The Drawings The drawings are singing The wonderful melodious songs are sung with instruments Enchanting as the painting of Mona Lisa! The laugh you live in me For ever and ever. Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh 13 May, 2023 Withered Thoughts The cyclone is ready to destroy People are taking shelter as the birds fly to other Fear hovers around the coastal area Fear disturbs the mind The sun is so hot, the scorching sun Hinders to pace outside We are in this turmoil world Drooping in the furnace and chokes the breath. Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh 13 May, 2023
Poetry from Mesfakus Salahin
Snow Maiden
I am telling you Snow Maiden
You will melt like wax
The wind will lose your scent
The sea will carry your identity
I still love you
I know you won’t be mine
Flocks of seagull will be your companion
Your whiteness will be swayed by catkin
Bedouin will find your address
I will be a nomad like time
The speed will hang on one leg.
I’ll wear your nupur in the dance of memory
Will sell morning and afternoon
I will buy lost night.
Modern Saints
A serious meditation carried out
By seven modern holy saints
A well frog sings the song of Shiva
The mountain walks in the hands of the moon
Darkness lurks every night
A flood of kings in the midst of light
A daughter of two fathers
The illusion of shadow in the shell
May find your body
Timeless action is in the womb of time.
Whose is whose? No religion
The moon forgot her address
Everyone is wandering, the path is unknown.
Poetry from Clive Gresswell
paper tigers straddle these doorways of perception while we grow sleep in those rusted mortal chains bound by future desires they block the tirade of jobcentre queues gentle on the breeze where chapters bind us (lost words) roar to the core animal entrapment they hear you calling from far away & freeze in the moment 2/ dissemination murals crack of dawn shadings turning off capitalism’s filth jaws/darkness/hunches towards failing light along a promenade at midnight fools’ gold folds into sea entry into schools/teachers decapitated from knowledge fishmongers gone ashore cruelly joke recording debits from credit card union debasement’s brass etchings 3/ judges in plaster-cast moons resulting hybrid benefactors tracing etchings’ steps of wounded soldiers/ their pleas fall on/deaf ears rattling drums/rattle snakes (all) encircled by bankers’ crumbs bestowing on the headland breaking wave gestures tide’s fortitude 4/ fading light surrounds womb plastic cups social discourse returning by memory’s see-saw swing democracy’s wild call – a note from the press motions to sea-sick sailors (come) audio then visual deprivations outside those freezing chessboard nations men in uniforms split their sides castigating new verbs 5/ desperately seeking fortunes idle chatter frays on mudflaps the gin-soaked body of wasted away (passing their sealed lips) stacked crazy artisans rest a while this balance in rear-view mirrors at the factory’s birth akin to 1960’s wallflowers dishing the dirt on helpless presidents context of the beat conflict of defeat bearing witness to eggshell crossroads 6/ dramatic intrigue as shoelaces recapture stepping gundogs which sniff the air (walking) charitable cops disregarding replica prime ministers fooled into lapsing to another doggy language howling in this aftermath where days emblazon new colours for old spring collections daffodils worn in the emptiness as unemployment discolours 7/ junk heart stakes out gentle malnutrition seedlings posing perpendicular prosedy across choppy sea disasters as gesticulating bureaucrats wander deserts & gypsy hymns decline racial origin forceful adjectives hasten to kaleidoscopic horizons traces on the shoreline passing scoundrels declare gaping wounds of love then whisked off by amateur chauffeurs each with splendid haircuts from 1958 movies & delicate bone structures carve intimate knowledge across these cracks of desire
Clive Gresswell is a 65-year-old innovative writer and poet with many publications to his name. His sixth poetry book, a 16,000-word stream-of-consciousness prose poem Shadow Reel, will be available through Amazon in July.
Poetry from Nozima Ulo’g’uva
MOTHER This time I got a pen, for you mom, I was looking for words like your kindness. Dare to go today Just wanted to say I'm fond of you Actually you are my endless verse, I have hidden in the bottom of my heart. Mother, mother, I've said it a thousand times, You are my sun, the light in my eyes. Sometimes I couldn't speak my mind, I couldn't stand and hug you! Sorry, I couldn't kiss your hand. I wish these days would come back, mother I wish I could honor you, mother. The education you gave me has blossomed today. I took a place in the heart of teachers. Your bitter words opened my eyes, You, my friend, are full of advice! You planted a seedling with hope, You will be the best gardener. With praise, applause, recognition, You will be a perfect mother! CONGRATULATIONS TO THE YOUNG PEOPLE The Uzbek people are young people, Lover of youth. Respectfully, An uplifter. Young people are ours, Owners of our tomorrow. Our pride is our honor, Trusts of our country. Be wise, smart, Intelligence is unique to you. Smart kids like you Suitable for great ancestors. Today is a beautiful holiday, Let it be forever. Be happy, be happy, be happy Congratulations from the bottom of my heart. Dear President, Attention is ours. Today is a celebration, All boys and girls!
Nozima Ulug’ova was born on October 13, 2001 in “Yosh gayrat” neighborhood, Shorchi district, Surkhandarya province. He graduated from the 37th general education school in the Shorchi district and at the same time, the Nukus branch of the State Institute of Arts and Culture of Uzbekistan “Art Studies” 3rd-level student of the department “Dramaturgy of Stage and Screen Art”. In 2022, his creative author collections “Mother for you” and “Salvation” were published and gained their readers. At the same time, his creative story is among the young artists of Uzbekistan. “Culture”, “Creative Flight”, “Women and Time”, “Surkhan Youth”, “Morning Star” are examples of creativity in our republic. It is covered in newspapers, “Gulkhan” magazine and “Nurli Jol” newspaper of Kazakhstan. The young penman did not limit himself to creativity, but participated in conferences and scientific meetings in prestigious journals with a factor recognized by OAC with about 20 scientific articles, pamphlets and theses.”Samarkand Youth Forum 2021″ “Uzbekistan Development Forum 2021” Participant of several forums and conferences, festivals and seminars. Nozima Ulug’ova in Personal development & Step into the international sphere Course, because he was able to show his activity and interests in the fields of literature and art in this course .Creativity Forum for Culture, Arts and Peace International member, Active member, working Group of International writers “Jontous por las Letras” Iqra Foundation has received membership offers from several international organizations in its field.
Poetry from Chris Butler
Eight Day Weeks Between sunny Sundays and blue Mondays, laid a day so dark and full of hate that it shall not be named. Gray There's no black, there's no white. There's no wrong, there's no right. There's no good, there's no evil. There's no dark, there's no light; because just before the looming storm, exists distant, infinite shades of gray. Thoughts and Prayers When a national tragedy becomes just another day and the news is always "BREAKING", grab a letter sized white envelope and fill it with all of the thoughts and prayers from your big heart and your little head, then lick and seal it shut before they escape into the open air, stick on a stamp, and wait until the next day's tragedy for the address to mail it to your child's school. Hello Sorrow Hello Sorrow my first friend, will you allow me to drown in burning rivers of fire water, or float like a hollow log as you hover over the ghostly souls of all who you have met before, until you arrive to make the skies cry, or will you keep me afloat like a log flowing downstream, and we meet again, my last friend. Even When You're Dead Even when you're dead the neurons keep firing ping-zing-bing-ding against the inside of the skull, but tricking others into thinking that figeting, flickering and flinching doesn't mean that you're still living.
Poetry from Vernon Frazer
Pricing Out cream detachment heard a blast within the many and another antic gone disaster commandeering reveals a digital scribble racket * dark songs measured loose bits as sacred deeper, prescient of swollen definition more ale along the water bars flavor bursts replenish filched steel Invigorating the spat unlike no * the bars crack shut their sea against marriage roaming acclamations across the surging gape against the chronically nostalgic as place colors drift no profit comes stainless Cognitive Flight in the Day Cart ontological waters ear from a mattress sea bubbling rise singing postulate shaft zero in monochord plan bookmark prophecy cautious of the weary regret her delay cold vibrations bleed the scratched feats precious militia culpas parroting the sound of wringer memories rotor torment supple slavering wings turn the commissioned jitney his lost waters punctuating rubric plastered cigars numbing forklift patterns dark and strong every supposition doorway requires a widening alcove the slump no victory * a speechless pent scripted percussive exchanging tidal ratcheting reflects mitosis beans with membranes along the garbanzo torn with age laundering the mashed clasp margins stemming rank turn juices the cavernous claims clunk and scratch the discerning frenzy installation desecrated scattered truths the roving self escaped pleasures Christmas Spirited vocalist workbench climb bearded the somnolent hydrant its fin stain a wireless vacancy morbid curls motoring the gray inscription portable volume gone menu a past among therm fetal homecoming revenue manipulated breath pageants (the ravenous breathe frequency mustard) * a stateroom glower from past celebrant boiled the dreamer the delivering shaver curriculum palette temples to spite swallowers only one getaway fired repentance scoreboard a facet achievement the hinterlands a predicated nostrum glimpsing a roast metallurgist cackle before disparity a spectral typescript dreamers ration Current Events Downstream cornered eyeballs lost their mimetic vibrations torn without swords traffic vibrations transformed atonal hamlets while masked the raisin hippies outlined galloping rejection its repression invisibly dentist a pawned handbag spilled their watercourse keep iteration punctuating a dead period darkening ooze nitrous eyeballs burnt a lava memorial forward old crease brickading darkened the stalkers dipping the bloodbath a weary mist welled scattered stapled trickles retrofit removed the newsman A Lost Season Coming Back a sinking dock set flagons steaming a leftward transit lashed a nascent horsewhip a fresco malfunction churning fountains toward ruder color turns the next night cautious conjecture burns rumination greatest hit payola memories the jerk admonished to wait silent over a nominal milestone stowed a disconsolate elastic in the ebb vat last welled out fruition spinning from stucco in dribbles traces their tingle rudiments to fanlight colanders spread through riot repression an empty grip let bandwidth ripple equinox emerges angry tips the ether bottles round billiard asset cruises a sleek atrium habitat infernal meter glints a habit lost to vacuum simulacra subsidy scatters skin play’s tingling symbols BIO Vernon Frazer’s latest poetry collection is Memo from Alamut.
Story from Leslie Lisbona (one of three essays)
Gummy Bears Val and I were in Amsterdam. Queen Elizabeth had just died, and no one was wearing Covid masks anymore. It was cold for September; I wished I had brought warmer clothing. I wore my hoodie and a thin leather jacket, which wasn’t enough. Walking in the Red Light District, Val put his arm around me. “Do you want to get high?” he whispered. Val has a nice voice – deep and seductive – but he asked as if he were certain I would refuse. We were on vacation, just the two of us, without our sons. When I said, “Okay,” he raised his perfectly arched eyebrows and smiled. He bought a brownie edible and some gummies from a “coffee house.” With the goods in the chest pocket of his flannel, we rode our rented bikes back to the hotel and locked them in the front courtyard. If we were going to do this, we shouldn’t be on two wheels. On the way to dinner, we each ate a gummy, so innocent seeming, a candy in the shape of a bear. Walking in Amsterdam was treacherous. Bicycle lanes appeared seemingly out of nowhere, crisscrossed streets, and reappeared where we least expected them. It made us apprehensive and jittery, swinging our heads around and stopping short, catching our breath. We decided to walk in a quieter neighborhood, along the canals and residential streets, as we searched for a restaurant. A few minutes later, Val said, “Do you feel anything?” “Nothing.” “Me neither.” We each ate another bear while the canals twinkled in the night and the houseboats bobbed in the water. Debi, my older sister, used to get high. In the 1970s, when I was 6 and she was 16, we shared a room, a small space where I witnessed her teenage life. When she was stoned, I hated her. She laughed too much and was distant. I didn’t like the pungent odor of the smoke, different from cigarette smoke. I needed her to be her usual caring self, someone who was responsible for me after school. Instead, she and her friends spread out on our twin waterbeds, which were not more than two feet apart. When I came home and smelled the pot, I folded my arms in front of my chest and asked her if she was high. This made her laugh even more. “I’m going to tell Mom,” I would threaten and march off to the living room to watch TV. She made being a teen seem like a disease I wanted to avoid. When I was in high school, I experimented a little, but I never inhaled enough to feel any effects. It had no appeal to me. When a joint was being passed around, more often than not, I just handed it along. Val and I peeked into restaurant windows, looked at the menus posted on the street, and didn’t find anything. Some were too crowded; some didn’t have enough ambiance. Some needed reservations. We walked some more. “How about now?” he asked. “Nothing. You?” “Not a thing.” He broke off a piece of the brownie and gave it to me. “Yum,” I said. It tasted sweet and cloying. “I love chocolate.” He took a bite, too, and put the rest back in his breast pocket. Val and I finally found a restaurant that was neither nice, cool looking, nor appetizing. We were running out of options, and closing time was near. We took seats and wiped down our table with a napkin. While we were eating, Val said something, I don’t remember what. For some reason it made me laugh. “What’s so funny?” he asked. “Nothing,” I said, and then we laughed so much that no sounds came out of our mouths, except for occasional gasps for air and a kind of whine from trying to suppress the laugh. We were attracting attention. After we finished our food, Val paid the bill, and then I grabbed his arm across the table and said, “I don’t think I can walk.” Either he didn’t hear me or he ignored me because he got up and left the restaurant. I hauled myself up, willing my legs to function, knocked into the edge of the table, which didn’t even hurt, and followed him to the street. I hooked my arm into his and followed his lead. I knew I was walking but was not sure how. As if emerging from a blackout, I was standing someplace new. Then there were shouts and screams. I hugged Val and realized that I couldn’t really see. A bicycle swerved around us and then another. We were standing in the middle of a busy bike lane. I tried to open my pink umbrella. I was confused. Was it raining? Why did I have an umbrella in my hand? Val brought my arm down. Time must have passed because again we were standing someplace new. I felt afraid. I didn’t remember how we got there. My mind was flashing on and off, like a slide projector with a missing slide. Val was talking to someone on his phone. It was our son in New Rochelle. Aaron and Oliver were locked out of the house. The key had jammed inside the lock of the front door and broken off. Val was talking with them on the phone, trying to figure out what to do. I said I could open the garage remotely from my phone, and I did. Five minutes later, the boys called again. I asked why they were calling. “Are they okay?” “Yes,” he said. “They got in the house.” “They were locked out?” “Les, we just talked about this.” He looked at me, incredulous. “Are they okay?” I felt panic mounting, almost a sense of hysteria. “What happened to them?” Val told me how I had already let them in with the remote garage code on my phone. “I can’t remember,” I said. But then, like recalling an elusive dream, I did kind of see myself unlocking my phone and punching in a code. “Did I do that?” I was in a fog that was dense, and I couldn’t see my way out. Val said something to me. His sentences seemed so long. I couldn’t follow. I could only absorb a few words at a time. “Can you say the first part of the sentence again?” Suddenly I was standing near the reception desk of our boutique hotel. My mouth was so dry. I felt like coughing. I saw Val grab a beer from the cooler. I asked him for water. Or I thought I did. “Am I talking?” I said. “Huh?” “Am I asking you for water out loud, or am I just thinking it? Am I talking now?” The slide projector brought me to blank slide. When I came to, a bottle of water was in my hand, and we were in the tiny glass elevator going up up up. “Don’t lose me,” I said. And I clutched his arm with both hands. Then we were miraculously in our 129-square-foot room that didn’t have a closet. Our clothes were strewn on a chair and a deep windowsill. I contemplated undressing. As I stood staring at our bed that took up most of the room, Val opened the beer and it sprayed all over my leather jacket that I loved so much. I looked at my suede boots and said, “Oh shit.” I kicked them off along with my socks, took off my gold hoop earrings, and fell into bed. “Please let me wake up okay,” I said as I drifted into unconsciousness. The last thing I heard was Val saying, “Who knows how we will wake up.” His jokes weren’t funny anymore. He wasn’t funny; he was mean. The next day I opened my eyes. The room smelled like beer. The floor was wet, and my boot was resting in a beery puddle. My foot was cold from not being under the covers. “Say something,” I commanded. “That was interesting,” he said. I showered, washed my hair, wiped down my jacket with a cloth, tried to clean my boots, brushed my teeth, and put my gold hoops back on. We went to get breakfast. Val still had the rest of the brownie in his shirt pocket. “Wanna bite with coffee?” he asked. I shoved him. We sat on a bench overlooking the canal. The buttery croissant melted in my mouth, and the warm coffee restored me. I zipped my leather jacket up to my neck and gave him a kiss. “Thanks for getting us back home in one piece.” We got on our bikes and did not return to the Red Light District. We went to the Van Gogh Museum instead.