Poetry from Christopher Bernard

Two Poems

by Christopher Bernard

 Urbi et orbi
 
Myself, I prefer a city with no one in it,
or, if not exactly no one, only a few.
 
It’s like being in an enormous sculpture garden,
immense minimalist slabs
of glass and concrete throwing shadows
dark as poetry across streets grown modest
with stillness and opening trustingly as a child’s hand.
The few people there look less grotesque
when teased out of the crowd –
the way a solitary farmer turning his field,
a pair of friends or lovers, a daydreaming
hiker, seen in a summer countryscape
between bays of woods and folds
of pastureland and field, under
an ingenuously immense sky
make the dignity of humankind,
its vulnerable nobility,
palpable, and not the poorly spun joke
it seems so often
in a city hysterical, delirious, and crammed.
 
No: our monuments, our things,
the traces of care in the woodwork,
the shadow of a mind molded from a sun –
tools and toys and trinkets, engines and edifices,
the shape of a hand on a prehistoric cave wall,
a flute played shyly on a Sunday morning –
make me less ashamed of being human.
 
I wander the empty city like a hunter
in a wilderness, except that I have found
the object of my hunt, and hold it close
inside my coat, where I can feel its heart
beating, and its warmth, and its wings.


*****
 
The Coyotes of North Beach
 
Sunset, spring: a strange wailing
rises from the gorge under our house
cautiously balanced on a cliff edge
as on a knife
above a valley where coyotes are gathering.
Strange indeed for a city
(our neighborhood, part declivity, part escarpment,
is strange enough for any city).
But maybe not strange for a city
largely emptied from a malady
emptying much of the world –
and giving meaning to the "pan" 
in panache, panama, pancake, panjandrum,
Panglossion, Pandragon, pandemic –
and so giving way to wilderness
seeping back into the streets,
crows appraising the roof tops,
mountain sheep strolling about in Wales,
curious spiders measuring bus shelters
with their delicate silks,
coyotes gathering at cross streets
and dancing in the glimmering streetlights
as they flicker on in the dusk
and making their coyote-like noisings,
as sweet as they are uncanny,
in the city's deepening twilight.
 
Why are they wailing so?
Is it from fear, or loneliness, or need for love?
 
How did the coyotes know
that they are speaking for us?

*

Christopher Bernard is co-editor and poetry editor of the webzine Caveat Lector. His new novel, Meditations on Love and Catastrophe at The Liars’ Café, appeared in January 2020.

Poetry from Mahbub

Author Mahbub
Mahbub. Bangladeshi man in a light blue collared shirt and glasses with a pen in his pocket

Rohingya Repatriation

It was left no stone unturned

Doctors, nurses, relatives all engaged

How to restore to life

Having them all behind the spirit flies away silently

This carefulness we serve for the humanity

Humanity cries for humanity

But what can we see on the other part of it?

Thousands and millions of people left to experience death and suffering

Rohingyas living in Rakhine with a severe torture on their body flew away

Took shelter in Chattogram of Bangladesh

A pathetic Asian history

Passing their days in the sun suffering from starvation and rain

Under the open sky in unsafe and shaky habitations

Every day the earth blooms pale and grim

Like the old brown leaves in the tree, we see

Every day they would like to go back to their home

But ignored as the citizens or any ethnic group

People flee from the forests in fear of the tigers and the lions

Along the edge of a sea to not to get lost on the vast waters

What a sigh to be deprived of the right!

Not to be able to say

It’s my own land, my own country

The rulers serve people, delivering much of love

Ironically say again and again the same

Deceive them; kill them, a scene of massacre

From this clutch who can save themselves anyway

Try to take the breath fleeing to the other place

Sorry to say its second time failure the attempt-repatriation

Of the Rakhine people living in Bangladesh.

Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh
29/08/2019

Lots of Rain but No Clouds

The sky turns into black from the blue

All seem to be dark and glue

What a restless time!

Though so many fans are running

In this unbearable hot

What feels the mind and body?

The scent of rain through the nostrils

Change the thought to envisage

We see the sky but from black to white

In the meantime the sun shines

We hoped a lot but there is no drop of rain

The world always gains some moments

Our hearts rejoice, beside the heavy rain drops

There floods the rivers causing deaths and sufferings

Where I stand here I see the sky with much of hope

But this overhead is always covered with drought and fog.

Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh
06/09/2019

O My Love

When you love me in true sense

The waves of the river flow in tune

I see and see the full moon in the sky

A sign of love in the rainbow

What a rising after the rain, a new glow

Grasp me all my body and soul

A dream in reality

A promise to reach my destiny

O my love; please hold me in tongue

A wriggle never to be lost

O my heart, my love.

 Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh
 06/09/2019

Backlash Fear

He turns his face like a ghost

The victim standing before him forgets all

She mumbles and recollects the lashing and dashing to her

A rosy beauty

The cop with his gang stings

The rose full of fragrance and attraction

Torn into —– on the soil

Soft and blooming

The burning eyes encircling her

The mischievous roles a iron rod

The helpless victim reclines silent

The broken heart fumbles on the board

Mr. Judgment is hung on the wall.

Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh
 09/09/2019

The Love Shrine

There is no shrine except you

I lie and fondle in the jungle

This mound is only for you and me

Shakes my hands and heart

In this shrine there will be no goddess or god

At the ultimate point of joy

You are my soul mate, my all

Our blood is running too fast

Leaning over I see you on my hands

A full bloomed rose, a full moon starry sky

We wander and enjoy

In this heavenly lagoon

What is more than this idyllic beauty?

Where you and I

In this coral island the blue water sparks into your eyes

The water color eyes, fix into

I find no other heaven in this world

Wherever I see, I see this coral island

You are my atolls

Only you and I this entity century after century

Round over body and soul

After the burial of hundreds or thousands of years

The archeologists may find out

Engraving on the gate ‘The Love Shrine’.

Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh
29/08/2019

Creative nonfiction from Norman J. Olson

art, art history and painting the nude – talking about art

By:  Norman J. Olson

Norman J. Olson

people often ask me the names of artists that I like or, when they look at my art, people tell me the names of contemporary artists who they think I will like…  when I later look up those artists, I seldom find them interesting…  in fact, as I have said many times, except for a few of the new surrealist/realist painters such as Dino Valles and the late HR Giger, contemporary artists are of little interest to me…

what do I like??  well, the answer to that is my topic here…  first off, I am a student of art history…  I love European art almost from the beginning until the big aesthetic shift in the early 20th Century…  I also love and have been much influenced by the matriarchal artistic tradition of the Ndebele women of South Africa…

I learned to use black and pattern in my work from the women of the Ndebele and I hope to someday make a pilgrimage to their village near Pretoria, to see some of their amazing art in the original…  from the prehistoric figures of Europe, I learned about abstracting the figure and moving beyond the classical in appreciation of human bodies…  from the great masters of European art, I learned to love the illusion of three dimensional space made with paint, ink, etc.  on a surface of painted canvas or paper…  from the academic and pre-Raphaelite painters, I learned to work carefully and to love drawings of people, especially naked people…  from James Ensor, I learned to trust my intuition and from Picasso, I learned that it was okay to fragment the figure in my drawings and paintings…  I have learned from many many others as well…

many of my paintings include depictions of the nude…  I am not really sure why I like to make images of naked people…  perhaps that is something that a psychoanalyst could uncover…  but ultimately, I guess that the reason of it is not important…  be that as it may, pictures of naked people with landscape elements, which is what many of my art works are, are common enough in the history of European art that, well, that is my tradition and where my roots and my love, art-wise, lies…

through most of European art history, these depictions of the nude seem to me to have been made for no other reason than that the artists, like me, enjoyed looking at and making images of naked people…  I believe that an artist like Michelangelo made his art because he loved depicting, studying, looking at, drawing and sculpting images of naked men…  the church was the big patron in those days (early 16th century) and Michelangelo needed to be a professional and earn money from his obsession and since the time was right with the rebirth of humanism in the 16th century, Michelangelo found a way to make the naked men fit into bible stories and so earned enough money to support himself and his parasitic family while still doing what he obsessively needed to do which was make pictures of naked men…  and the same is true of most of these artists…  I think that religion or portraiture or public commissions from fat cats are mostly, through the history of European art, an excuse for the artist to do something different, personal and only tangentially related to the purported purpose of the art…  even though the artist may have been unaware altogether of that fact…

I am not suggesting that this art is insincere, or fake but rather that it is more interesting to look at as a piece of art that exists without limiting the response to the art to that of a historian…  for example, I especially love Victorian and particularly Pre-Raphaelite art…  I think that I understand the motivations of those artists, in the sense that making drawings and paintings of figures with landscape elements also moves me…  and the nude figure was very important in the work of many of them, which I can certainly relate to…  on a technical level, I love the way these artists from the 1800s drew the figure as well as the landscape elements… a few years ago, I traveled to Brooklyn New York to see a show of Victorian Nudes at the Brooklyn Museum of  Art…  while many of these paintings are flawed and look kind of stupid to the modern eye, the use of oil paint or drawing media to represent is just so amazingly facile…  and these artists all had long experience drawing nude figures from models and were very very good at it…  I loved looking at those paintings…  when I tell people that my work devolved directly from that Victorian, Pre-Raphaelite tradition,  they say “oh, it looks more like Picasso to me…”   well, there is some Picasso in my work as Picasso was jammed down my throat all through art school and a bit of that stuck…  but Picasso was classically trained by his father, a classical 19th century painter, so came straight out of that 19th century tradition that I love and that may be why our work has points of tangency…  but my art works are drawings and paintings of faces, nude or clothed figures and landscape elements… which also describes the work of GF Watts or any number of Victorian and Pre-Raphaelite painters…  but where Watts had to convince himself and everybody else that his drawings of naked people served some higher moral purpose, I say that I feel like making pictures of nudes and landscape elements so I go ahead and do it…  in fact, I feel like many of Watts’s paintings would have been significantly stronger if he had ditched the sermon and just went ahead and painted the skinny naked girl on the rocks…  or whatever…  and not cared if the critics of the time thought he was a hopeless pervert for painting naked people without trying to make some moralistic statement…

I don’t have to care what critics say because, I am a noncommercial artist in that I do not do art for money and the way the contemporary art world is set up, only artists who are on the commercial stage are subject to criticism…  plus, my little drawings and paintings of naked people and landscape elements are of no interest to the commercial MOMA art work in the first place…  so, being free of all that, I am able to go to the well of my intuition and let the art work happen however it seems to want to happen…  which is generally with more or less distorted representations of faces, figures and landscape elements… 

Michelangelo was a deeply religious person but I think that his religion was more personal than Catholic…  from looking at his art, I reconstruct the god of Michelangelo as a humanistic, pagan deity relating to Christ in the ecce homo sense and intrinsic to the act of being alive…  his worship was modeling the images that he loved…  and god was in the flesh…  I recently saw an article that pointed out that the representation of god the father in the central panel of the Sistine Chapel, where he is an old guy with a grey beard reaching a finger out to the reclining Adam, is in a swirl of drapery that is exactly a representation of the human brain…  and as soon as it was pointed out and I looked at the image, I saw that too…  this hiding of shapes and symbols in art was common enough in Renaissance art, (for example, see the howling figure in the background hills of Hugo Van Der Goes Portinari Altarpiece)…  and Michelangelo certainly had dissected enough cadavers to know exactly what the human brain looked like…  so, I am positive that he used this painting to explain to those who could see that his religion came like Adam’s spark of life from the deep and mysterious depths of the human brain…  well, I love that…  what a wonderful religion…  the religion of the brain…  the true, deep and only humanism… 

so, while I have lost the Lutheran religion I was raised with, I am endlessly fascinated by the human brain and body and by the planet upon which I, with my brain and body live…  is my art some kind of pagan religious observation??  no, of course not…  I don’t really even understand what it is at all…  maybe someday, I will do something besides figures and landscape elements…  who knows??  but, for now, it seems like enough to trust my intuition…  wrap my loving arms around the shoulders of the giants from South Africa, Venice and foggy London town who have given me so much and paint and draw whatever comes into my head…  it is an amazing and wonderful life…

Artwork from Ken Rutkowski

A large simply drawn daisylike flower with two petals.
A stick figure of a person holding up a line of other smaller stick figures with the sun overhead.
The words ‘Khong Sau’ and ‘Mistakes are Forgiven in Stride’ and three calm stick figures of people underneath the words
The sun overhead and insects flying to a house and children and a family standing nearby.
Lots and lots of diagonal right to left lines, short and all over the paper.
Stick figure of a serene person with a plant growing out of their head.
Person with a thought bubble thinking of lots of smaller people.
A person’s head and a question mark with the text ‘remember’ between them.
Person asking a turtle what the turtle has on their back.

I have been living in Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam for the past six years. We, everyone here, calls it Saigon. I have traveled extensively around Asia, but I am most familiar and indebted to Vietnam. It is a misunderstood, small, but lively country.

The city is very colorful and bustling, flowers and plants everywhere, outdoor markets, packed alleys and daily services often forgotten about or disregarded in Western cultures. It is a collective mind in this country, life is good, not always easy, but they try to live well, by standards that have seemed to fit my own sensibility. 


I call these pieces “picture poems”, a Kenneth Patchen reference/ vernacular, but travel memoirs/ photo essays/ instances in themselves that reflect how I see the world in Vietnam, immersed, and always through learning and contribution.

I am most comfortable with words, but images are usually how the words take form, through the physicality of thought. 


Some of the pieces were created in the 3 months our lives have been on hold…three months for us…we have been set free, “man is condemned to be free”, I have seen great acts of determination and hospitality, trade and love, but also dire circumstances that have made me break down. Still, throughout this experience, “we” have remained calm and accepted this as survival first. 

Poetry from Ian Copestick

White man with glasses and a striped button shirt lying down next to a dog

So Young

A drunken night, remembering the times
both good and bad. When we were young,
and excitement came so easily.
The nights
we spent sleeping together in fields, with
only our passion to keep us warm. I’d
give anything to have those times
again. But, no, like youth they have
gone. The times when you felt sure that
you were about to explode, just through
the power of your emotions. The times
when despite inarticulacy, you somehow
blurted out everything you needed to say.
The times when you were young.
Those times when you were o so young.

Diminishing Returns

The hands of

my body clock

creak as they

turn. I seem

to be getting

older before

my time. The

day before

yesterday I

did some

gardening for

my father, he is

unfortunately

receiving chemo

therapy, and this

makes it far too

difficult for him

to keep his

usually beautiful

garden up to the

standard it normally

holds. So I strapped

on a strimmer to

do his front lawn,

then hedge clippers

to thin out his

conifers.

I woke yesterday

in utter agony,

my arms felt

as if I’d been

attacked with a

baseball bat.

It’s hard for me

to believe that

I’m still the same

guy who held down

all of those factory

and warehouse

jobs, working up

to 12 hours each

night, carrying and

throwing all of

those heavy boxes around.

I suppose this must

be how it happens.

You don’t realise

just how much you

are diminished

until you are totally

finished

Of course, by then

it’s already

far

too late.

                Traps

Life can be so tough

we all fall into different

traps, but the pain is

always going to

 be the same.

Be careful as you

scamper along the

pathways of life.

There are dangerous

traps lying in wait.

Some simple holes

dug in the dirt, with

sticks, grass and weeds

feebly covering them.

Others vicious steel

beasts with razor sharp

teeth. Some traps are

 nastier than others,

but we all eventually

get caught.

The ones who thought

they had escaped are

the ones that get hurt

the most

Nobody ever escapes

all of the traps.

That’s the only victory

that death can achieve.

Ian Lewis Copestick is a 47 year old writer from Stoke On Trent, England.He started writing poetry in the early 2000’s, but due to a lack of confidence, and the lack of a clue of where to send them, he first sent his work out for publication in 2018.Since then he has had over 250 poems published in various ezines.His first collection of poetry, ” Detritus Of The Drunken Night”, was published by Cajun Mutt Press in 2019.He has also been nominated for a Pushcart Prize.

Essay from Chimezie Ihekuna

Chimezie Ihekuna (Mr. Ben)
Chimezie Ihekuna

‘’You’re a dirty-looking and unkempt person, Ben. You need to learn how to look at yourself!’’ Esther said to me, laughing together with her friends who witnessed my humiliation, when I attempted to answer an important question in class. Throughout that day, I felt the earth to open and swallow me completely! It was a sad day for me.

I go by the names Ihekuna Chimezie Benedict. People seldom call me ‘’Mr. Ben’’. Born and raised in Lagos, Nigeria, my birth history has always been a miracle to all and sundry who knew what really happened. There were birth complications surrounding the putting to bed of the baby who would be later christened ‘’Chimezie Ihekuna’’. Unlike the ‘turning’ orientation of babies that would have them come through the head as they are being brought to the world, I came to Mother Earth with my face! It was a topsy-turvy challenge to the mid-wives and obstetrician who handled my case. According to what my mother who told me what happened, the doctor improvised by skillfully avoiding any contact of the fluid from the umbilical cord to my face; for if it had, it would have resulted in permanent blindness.  The ‘weight’ of the fluid did affect the left part of my cheek. My journey into the world of surgical operations would begin three years later.

Having completed my first surgical operations at age three, I was scheduled to go for yet another major one the following year. All the while, according to what my mother told me, it’s been from one drug prescription to the other, special infant foods as recommended by the same doctor who handled my case (He was based in Saudi Arabia at the time. My parents paid for all expenses to have the operations carried out in Nigeria). When I turned four, I went under the knife. After the operation was successfully completed, the doctor told my parents that as I grow in age, the swelling on the left side of my cheek would experience a shrinking; it wouldn’t be pronounced as it was at the time I turned a year old. My parents had to be patient to see me grow and watch the state of my swollen cheek. But for me, it would mean me having to endure torture and brace up myself for the harsh realities ahead.

At age six, I started experiencing rejections from my colleagues. Though I was given the best of material attention, the emotional connection positioned me as a loner. My parents were rarely available as they were occupied with demanding work schedules in order to meet up with pressing needs of the home. Rather, what they did was to place me under the watchful eyes of a house-help.  Togolese by nationality, she really did not know how to connect with my emotional needs; she was there to just ensure that I was comfortable: Being for me when I am hungry, pick me up from school, change my uniforms to my casual clothes and wash my dirty clothes.  I faced a hard nut to crack challenge trying to communicate my emotional needs to my parents who would come late at nights, only to leave early for work.  My only consolation was to be a loner, since I felt the world does not understand my predicament. This habit of theirs and my inability to communicate with them would linger for years.

A memorable day for me was when I celebrated my sixth birthday: July 6, 1990. My then class captain, Elsey Farrington, Caucasian American, was on hand to help celebrate my birthday with me. Back then, it was the tradition for the birthday celebrant to depict benevolence by letting the entire class know about it and sharing food and drinks to each member of  the class he or she belonged to. Every pupil looks forward to his or her birthday. Yes, it was always a day we, children, would challenge our parents to celebrate our birthdays in schools! She knew I was a loner but chose to treat me on that day, as her very-own brother, friend and ‘little’ kid lover (I could imagined how lost in that desire I was). She took me round the length and breadth of the spacious school premises, letting the world know that that day was my birthday.  Life returned to me through the radiating smile emitted from the puerile face of my innocence. I was very happy throughout that very day. Since then, we became friends until her sudden departure back to the United States, a year later. I was saddened to hear she was no more in the country. I asked of her whereabouts but was not able to see her…again. I just had my loner-to-bright moments cut short! She was the only girl who knew how to spark that light of liveliness in me. ‘’She’s no more!’’  I said, looking up and down and walking aimlessly in my home. I just have to accept the fact that I am on my own…

For over a decade, I have to take solace in being a loner while I look forward to a focus that would earn me a life-long career. Throughout my post-primary education, I endured all manner of humiliation, insults and certain abuses because of my facial deformity (The left side of my cheek is still swollen). However, what kept me going was the core attention to my academics. I have always aspired to be the best in my class. That, I was able to accomplish! That gave me the inspiration to forge ahead!

From the age of seventeen till when I turned twenty –seven, I was in the business of asking ladies out for a serious relationship. I did not care about the age, race, tribe or size. What mattered most to me was if she (any girl whom I come across) would say ‘’yes’ to my request to be my ‘’girlfriend’’. I was used to being humiliated by both sexes. Unfortunately, I asked out a total of eighteen women and none of them said ‘’yes’’! What shocked me the more was that most their responses resonated with all manner of physical intimidations like sending people to threaten me in my house!

At some point in my life, in my late twenties, I turned to the other side of life—seeking a drastic measure—-suicide! I had already ventured into full-time writing at age 22 and having endured all rejections, coupled with the ‘’hates’’ coming from people around me, I thought about taking my life suddenly.  My life began to make a U-Turn when I read an anonymous sticker:

‘’There comes a point in your life where you have to stand tall amidst challenging circumstances and show the strength of character. Don’t look down on yourself, don’t give up and don’t give in to anything that would pull you down’’

I read it severally and it had a subconscious impact in my life. It made me realize discouragement is a part of success, there is an inner-beauty and wealth awaiting the environment, time and person to attract them. All the discouragements, insults, humiliations and disgrace that were thrown at me were all the energies I would need to become who I am today….

Having gone through the life lessons and motivation, I am now a published author, poet, writer, voice-over artiste and speaker. See my works at amazon.com/author/mrben. It was really, like, in the words of Late Nelson Mandela, ‘’A Long Walk To Freedom of [self-realization]’. But it was worth it.

 I am still living with the swollen cheek but I have learned to outgrow the psychology of being let down. My successes are speaking for me, as I look forward to when a re-constructive facial surgery would be completely done to restore the originality of my face! I have been, still am and will remain very optimistic!

Chimezie Ihekuna writes on faith, relationships, and philosophy and has also published science fiction and a collection of poetry. His work is available here and he’s published through Pen It! Publications in Indiana, USA.