destined
a tall thin man
dressed in a tatty floral frock
shuffles along these streets each day
i pace down them too
on trodden grime
we separately seek our own reasons
for these solitary rambles to anywhere else
but our current this in now
weeks of passing each other
without word spoken
no nod or flick of friendly smile
no wink or silly boyish smirk
just numb private loping
and it unhinges me
pulling me deeper
into my pulsating core
of constantly wondering
what and why
yesterday
as our paths collided
on a muddled corner of maybe fate
i glimpsed a reservoir of tears in his milky eyes
i’m sure he heard the plea for answers
screaming out of mine
today
i can’t face him
entwined in his inane crawling
or tread those confusing roads to naught
i can’t move from where i hide
wallowing in the realisation of existence
and i’m disturbed by him and his input
to my distorted analysis
for i know as i gulp at a gritty breath
we are both destined
to experience what we do
ongoing
until our end
death-songs
slaughter equals
what the fuck
is going on
without compassion
i’m no sage
just ardent vego
in this
killing mess
i cry when i see sheep
in a truck
stare hard
loathe reality
catching fish
is like a murder game
of swimming beauty
lost forever
cooking flesh
smells
like replaying
death-songs
no argument
for sake of hard words
flesh takers don’t listen
won’t notice
so we tolerate
their catching and killing
and breeding more
living meat
for in their accepted
butchery
we are the freaks
never them
unless and though
there’s nothing wrong with having a mouse on your head
unless an eagle sees it and swoops down to grab it
a run of relationship breakups isn’t so bad
though if they’ve taken your money it’s terribly upsetting
getting lost in a storm can be quite exciting
unless it’s below zero and you’re trapped in the snow
being totally broke is not the end of the world
though it’s extremely grim if you’re starving to death
camping alone in the jungle is a fabulous adventure
unless being stalked by a hungry tiger
not remembering who you are is no big deal
though it becomes complicated when filling out forms
never having a poem published means very little
unless you’ve spent your life trying to get poetry published
old age is natural and is just how life is
though it’s quite disappointing if you have never felt joy
as dying sits before us we attempt to avoid it
unless you’ve been waiting for the end of the journey
unless and though
can be used in countless ways
though it’s best to experiment with how
unless devoted to what’s correct
Stephen House has won many awards and nominations as a poet, playwright and actor, including two Australian Writer’s Guild Awgie Awards, and a Greenroom Best Actor nomination. He has had 20 plays produced, many commissioned. He’s received international literature residencies from The Australia Council and Asialink. His chapbook “real and unreal” was published by ICOE Press. His next book is out soon. His poetry is published often, and he performs his acclaimed monologues widely.