had seen the bold and blue horse
in my dream; its strong body,
like a horse on the prairie,
like a cowboy’s horse.
It could fight, it could run.
In our hearts,
we once rode a blue horse
in our dreams,
galloping in the land of freedom.
Some pain was like a lean horse,
running fast for a moment before collapsing.
Because my sister and I—
our memories didn’t fade.
There was some joy in them,
fresh as the blue horse.
Sometimes we lacked the courage
to carry ourselves far enough to escape our family—
a home filled with liquor bottles.
Father’s face was red,
quarreling and fighting.
Illness took you away;
you never broke free from the cage.
The funeral flowers mirrored
your snow-white skin—
it was your grand festival.
In death, you become weightless.
Death carries you on a blue horse
to a place of freedom.
Minotaur
The Art Institute into Tuesday’s snow.
When my eyes opened, I was trapped in the museum’s labyrinth (Tiny as a shadow). Unknown monsters faced me, horns casting twin shadows. / Hallucination? / /Blood! People! / I want to escape the twisted halls. /
/ Too vast, the museum warped into impossible geometry. / / Blood, blood, blood, the Minotaur drinking museum’s lights like wine. / / I saw the monster devour the soul of a person, and the Minotaur ate the monsters, as if history endlessly repeats itself. /
/ Just like two sides of history’s dark mirror. / / I couldn’t separate myth from memory. The monster becomes real only in relation to trauma; both past and present might be true or false. /
/ b / bl / bla / / b, bla, b, black black black black black sun sun sun sun sun / I exorcise Munich’s beer hall memories, 1923 to1933, darkness envelops Chicago snow. I try to comprehend-histories. Outside the painting, only one museum, Inside the painting, multiple wars, The ghosts of WWII, European ghosts, red and black, bleeding.
As the Minotaur devours monsters, I seek meaning in chaos. Especially beneath the museum’s artificial lights, I remember what Minotaur told me: “The survivors of horror become storytellers, and all stories and human are one.”
In this moment, the endless snow falls silent. The black sun falls silent. Like human of memory. Like history coming to a still. Back to reality, everything is fine. I am enjoying Picasso’s Minotaur with ease.
Yucheng Tao is an international student, who has been studying songwriting at MI College of Contemporary Music in Los Angeles. His work won the Open Them Wingless Dreamer 2024 contest, and Moonstone Art Center published it.
Essay from Michael Robinson

AN ABUNDANCE OF JOY
God has given me a wonderful life. Each day is wonderful and I can live a joyous life. Yes, dialysis enables me to focus on my relationship with our Heavenly Father. My joy that started in childhood comes from talking to God all the time.
He has given a life full of riches. I get to take time to thank Him while I’m treated. I continue to pray and give thanks for my life and for that abundance of joy. God’s gift has allowed me to have Heaven here at the present time. I experience the wonders of the All Mighty. Imagine having an experience of God’s grace while still living here on earth.
Joy and joy and joy. Nothing on this earth can now take my heart for God is showing me the purpose of my life. He has allowed the writing of Jeremiah 29:11 to be His gift to me to have and to keep. I experience His unending mercy and grace. I can’t explain my peace in my relationship with God now. 12 hours a week at three hours a season with His healing of me and others. I find myself having compassion for others to teach them to enjoy the gift of life without taking it for granted.
Each moment is a moment to converse with Him and praise Him. Giving glory.
Nothing in this world is greater than His love for us. Now I understand my purpose.
God has given me a chance to fully live having dialysis. I am no longer captured by the world because of God’s Mercy. I’m prospering and have hope and a future with Him in this life and eternally.
I share God’s amazing grace to me. His grace to live in the inner city. His grace to just live a life of abundance of peace and prosperity and a future and hope. Nothing surpasses His grace.
So, in closing, dialysis has shown me God’s love to me which is beyond my comprehension. I leave you all with this thought: wherever you are in life, God is there. In difficult situations or joy, He is with you.
Poetry from Anindya Paul

A dead umbrella
“Be like your father”
The inimitable pronunciation would pour into ears
burning lava
smoky
I have never seen lava, but I swear
there was nothing less warm than lava in those words.
Still, one day, with my all patience
when I myself became
a father
When I saw that from inside each sound “father” comes out
an umbrella
or an ‘old umbrella’
whose cloth is decorated with two and a half hundred holes
through each hole comes down a seed of a new universe
a seed is a forest
a forest is a civilization
and I realized that I too am a tree
in that forest sprouting like a leaky umbrella
in some drowsy corner
I too have to calculate how much shade
I can give to my child
or how much winter warmth I can give?
And when all these credit and debit are washed off
again I am on the battlefield like a
dead umbrella
A wild slogan will fall through all the living or dead holes
“I will never be like my father!”