Blue Screen On (Obsolete Technology)


A preconception shapes the shifting in endless blue waiting until the strength of the signal weathers or the wash in the wash hardens;

or holds in horizontal herds the setting for but not longing; unless the wrist-action rests, waiting for the breathless record...

aching, straining, dissolving

--

A study in reappearing is waiting at 99 edge of two-digital sank just above normal blue screen for prism flash:

Bent shafts of split screen at times so wavery clear that flash dints the log-green soft trade beholden to expectation's blue shrinkage's wrap. Or...

Bulges inverted to other bulges... sequent flashes, stilled kinks, and small osmoses of narration. Or...

Horizontal tension edged in shimmy, jalousie all through... but not thoroughly stripped of yellow; stained in full bluish wet, yet...

Caricature shines through...

a map of distortions... no matter the air or the day of the year distorted the same each repetition. Breakthrough at certain instances forming traditions of twice. Musical epidermal flashes that comprise the stories of anyone's guess.

--

Then the sea comes in clear but dancing on the beach bends the signal...

Longer than legal, but vanished instantly, the same bird flies...

Profiles burst on the scene, but I wait no more follow. Some suggestion of pleasure breaking the expanses. The one lamp that melts through though:

not picture-perfect perfect.


Unwinding



is my euphemism for you-know... of all things I call "activity," what's probably most ruined me, probably my last (whatever) to do before, you know... going to my rest,

my rest, or The rest, or...

I'm not about to unwind this evening. It's not that I've made vows not to; it's that I've unwound twice today already – you know, euphemism, by default, makes it difficult to guess; it consumes the hours I could be winding. I could be winding, you know...

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Euphemism is resistant to correction. Circumlocution does not free it.


Unwinding

is not moving forward, but languishing, its attention elsewhere...

Half-wound person, I could get used to it, latent responses preventing further unraveling. 

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Residual: The shadows aren't honest, but that's universal. The shouts are meant to focus attention.

Attention!


Unwinding

provokes too much strain now in the actual addiction, a substitute having taken precedence... as more welcoming: catalogs, memories, masterlessly construed, jogged out of heart rhythm, you see, I like the, uh,

but the mother in me doesn't.

Oh, those trance moments in true trance-nature – that brought my mother running – I remember her tea-cups telescoping.

--
(Confusion... conscious of the context, and the letter "C.")


Unwinding

is the symbol that stands for me, though at this time it does not stand for me, I can't sustain an interest. I've entered a deeper erasing. Euphemism is hiding from me. Through its protective core and its protective layer, it casts its iron vote for me, my proxy, it goes and stands in for me.

--
Boomerang euphemism: It stands for me; I can't stand it.


Unwinding... "Brutal." You hear the oink in it: The mood shifts, wear it. About that time a boat arrives. The tug of transition. I'm hoping the energy holds.

It folds.

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My errors conspiring against me. 


Back There

Something is coming home to me, but it's taking its time getting here. Looking for clues in my thoughts earlier, I'd have to say: "I'm not looking for fame, just more confidence."

And a number of other things I'm ashamed of, like my tongue loosening, as I sing, "my tongue loosening, my tongue loosening, my tongue, loosening my tongue, loosening my tongue" to every note of Santana Abraxas. Every note.

And other such thoughts while I was driving down from Tahoe tonight, such as:

"Back there? what's."

I really did think that earlier. I don't know what to think of that now.

--

The moon was hanging over Hangtown as I wound down the curves, thinking again, "My car, my life!"

And as I've said so many times: "How a life can be reincarnated in the same life so many times and still not feel the strain (or mystery) gets me!"

And nothing more.

Except "what good is Art? It can't substitute for loneliness," and "I can never be completely confident," and "Fame is no measure of success."

And "Safety is no excuse," and "What the future is is very hard to interpret."

--

But.

Let me see if I can back up over this: I was thinking of the magnitude of a person, how one's could put another one's lights out, disable him (and here was thinking of specific persons). And also I thought of how I was my car spinning... its wheels, so? spinning its wheels it is. And spinning there in the corner by the statice flowers, an unclaimed memory of what I was thinking back there, which was, uh...

Shoot, it's not coming. It was, it was, just before I turned my head to think, "I am my car spinning..." It was... (?)

It's lost!

No! I was thinking what would they, anyone, want with Nothingness? but that... that thought was in a context I can't retrieve at the moment because I am concentrated on this task of reworking th..., reworking th... Oh, well...

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Break: Well, I spaced out. And to get spaced back in, I thought I ought to concentrate on what I am right now, which is... spaced out. Oh, yeah, identities. I've had three or more. I keep vacillating, as if the change was not secure. I just don't feel like I have much hold on it, then I do. I won't go into it, but then I do.

I guess I'm still confused, and it isn't settled – but no, what was the point, it had to do with outline, no, not the border, not the edge, no, it lingered up in the birches and was lost.

"Up in the birches and was lost?" What do I mean? I mean that like a butterfly a brilliant insight has flitted from me.

In trying to embrace the image as it wobbled out of the puzzlebox... oh, I give up, I know it's incomplete, I don't know why it's fuzzy out of reach, or why it keeps slipping behind a cloud... It is a cloud, isn't it? It's a blackout cloud rising from the peak and heading towards me at one-hundred-thousand miles per hour, brace myself! it's ready to break, ah, just like the milky-warm waters off the Bermuda coast:

(.   .)

--

Here the art ends and the complaining begins.

--

I find this sort of backtracking at the end of my thinking, and though the thought is moot, I keep on going, I keep on going, until I have something to say:

I don't have much to say at this point.

I don't have much to say at this point, either. Soon I begin to see the parallels between my now looking back over my thoughts, and, and...

the Tie-in!

maybe.

Christmas Time!

There comes this holiday
It’s not just any other day!
The world has placed a strong value on it
People are always on the verge of doing the feat
Gifts, presents and other great substances are exhibited
The celebration galore is always depicted
All and sundry are in the mood of merriment
It’s the time for enjoyment
Compliments of its season are heard everywhere
The best of complimenting outfits kids wear
Love for one another becomes obvious
The event is indeed glamorous
Celebrating the birth of the Savior of the world is the reason some religions mark this holiday
This happens on the Dec.25th day
To some, it’s a time for sober reflections;
To determine their New Year’s Resolutions
To others, it’s the time for rest;
To prepare their minds for the best
To the business people, it’s time for sales;
To make efforts to work out yielding profit scales.
It’s simply celebration time!
It’s simply called Christmas Time!




The Christmas Proper

Jingle Bells I hear
The Horse’s Ride I care
Christmas bunnies I yearn
Boxed presents I earn
Decorations I learn
Santa Claus I fear
The Amusement park I visit
The Grotto I sit
Friends and families I have fun with
The fun I live everyday with
The Festivity I can’t afford to falter
The very reason I recognize The Christmas Proper

a football party
at a house across the street—
yellow moon grows full



chickpeas & brown rice . . .
a spider climbs down a thread
to investigate



leaves are blown from trees—
the driver with a flashlight
asks for directions



in the chicken coop
a few mice scurry away . . .
the cold autumn wind



bare tree silhouettes
against the cloudy night sky—
the dog sniffs dead leaves



crescent moon at dusk—
the squirrels’ nests are revealed
in the bare branches



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bio/graf

J. D. Nelson (b. 1971) experiments with words in his subterranean laboratory. His poems have appeared in many small press publications, worldwide, since 2002. He is the author of ten chapbooks and e-books of poetry, including Cinderella City (The Red Ceilings Press, 2012). Nelson’s poem, “to mask a little bird” was nominated for Best of the Net. Visit http://MadVerse.com for more information and links to his published work. His haiku blog is at http://JDNelson.net. Nelson lives in Colorado, USA.

There’s a Man in the Habit of Hitting Me on the Head with an Umbrella

(Spanish title: Existe un hombre que tiene la costumbre de pegarme con un paraguas

en la cabeza)

(Translated from the Spanish by Clark M.
Zlotchew)

by Fernando Sorrentino

There’s a man in the habit of hitting me on the head with an umbrella. It makes exactly five years today that he’s been hitting me on the head with his umbrella. At first I couldn’t stand it; now I’m used to it.

I don’t know his name. I know he’s average in appearance, wears a gray suit, is graying at the temples, and has a common face. I met him five years ago one sultry morning. I was sitting on a tree-shaded bench in Palermo Park, reading the paper. Suddenly I felt something touch my head. It was the very same man who now, as I’m writing, keeps whacking me, mechanically and impassively, with an umbrella.

On that occasion I turned around filled with indignation: he just kept on hitting me. I asked him if he was crazy: he didn’t even seem to hear me. Then I threatened to call a policeman. Unperturbed, cool as a cucumber, he stuck with his task. After a few moments
of indecision, and seeing that he was not about to change his attitude, I stood up and punched him in the nose. The man fell down, and let out an almost inaudible moan. 

He immediately got back on his feet, apparently with great effort, and without a word again began hitting me on the head with the umbrella. His nose was bleeding and, at that moment, I felt sorry for him. I felt remorse for having hit him so hard. After all, the man wasn’t
exactly bludgeoning me; he was merely tapping me lightly with his umbrella, not causing any pain at all. Of course, those taps were extremely bothersome. As we all know, when a fly lands on your forehead, you don’t feel any pain whatsoever; what you feel is annoyance.

Well then, that umbrella was one humongous fly that kept landing on my head time after time, and at regular intervals.

Convinced that I was dealing with a madman, I tried to escape. But the man followed me, wordlessly continuing to hit me. So I began to run (at this juncture I should point out that not many people run as fast as I do). He took off after me, vainly trying to land a blow.

The man was huffing and puffing and gasping so, that I thought if I continued to force him to run at that speed, my tormenter would drop dead right then and there.

That’s why I slowed down to a walk. I looked at him. There was no trace of either gratitude or reproach on his face. He merely kept hitting me on the head with the umbrella.

I thought of showing up at the police station and saying, “Officer, this man is hitting me on the head with an umbrella.” It would have been an unprecedented case. The officer would have looked at me suspiciously, would have asked for my papers, and begun asking
embarrassing questions. And he might even have ended up placing me under arrest.

I thought it best to return home. I took the 67 bus. He, all the while hitting me with his umbrella, got on behind me. I took the first seat. He stood right beside me, and held on to the railing with his left hand. With his right hand he unrelentingly kept whacking me with
that umbrella. At first, the passengers exchanged timid smiles. The driver began to observe us in the rearview mirror. Little by little the bus trip turned into one great fit of laughter, an uproarious, interminable fit of laughter. I was burning with shame. My persecutor,
impervious to the laughter, continued to strike me.

I got off —we got off— at Pacífico Bridge. We walked along Santa Fe Avenue.

Everyone stupidly turned to stare at us. It occurred to me to say to them, “What are you looking at, you idiots? Haven’t you ever seen a man hit another man on the head with an umbrella?” But it also occurred to me that they probably never had seen such a spectacle.
Then five or six little boys began chasing after us, shouting like maniacs.

But I had a plan. Once I reached my house, I tried to slam the door in his face. That didn’t happen. He must have read my mind, because he firmly seized the doorknob and pushed his way in with me.

From that time on, he has continued to hit me on the head with his umbrella. As far as I can tell, he has never either slept or eaten anything. His sole activity consists of hitting me. He is with me in everything I do, even in my most intimate activities. I remember that
at first, the blows kept me awake all night. Now I think it would be impossible for me to sleep without them.

Still and all, our relations have not always been good. I’ve asked him, on many occasions, and in all possible tones, to explain his behavior to me. To no avail: he has wordlessly continued to hit me on the head with his umbrella. Many times I have let him have it with punches, kicks, and even —God forgive me— umbrella blows. He would
meekly accept the blows. He would accept them as though they were part of his job. And this is precisely the weirdest aspect of his personality: that unshakable faith in his work coupled with a complete lack of animosity. In short, that conviction that he was carrying
out some secret mission that responded to a higher authority.

Despite his lack of physiological needs, I know that when I hit him, he feels pain. I know he is weak. I know he is mortal. I also know that I could be rid of him with a single bullet. What I don’t know is if it would be better for that bullet to kill him or to kill me.

Neither do I know if, when the two of us are dead, he might not continue to hit me on the head with his umbrella. In any event, this reasoning is pointless; I recognize that I would never dare to kill him or kill myself.

On the other hand, I have recently come to the realization that I couldn’t live without those blows. Now, more and more frequently, a certain foreboding overcomes me. A new anxiety is eating at my soul: the anxiety stemming from the thought that this man, perhaps
when I need him most, will depart and I will no longer feel those umbrella taps that helped me sleep so soundly.

Fernando Sorrentino
http://www.fernandosorrentino.com
fersdelaakd@gmail.com

Clark M. Zlotchew
clark.zlotchew@fredonia.edu

HUNGRY FIRE  

Here is a debutante 
Burning on a hungry fire
That is sparkling and searing 
Chewing the nerves in her chest 
Gulping the blood in her spleen 
Though not satiated 
The fire is hissing like the sound a snake might make
Symbol of hungriness written on the wall of her hub
Designed by blue flames 
She feels the hungry fire burning and burning 
The fire to flow like water that flows in the ocean 
The fire to glow like a candle that glows in the dark 
The fire to sparkle like freshly fallen snow that sparkles in winter 
This fire is felt not seen 
I feel hungry fire burning in me too.

Aisha MLabo writes from Katsina,Nigeria,and is a Law student of Umaru Musa Yar'adua University Katsina Nigeria.

Paris the touch of Oomph
Dr. Emdadul Hoque Mamun


Oh Paris! 
your sparkling of light yours
Nobility draws me like a drug always
towards you, the impersonation slender aspect
And its hypnotic appeal to put me to sleepless
night, Your drunken drinks continue to mesmerize myself in the land of dreams. 
I feel the touch of your Love and I am Enjoying this sinking, And Drown willingly,
Your young ladies Plump breasts soaked
in red wine, find out Juicy taste of genitalia
To swimming in the lake of love! You are the city
of sex, you are the city of taste, I know your are
the Pilgrimage of all Art and Literature. All the
glittering beauty that bears is on you body you
Like a fantasy city my lover! Your acridity of
Oomph touch me and and drug me from the
distance of thousand of miles. The pride of Eiffel Tower, Paris Gate, Bastille Fort, Night Clubs, 
Being lost in the story at the sleepless night cafe, By the Sipping champagne Creation poetry of a Poet, 
If God give me the option,What do you want? Paris or Heaven?I will put Paris ahead. 
Here is everything in life receipts are hidden. 
Paris is your tasteI am still spending sleepless nights in hope, evergreen Paris, 
keep me in your touch to get the touch of Love and Oomph.