Short story from Nicholas Viglietti

Lumps and the Lack of Pay Bumps

Furnace heat billows up from the summertime streets of the vicious valley. The doom-light of the impending dawn unleashes the earth’s phantom frenzy that buzzes before the shine sears our souls. I splash my face with sink water, and simultaneously, slurp hydration, strait off the faucet – my facial reflection is haggard & hungover. 

The day’s suck gets accepted without debate. I’m behind time, my blurry eyes see trios of things, in the house, that I only have one of – grab light essentials and go. My shambles, leftover from last night, blunder out the door (might be walkin’ over the limit?); I manage to lock the front door, and instantly my system goes wrong – I rip a hard projectile vomit, right off the porch.

Never felt worse…if lucks on my side, my truck will explode…then, I won’t endure the work-day’s suicide. 

Inside the driver side of the truck door, I get a damn grip, because that was a seriously heinous notion that rolled my brainwaves. Probably an indication that I should have the frequency of my noggin’ examined. 

The heavy thought ramrods my basic motor functions, and self-appraisal pauses my robotic, get-up-and-go functions that allow desperate souls to survive the work-day toil. 

Shit…guess I separate till sundown…and, if I open this acknowledged door of horror…then, there’s no tellin’ how many more I gotta enter…which would split the fraility of my psyche like an auger-bit, smoothly pierces soft dirt…to hell with that! At least boozed-out-bravery feels grand and gratifies instantly – last thing I need is to know all my fuckin’ problems.   

“Eh,” I mutter. Can’t solve that long-term shit, anyway, right now, and I’d still have to go to work. I turn the key in the ignition of the dilapidated truck, of this depraved desperado, it sputters well enough to get me down the highway, the grim prospects in the windshield.  

Quick thoughts, moments ignored, and I’ve always been inclined to put off the suffering of my own decisions for later. I got to go to work. When you dwell on existential plights for too long, you begin to clarify things that aren’t healthy for commerce.

Third-eye nourishment, eternity and the preparation of the soul for the flat-line existence would seem like perfectly reasonable things to address, but they don’t make money, and neither will I, especially, if I start gettin’ to the real truths in this nap & no chance lifestyle. 

I mean, there’s a fuckin’ business that needs to be run. Goods have been sold, there’s a stack that requires the break of my back, the dexterity of my fingers, after my ass is seated in the forklift – it’s got terrible lumbar support that exacerbates my spine where it’s gonna break. 

I nimbly fidget with just the right-touch…utilizing the lifts handle functions to place loads, an endless stream, on 18-Wheeler Mack-Trucks. So, the guy making the money, makes the guy happy that will yell at him if it’s not more money than last time, and if that scenario happens, then the first guy yells at me.

It seems critical that he gets paid, so I can get my comparatively scantier sum. It’s a five-day (usually, with a sixth) grind. I’m tired, and I drink to forget that I’m overworked, worn-out, and a blown opportunity of a heart-beat – but hey, there’s bills to be paid, and breathin’ ain’t free, and human’s like to earn the bitchin’ they do each day. 

I don’t want to get on the highway. 

It all feels wrong…the sun’s comin’ up and the shine side of it, ain’t workin’ like it should…we’re enemies for the next ten hours….yes, sure, I get ya, there’s a pay-check in it for me…but, I’m pretty sure, I’ll die on this fork-lift, and booze kills thoughts. I always thought that my existence was enough, but life demands more, and if you want to matter…well, I don’t know…get more money, it always seems to be the answer. 

Apparently, when an interest in present-focused, savor the joy now because later’s aren’t promised, and seeking a good-time feels human. Even thought, it neglects engagement with those demands, so, you get relegated to cog-work in some industrious wheel – you become a machine and slowly go insane.

I see the sun is higher than it should be, for the cruise in my routine on Biz-80, slicin’ out of Sac-Town. I holler obscenities at the slow, dumb, (basically any) vehicle that’s ahead of me. They’re obvious idiots because they are like me; on a highway, at an hour when even God takes a snooze, drivin’ to places we don’t want to be, to bitch about being there, makin’ claims – the type that say, needs to change, or we’re outta here, which would require the hard-work of us implementing the changes requested. So, instead, you just cuss a lot and hope the labor offsets pulmonary issues. 

Rationality’s quadrant of my lobe’s kicks in. I flood it with 2 Lime-Green Red bulls, straight electric juice, and cut through my groggy displeasure – maybe, if we all didn’t have to wake-up so early, on time, like fuckin’ robots that start at the press of a button, we wouldn’t be so bitchy in our decay.

Fuck it, fuck worry, and fuck punctuality. I’m habitually late, and as bothered as the boss and manager are about a character flaw, which I consider more of a fun, lovable quirk of loyalty, ingrain in my bizarre brand of work-ethic, they never send me home. 

All those suspensions in high school, learned-me-up the wrong way – there’s no free-days off when you make a mistake! In fact, they want you to stay longer or come in on a day-off to fix some fuck-up you did or didn’t cause – hell, they know they got a trump card and wield validated anger like the only guy with a gun in an un-armed tribe. 

I ain’t slept in two-days, with thoughts, like: shit, let it go, bro, I only had three beers at lunch, and I work in yard, operatin’ a fork-lift, no cop is gonna pull me over. Pussies. 

The old woman next to my vehicle nearly runs, head-first, into the cement divider, I recklessly changed lanes – of course, it’s all done for the sake of being on-time. I rip queasy loose, and affirm my tardiness, with orange Gatorade streaks, down my truck door.

“You fuckin’ idiot! Why don’t you watch where you’re going!?!!” Is what I imagine the old-broad yells at me – I watch her pull a mean drag on a Virgina Slim and her indignant eyes, scream at me. 

It reminds me of a crazy chica, I used to know – say what you will about the disrespect that comes with chaotic, unhinged behavior – those chica’s will knock every orgasm outta your ball-sack with a single bang.  

“Onery, ole hag!” I holler, but there’s no way her dumb earpiece can pick up my barf-bag frequency.

More sun is up, and I’m less punched-in than I should be, and rampin’ up speed won’t matter now, so I pull into the AMPM –nuke the finest break-fast sandwich in the joint. The waves of microscopic heat make me wait, so, I scroll Apps for ladies to love. 

I’m a single hogg on the midtown slog. I’m at the high point of the species, the apex-wreck, and I find a joint in my center console – after a few minutes, the hazy fray of pressure and the heinously uncontrollable problems, the world descends on us, evaporate from the chill gleam in my third-eye – gotta fade what you can’t fight back on.

I hit my punch code, so the computer knows my number is here – productive systems care about operational efficient data, not operational employee well-being. Just like I expected, I get chewed-out like a bone, picked clean, and the rant finishes on another expected note: “get out there and get to work!” 

Ain’t nothin’ these corporate turds hate more than finding new people to do shit jobs – most chudz with sense end up behind computers to pay rent. 

The boss-man unwraps his second sausage egg-McMuffin and gets to chompin’ so the grave can arrive faster than the realization of lost time. He’s always churning out a better performance because he was smart enough to be born at a time when companies didn’t hire based on resumes and drug-checks. We gotta work faster, like the yard-hoggs back in his day, but he insists: “don’t break your backs.”

He ain’t dyin’ for a while, so upward mobility is kinda at a stand-still, and the prices are goin’ up, and, I guess God, the Universe, or the Great Spirit are impressed with the fortitude in my grit, even though, my mind might snap, and I’m feelin’ the itch to quit – I’m a brief flicker that never blazed. 

I crawl on my forklift, and find a corner in the big yard, to lounge and burn another joint, or three. Honestly, I’ll puff as much weed as I can smoke to perform these hurried tasks and not wake up to the fact that the walls of the rut have gotten taller than the ladder I was given to get to my ambitions. 

 Sup, single-mom-sluts, because fuck takin’ the work-day lumps and the lack of pay-bumps – man, right about now, I reckon, I could use the stiff energy of a key-bump. 

When, I finally get confirmation – this thick mama-cita, she’s equipped with double-handed booty hunks, the burned life mentality of abandoned dreams, seeking promiscuity to make up for what she can’t get – life ain’t been nice to her; lots of love lost and heart-break, and myriad let downs, the type of dissatisfaction that makes her poon a lagoon. 

Lucky me…she hits me with a face-time jangle, and she’s wearin’next-to-nothin’ (trust me, that cameras catchin’ every angle). Pretty as the lust that stokes our sin – all she’s got on is skin, kitten heels and a thong. 

I take an early lunch, put an end to my day that didn’t care about me, anyway. What’s the point of humanity’s plight, unless you’re gettin’ laid. I gotta hunch, though…sure as hell, my drive to easy thighs, gets interrupted with a furious call. Answer and don’t absorb, I’m enroute to a healing fling of temporality. 

The ole boss-man blabbered on about things incomplete, the importance of it handled commitments (those load orders are heavy and change, instance to instance), it dampens the vibe, but ain’t affectin’ the direction of my pipe, and sure enough, it ends…he understands, and everything has been worked out, so tomorrow should flow smoothly, if everything goes according to plan.  

Nicholas Viglietti is a writer from Sacramento, CA. After Katrina ravaged the gulf coast, he rebuilt homes there for 2 years. Up in Mon-tucky, he cut trails in the wilderness. He pedaled from Sac-town to S.D. He’s a seventh-life party-hack, attempting to rip chill lines in the madness. 

Poetry from Nicholas Gunter

Deathiversary

If not you, the bird. If not the bird, 

me.

But the bird has been dead for months now,

I made sure of that.

But you still rot away at my solace.

Did I do the right thing?

Should I have shot the bird?

Should I have buried you?

I remain unsure, even now

No good son should abandon his father.

Last I was here, over your grave

I told you a few things,

Maybe I shouldn’t have said them,

Ruining your funeral

I don’t know if I regret it.

I won’t forgive you

For taking my father from me

But it doesn’t matter

Because I’m not seeing him again

I’m not seeing you again

I told you I changed,

Not that you could hear

I told you I was tired of your shit, 

not that it matters anymore

But no matter what I think, I’m tired of these ghosts.

Essay from Muxtasarxon Abdurashidova

My first teacher-the eternal trace in my heart.
In every personʼs life, there is a  guide who can never be forgotten.  My first teacher is an important figure in my life. When I was a little girl, I entered the doorway of school No. 3 in Toʼraqoʼrgʼon district of Namangan region,  the person who took my hand was my first teacher-Munavvar Mirzaturgunovna.

At first, studying was not easy. I made many mistakes. I started my studies in Russian. Sometimes I felt weak and even lost hope. But my teacher always helped me. She said: “Терпение и труд всё перетрут”

Thanks to her, I became interested in learning. Now I study at Isʼhoqxon Ibrat creativity school. I got good marks, won school competitions, and took part in different projects. One of my happiest memories was a trip to Zomin from translation. Now I can speak five languages, and of course, this is also connected with the knowledge I received from my first teacher in primary school.
My teacherʼs kindness inspires me a lot. I also dream of becoming a teacher in the future. I will never forget my first teacher. She is always in my heart, and I am very thankful to her.

Muxtasarxon Abdurashidova, 11th grader at Is’hoqxon Ibrat Creative School

Essay from Yuldosheva Yulduz Ravshanovna

Young Central Asian woman in a green headscarf and blue and white top.

Little Zulfiya through the Teacher’s Eyes

Every nation has great figures who become its pride and honor. We, the Uzbek people, are justly proud of our poetess Zulfiya, whose beautiful poems, penetrating our literature, spirituality, and delicate hearts, have captured the hearts of millions. In nurturing love for the Motherland, respect for the native language, and feelings of kindness and compassion in the hearts of the young generation, the works of this great figure play a significant role.

One of the talented students studying at our school, Zahro Qahramonova, is among those gifted girls who embody such human emotions in her heart and who has developed a love for the art of words. In every line of poetry, Zahro feels beauty, sincerity, dreams, and aspiration. When she reads a poem, she becomes inspired just like little Zulfiya. She gives every word a place in her heart and brings each image to life in her imagination.

For us teachers, this is a great happiness — to work with students whose hearts are filled with love for poetry and whose souls shine with dreams. Zahro’s noble intentions, her dedication to creativity, and her ability to reflect on great themes such as the Motherland, mother, nature, and peace, give us reason to call her a true “little Zulfiya.”

Zulfiya’s proud lines, “I am the daughter of Uzbekistan”, today have become a life motto for thousands of girls like Zahro. We believe that today’s little Zulfiyas will grow into tomorrow’s enlightened, devoted, and creative women. Zahro is one of those girls who is confidently stepping toward such dreams.

Poetry from Teresa Nocetti

Older light skinned European woman with reading glasses and white hair and lipstick and a white blouse.

PILLOW

Accomplice of vehement thoughts.

Burning in moments of passion.

A burning heat that bites at the temples.

Softness that displaces my anxiety.

It muffles a breathed cry.

It returns with texture another relief.

It excuses torrents of hostility.

It reflects visions difficult to find.

And at dawn, sunk

Bearing the weight of so much sorrow.

You rest, ready to receive other hours.

And to give peace: dreaming and dreaming.

Teresa Nocetti was born in Montevideo, capital of the Oriental Republic of Uruguay. She has been a retired teacher for seven years and is a mother and grandmother. She loves to travel, get to know different cultures, read and talk.

Since 2017, she has been a member of the group of international writers “Junto por las Letras,” counting hundreds of participants from different languages to date. In 2018, she published “La visita de Perseo”. She’s published in the anthologies: “Women on the brink of the abyss” (collection), “Vida de Piedra”, “When letters mature”, “A story for a smile” Volume Three, “Uniendo Fronteras” (Bolivia). In 2019 she was awarded a Special Mention from the Outstanding Women in Culture for her cultural trajectory and human values.

As of 2020, her works have been virtual. She continues to participate actively in the Virtual Book Fairs, in the virtual book Immortales, and in all the proposals of the “Juntos por las Letras” Group as Cultural Manager. They will publish her next book: “Sinuous Soul.”

Poetry from Mark Young

Impressions  (short)

If this 

were Cézanne’s 

birthday 

I might consider 

having an 

apple 

for lunch.

She

handled

it well, apart

from a slight

case of novocaine

burn acquired

while coming

down the

mountain.

Taciturn

to the end, he 

took a tacit

turn, & nobody

heard him die.

scratching #1 

my eyes
are playing up
on me

don’t see
things clearly
any more

listen
intently
to things
that aren’t
there 

sundae, bloody sundae


Whether in cyberspace
or a Baskin Robbins ice-

cream parlor, nobody can

hear your multiple ban-

anas split when they’re
served in a cone of silence.

Investiture

Divesting assumed i-

dentities is hard to do

especially when it is

others who have done

the assuming for you.

what’s / going on / with the drones?

Clusters of lights multiplying expo-

nentially. Concern; & then confusion.

The suspect promised to leave their

phone number, but was last seen 

running away.

from the brochures of the Well-being Institute

Add

a token

aberration just so

life isn’t all

beer &

skittles.

Plaint for the day

I’ve got gall

stones, kidney

stones, most

every stone

except the

Rolling Stones —

& I’m saving them

for a rainy day.