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CHEETA POST / REFLECTIONS ON A TWO-DAY SOLO HIKE TO MOUNT TAMALPAIS

Sunday April 29th, 2018

I am on the side of a mountain, looking straight up at the top of Mount Tam looming above me, much larger & closer than I’ve ever seen it. It is about mid-afternoon, clear sky, sunny, 60 or 70 degrees: a perfect day. Yesterday evening I set out, on foot, from Greenbrae, carrying a backpack, bag of groceries, tent & sleeping bag. My original quest was to make it all the way to the top of Tam by tonight. I told Jim to think of me & wave up at the mountaintop this evening around sunset. That plan has proved slightly overambitious. Burdened as I am, & not having brought adequate water, I am settling for the spot I’m at now as my bed for the second night — within sight of the summit (& how!), but still hours of steep hiking away from it, no doubt. I guess that I am on the crest of one of the neighboring slightly smaller mountains; not King Mountain but the one flanking Tam on the other side. Fair enough. I’ll come back, better prepared & hopefully in company with friends, soon to achieve the pinnacle. For now, this is a dramatic enough view to enable me to gain some perspective, as was my hope before setting out.

Yesterday I hiked up through Madrone (or Baltimore) Canyon — barely resisting the urge to stop by M’s house along the way (she whom I have nicknamed The Madwoman of Madrone Canyon) — marveling at the beauty of it &, I must admit, envying those who make their home there. I was filled with the conviction that it is the most enchanting place I’ve ever been, as far as places where large numbers of humans make their home. I mentally compared it with the most astounding neighborhoods I recall from my wandering days in San Francisco (Diamond Heights, Grand View, Mt. Sutro, Twin Peaks, Noe Valley, Liberty Hill), but even they fell short, I felt. There is just a kind of celestial tawny redwood glow to this valley that is virtually indescribable.

I followed Dawn Falls Trail to the point where it became steep; then, since it was already dark anyway, I bedded down for the night. Couldn’t figure out how to properly pitch the tent (which I borrowed from someone else), so I just zipped myself & sleeping bag inside it as an extra layer of protection. I did not hang my food bag from a tree branch, but stashed it some distance away, so that on the off chance any tough forest customers with the munchies happen by, they would hopefully direct their energies that way & leave me in peace.

I was left in peace. Indeed, it’s a bit ironic that I lay awake with anxieties for hours — fearing animals, fearing rangers — because last night was by far the quietest, most peaceful, most utterly still & undisturbed night I’ve had in… I really don’t know how long. The deep dark hush of the canyon was complete, a thick black blanket, undisturbed even by wind, which was blocked by the towering stone goliaths that hemmed me in. Deep in the night when I awoke to listen, I literally heard nothing at all, beyond the softest noise of birds & tree branches creaking. It was so still & calm, it almost kept me awake, in a backwards sort of way, dreading a noise that would break the silence & signal an intrusion — an intrusion which never came.

“Is he kind of Jack London-ing it?” I heard a couple joggers say early this morning, when they passed me still laying inside my improperly erected tent. I think that’s what they said. I’ll have to Google that.

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Poetry from Allison Grayhurst

 

Allison Grayhurst

Allison Grayhurst

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Walk on Fear

 

 

It appears in the grip

of ecstasy, in the

idiot abstract of failure,

and sometimes, love.

 

Illusions coating

the sides of eternity

with shrieks, illusions

crawling out of the mouths of

 

of gods and myths. Trains

pass all night through offices,

apartments, trains packed

 

tight with a cargo of dreams.

No one is strong enough to say goodbye

to the world, shave their heads

without feeling. No one is here

 

to shout spontaneous, to endure

the striving tongue and bone. Electrical

flies on the wall. Cockroaches scanning

the fridge – oxygen, dancing couples,

 

standing naked

before a window, skyscrapers

stretched towards

a crippled sky, and then

 

long ago, a child

sitting in a forest,

singing

to each tree.

 

Lately, it is has been hard

to hide – undressed,

divorced from direction.

 

Lately, I’ve been watching

the furniture, screaming

aloud when there’s a knock

on the door.

 

But my house is forever.

And the urgency and hunger

that overpower my pulse

has never cried for peace.

 

 

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Poetry from John Robbins

The Fighters Logic

A warrior is only good for the battlefield. When not killing or healing his wounds he simply lives to die. Drinking, fucking, thirsting for endless combat, and sharing stories with those who understand. To walk upon the edge is to understand the frailty of life itself. Apart from that he dies long before his last breath. I understand the battle but I am useless without a fight. The grave is already dug its why death is not a fear just something I except and move on. When you know that which others simply read of in stories you can never explain the loss . The pain is something to haunt only your dreams and those nights that find you alone . I no longer live I simply exist and wait . Drinking to forget and wishing to know that thrill no one person can give me. My brothers who fell before me were the lucky ones . For they died in honor as I just waste away. When a fighter no longer has a reason to fight it’s simply a matter of time.

 

Just The Seagulls
I found myself burnt out as always alone on the beach . Why the hell was I drawn here I cannot say . Maybe I was a junkie for the pain maybe I just was unoriginal . And maybe it just reminded me of you . Either way I was here blown out of my socks as usual . The ocean is a force unto itself . It held many a man’s soul as once I held you . It wasn’t a game or a line it was my life and I was tired of giving my soul to get nothing in return . If I was paying dues then I must of had a hell of debt my friends . A blown out liver and bad heart always on the verge chasing a false promise stuck in the sand while others simply passed me by. I lost it all and gained shit in return keep your slaps on the back. Give me a paycheck and a corner booth let me die with my vices . But time is a cruel bitch. But no matter her intentions here I stood always hoping the sunset would find more than a closed door and a swift kick in the ass. The seagulls lived a second at a time on the verge of starvation . Waiting for the tide to bring the next meal. I questioned many things in this life . My direction was not amongst these questions. I watched the sunrise for free was the view. Cause you couldn’t tax nature’s beauty. When I left the beach i noticed a parking ticket on my windshield . The tide brought in many things and the asshole with a badge killed my buzz. Full circle was something I was beginning to understand . The seagulls thrived on nothing as I did the bottle . We all need something . I just needed enough to buy another bottle . Dreams are for the sleeping.

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Poetry from JD DeHart

My Malevolent Wishes for Ants
I wish all creatures
warmth and comfort, save the ants
and other insects.
For them, St. Francis I am not.
So, as the temps drop down,
come inside my earthly
kiln of comfort and rambling
television shows.
Take a nibble of the special
trap I have left for you inside
the window – I relish only your
traipse back to your hometowns,
scenic vistas of the spiral dust
worlds you have created in the ground
and within my walls, share your
goods and perish as I dream.
Can’t Miss It
Can’t miss it, unless you drive
right passed it.
It’s noticeable and blue,
the big house where they serve
you delicate ice cream.
Did you know that ice cream
can be up to fifty percent air?
This is just like many people I
have met.
They say we are mainly
composed of water, but I have
my scientific doubts.
I am a practiced skeptic.
Problem is, I couldn’t tell you
how long the house has been there,
as I barely notice anything anymore.
No Corrections from Me
, sir,
which is to say not that you
are perfect.  After all, none
of us have reached perfection.
I am not the loathsome
reviewer #3 who wishes to strike
you down.
So, if I do find a literary quandary,
or verbal quirk, please respond in
kind.  I do not tear at the quilt
needlessly, as others sometimes do.
Know What I Think Is Funny?
No idea.
Well, some ideas.
1.  Clowns or carnivals
2.  The ontology of marshmallows
3.  Ironies that occur while ironing
4.  The way an ant smells after crushed
5.  Bones.  I mean, think about it.  How weird.
6.  Inner dialogues (like this one)
7.  Punctuation and the way we chain to it;!?
8.  Language in general.  I flap my lips or hands.  You follow
9.  Sequels – like we didn’t see it coming
10.  Adolescence, with all its flashy feather pretend adulthood
11.  The way researchers assign pseudonyms – you shall be called Todd
12.  Bathrooms with no walls or privacy
13.  The human need to sculpt, write poems, decorate everything (including ourselves)
14.  The way a boundary presents challenge to some, fear to others
15.  Mistakes – best to laugh at them, no wallow.  Mud is for wallowing.
Encroachment 
(first appeared at Bluepepper)
On the window to the left,
the neighbor closing in.  Large
vans, gas grills, overtaking
with suburban life.
To the right, it was a vacant
lot, now overrun with chickens,
rabbits, a teeming zoo of human
and animal life.
Then there are the fast-moving cars,
children dressed as superheroes,
frequent deliveries, all of which
brings to mind:
What used to be life in the country.
The slow rumble of gravel once
or twice a day signaled a passerby.
Enough silence to dwell on.

Poetry from Bhavani Rao

OLD THAT NEVER GETS OLD

I always appreciated the innate charm of antiquity

in my own skins.  I celebrated the joy of black and white being alternatives of hope and despair, colors are beautiful but they never intrigued me as if I was color blind . I always wondered why so much of vintage love in me? May be the conditioning between ancient souls that turned me into an ancient soul or the beauty of ancientness itself.

There is something special being an ancient soul, may be the promise of neoclassicism or the promise of beauty itself.

Ancient souls, too old to be weaved in poetry are throwback to the era where souls hankered to heal and blossomed like never before.

Beauty in beauty, believer in belief

Appreciating the world through ancient eyes

Like a sunburst candle

Bringing sunshine at every tick

Like an enchantress

Spreading vintage spells

Like a French wine

The older the better

Like a vintage bloom

Blossoming to be in blossom

Like a Roman candle

Illuminating the illusions

Like a Danish credenza

Too old to be modern

P

–          Bhavani Rao

an avid learner who likes to connect dots

Hyderabad, Telangana, India.

Poetry from Grant Guy

 

first i’ll have a beer

by

Grant Guy

 

i like small towns

i like to plant a photograph of it in my brain

 

yesterday

pulled of the US15 & in about 11 miles I came to a town

an old red brick saloon introduced me to the town

it’s only concession to suburbann sprawl

 

a cold beer lured me on

 

outside the bar

a woman who must have spent the good part of the day in the bar

leaned against a wall

a bearded man was sucking back a beer

 

lined up out front were three dirt bikers

speaking in a language i could not identify

 

within seconds of being in the bar

a man a biker

stormed in from the bbq patio and violently lifted me up off my feet

and swung me out of his way me

he grabbed a stool at the bar

raised it two feet off the ground

& slammed it hard on the floor

 

ive had enough of the shit you’re giving me   he shouted

 

the biker stormed back out onto the bbq patio

 

i heard a beer from Fremont Street calling my name

 

but first ill have a beer here

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Poetry from Joan Beebe

WHY ME?

There are so many times in one’s life

When we quietly murmur “Why Me?

Complications, frustrations and worry

Seem to take over our lives and

Depression sets in.

We must remember that we are not alone

In how we feel.

The world today is full of negative images and writing.

How much more do we need to take hold of our own

Self in a determination to bring thoughts that are positive.

We are thankful for the gifts we have been given

And take in the beauty that surrounds us in nature.

Healing does not take place overnight but as we

Take one day at a time and look at a beautiful sunset  or

Perhaps an aura of a rainbow stretching across the sky,

We look to our future with strength of mind and the knowledge

That there will be brighter days ahead.