Mind that Lost

 

The earth is crowded with people

So busy with so many works

Sleeping is also one kind of them

I know I sleep I know what I bent to

I know the mind abstracted from that world

I know I see the two doves how

They make love each other

You are delivering the lecture

Sitting just before the dais

Eyes rush to the birds

On the branch of a tree

How they make love

Sometimes talking with you

I lost myself far from reach

I think alone floating on the sea

But I know I am always with you

As usual so many performances to do

The mind goes to where I reside or not

You watch so careful

Love you dear as yet you take care.

 

 

 

Kadamba Flowers

 

Kadamba flowers blooming in the tree

Appear to be the glittering stars in the sky

The glowing sparks with white

Kadambas yellowish covered with softness

You are my love, my dear

Trodden over hundred times by the children with me

Then I knew not the value of you

Now I observe and realize how valuable you are!

When I see you after so many years

Golden touch lurking in the sky

I am under the kadamba tree

I am under the loving care

I am under the kadamba tree

I am under moonlit sky

I am under the kadamba tree

I am under the shady leafy light

Blooming around the tree

In touch of you

Oh softness! My loving dear. 

 

 

 

 

 

Torment

 

My whole body is tormenting

The world seems to be dull and hazy

Smoky all the sights

Where can I resort?

O dear, you are so near so far

So dreamy so real

Face to face I stand I sit down I lie

Swings my head to the loving face

Forms the heart to beat without break

Love you all the elements

You and I like to

I know you don’t see the burning heart

I pass the night living and dying,

Wavers the head and heart

Keeping my hand on the breast

Feel like burning the bricks in the furnace

In the morning while waking up

I see the earth totally hazy

Why dear, came to me and went away

Throwing me in the tormenting darkness?

 

 

A Piece of the Moon

 

You are my piece of the moon

I am the other part

The two makes the one focusing light on the earth

I am the dress of you, you are mine

We are so closed as the seen and the unseen

Both are the fundamental to give us force and sense

We are the one to cope with the world

To walk and run, sleep and dream

Go to the park, come back to home

See the woods and waters

Break the silence of heart and roar together 

We are the invention of the new

To go from one part of the earth to the another

Where there will be no light if one is absent there

Here act all the things that we need for getting together

Passion, emotions, love, sympathy, affection, mutual respect

And what not to move forward with joy and regulation

O sorry, I am going too much

Dear, no time please start.

 

 

 

 

At  Noon

 

Its noon and too hot to go out

The scorching sun burns the skin and the whole body

Though it’s the rainy season

In the silence of the noon

The leaves of the trees are oscillating

Suddenly the birds’ call stir me

I see through the window

All the leaves of life

Green lives, some yellowish

But the sound of the cock’s crow

Appears to be the same the years ago

Now I am at the middle of my life

Trembling in the wind outside the room

Thrived the moments bit by bit

Spark on my eyes

My eyes became closed 

I lost myself in sleep

The world waited for some while

It was then come back to light.

 

Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh

19/06/2018

 

In a winter night

It was a burning winter night
Falling snow a white in light
It sprinkled on trees all bright
It was an unending smile of delight
A cold wind was blowing from far away,
And it made the trees rustle like living things
Within the winter a spring is promised

She was my muse on that frozen dark
Wrapped me in a blanket of love
And kept my heart warm like a furnace
The warmth of her love revamped me into
A dancing spring with blissful heart
Our lips made for each other
And our bare body melted each other

I was in a fairy land of imagination
To know was nothing at all; but,
To imagine was everything for me
It was wider than the sky; and
It was worth more than I imagine!
I had a universe inside my mind
Where flowers bloomed with ecstasy
Butterflies flied high as kites
Love requires imagination
More than experience
So, I am just an imagination!!!

An ugly hand chasing a butterfly 

It fluttered around the garden
Then gently floated over
And landed on the flower and flirted
It was a beautiful yellow butterfly
The wigs of it kiss the sun when flying high
The strands on it’s wings shimmered!

A flying flower sprouted a few minutes ago
The graceful rise and fall of its dance
Gripped my whole attention and suddenly
It made my heart a caterpillar and
It turned into another butterfly!
It sang a wonderful song of love

Butterflies are angels sent from heaven
To bring us luck, happiness, and riches
They are the embodiment of myth
And, planet’s tragic heroines
No one can chase a butterfly for so long
Yet again an ugly hand chasing it for so long!!!

©-Vijay P Nair -2019

Cat Tales, Kitty Capers by LaVera Edick

Cat Tales, Kitty Capers is a true story of the many antics and personalities of the author’s pets through the years. The first part of the book is the story of an elderly woman named Ruth and the animals she took in and loved. It is about the unconditional love that animals give to us and how they can teach children responsibility by caring for them. She points out the many health benefits that animals can provide to their human benefactors. This is a book that is absolutely perfect for any age group to read. I absolutely loved it. this is a book that will leave you smiling for hours after you read it.

LaVera Edick’s Cat Tales, Kitty Capers is available here from publisher Book Venture. 

 

 

 

 

 

Trees Unlimited by Clem Masloff

Trees Unlimited is a suspense novel about a man, Gimel Vexa and his daughter Lea. Gimel is a collector of valuable and rare leaves. He and his daughter are invited to Tochslvania by the plantation owner Mem Samekh. Mem has more sinister plans than to just sell his expensive and rare collection of leaves. Then Thav, Mem’s sister is taken hostage by one of the native aborigines. At this turn of events Gimel Vexa finds out what kind of a person Mem really is. Trees Unlimited will most definitely keep the reader engaged until the end. It is a short book but not short of suspense. Trees Unlimited is a perfect read for teen to adult. I highly recommend it.

Trees Unlimited is available here through publisher Book Venture.

First of all, especially as this issue fortuitously deals with memories, we need to take some time to remember the life of our past editor and contributor, Tony LeTigre. He passed away suddenly in a car accident Saturday, January 19th. 

He sent poetry and short stories and essays in to this publication over the past several years and created a few editorial letters. His work was nominated multiple times for Sundress Publications’ annual Best of the Net writing awards, and he was also a fellow zine creator and an accomplished oil painter, and an advocate for the homeless. He attempted to turn his peripatetic, impoverished, yet non-materialistic intellectual life into a work of art alongside his written and visual creations.

Here are a few highlights of Tony’s work, here, here, here and here. And an editorial letter which he put together a few years ago.

Memorial gathering is tentatively scheduled for Thursday night, April 4th at St. John’s Episcopal Church on Julian St in San Francisco at 7pm. May change though, please do check back as we will post an updated announcement if needed. You may also email us at synchchaos@gmail.com if you would like to stay in the loop and we will keep you posted.

We are also hosting a general literary gathering for everyone in San Francisco near the end of the month for San Francisco Bay Area locals, and we will keep you posted on that as well.

Now, February 2019’s issue of Synchronized Chaos concerns the telescoping view our psyches can take of our existence and our place in the universe, expanding or contracting time depending on our perspective and stage of life.

Memories and storytelling: how and what we remember

Norman J. Olson opens with a travelogue of his European travels, beginning with a cruise out of Florida, then a visit to the works of Michelangelo, Gaudi, Picasso and Raphael.  Jeff Rasley relates his trek up the Himalayas with enthusiasm for the adventure and appreciation for the people of the region who joined his travels.

Jonathan Butcher shares poetic memories of places of past mental and physical labor: preparing food in a restaurant and processing emotions. J.D. DeHart commemorates the journey into a new year, mourning a loss but yet not looking back to the past. His other pieces involve stepping back and looking at circumstances from a certain distance to gain perspective.

 

Grief and loneliness, end of life and regret

Michael Robinson brings a vignette concerning a lonely elderly woman he meets while staying in a nursing home, while Joan Beebe writes in a short piece of sighs and memories, grief and nostalgia. 

David Boski writes of old age, grief and loss, as well as the visceral realities of conflict and excretion, while Rajnish Mishra explores similar themes in a less grotesque style, along with concerns about what sort of world to create for his child.

J.J. Campbell again treads the ground of loneliness and disappointment, yet explores sentiment and sentimentality amidst the pain. Ian Copestick speaks to us of lonely, dead times of the week, as well as the personal isolation of poverty.

 

The often non-linear way our mind processes time 

John Middlebrook probes how the mind comprehends our existence with pieces on various liminal, in between spaces, including dreamtime and evening. He lends the theme to this issue with his piece about seeing the world from the ‘big end of the telescope,’ where the past becomes clear, small and far away enough to organize in one’s mind.

Michael Robinson contributes another piece, another reflection on the nursing home, where time slows down while one is sick or at the end of one’s life.

 

Our complex and mysterious inner psyche

Alejandra Garzon shapes mixed media photo art to augment a photograph to illustrate the inner life of her characters. Ricky Garni’s surrealistic poems start off one way and go in a completely different direction from what the reader might expect.

In Mark Young’s work, words and lines flow together. The literal meanings of words don’t connect but the phrases and style of writing unify together into a mosaic poem. 

In John Patrick Robins’s piece, an author can’t figure out a book review he receives. It’s not negative, just inexplicable.

Ryan Quinn Flanagan regales us with a set of scattershot vignettes and glimpses into regular life’s quirky moments.

 

How we figure out who we are, our place in the cosmos

Robert Ragan relates a story about an incompetent, yet enterprising, homeless man. His take on human nature is ironic, as both his homeless and non-homeless characters hold a cynical view of human nature and seek to prove their expectations right.

Ezekiel Jarvis’ piece probes the fine line a police officer has to walk to behave ethically, the constant moral and physical danger of the occupation.

Ivan Jenson gives a humorous look at the mental arithmetic we use to make life decisions, while Elizabeth Hughes, in her Book Periscope column, explores books which invite contemplation of one sort or another. These include Linda Orber and Deborah Simmons-Roslak’s devotional Love, God, Clem Masloff’s psychological sci fi The Amphibiots, Nisha Singh’s Sherlock Holmes’-inspired Bhrigu Mahesh, and Rosa Mae’s poetry collection Reaching Out to Kindred Souls. 

 

More abstract exploration of the role of humans in the universe, and the role of an individual

Jaylan Salah analyzes Camille Preaker’s character in the HBO series Sharp Objects through a gendered lens. Here is a woman who struggles, who is vulnerable, and is also conventionally attractive, yet without being sexualized for the male gaze.

Allison Grayhurst offers up a long pilgrimage of a piece, about someone learning to connect, forgive, love, and take part in the broader universe. Dan Cardoza writes of the natural world, gardens, hills and weather, and human thoughts and feelings are interwoven into the natural scenes.

Christopher Bernard reviews Eunice Odio’s new poetry collection The Fire’s Journey: Part III – an ambitious oeuvre that encompasses the creation of the world and human, male and female, psychological entities.

 

 

It was a mystery to us all.

“Man I’ve had some shit reviews but never one that I couldn’t understand.”

All my friends read it and yet none could explain.

The four star review and the weird ass comment .

We all speculated but this mystery remained unsolved.

The hipster critic and editor had created a legend within itself.

I rather crack a bottle than crack a code.

Some mysteries are best left unsolved.

R.T.C Arthur.

Leonardo da Vinci doesn’t have shit on you.

—

John Patrick Robins 

Is the editor of both the Rye Whiskey Review and Under The Bleachers.

His work has appeared in.

Synchronized Chaos , The San Pedro River Review , The Move River Review , Ariel Chart , Red Fez, Stanzaic Stylings, Angry Old Man Magazine , Horror Sleaze Trash, Outlaw Poetry Network, Piker Press,

He is the author of Smoking At The Gas Pumps published by Soma Publishing .

And A Cold Beer Beats A Warm Heart .

Published by Alien Buddha Press.

His work is always unfiltered.

The Devil Plays All His Own Records Backwards

just to see what all the fuss

is about

scratches the shit out of them

on this used turntable he picked up

at a yard sale seven months ago

and there are no hidden messages

that he can make out

not even a few of his own

and he looks at the album cover

then back to the record

before tossing it into the fire

and getting the next one

out of its sleeve.

Police Are Searching for a Doorbell Licker

I saw his picture on a black and white camera.

They say he walked up to this place at night

and licked the doorbell for over three hours.

Out in California.

Now that takes some serious dedication.

I’m guessing germs are not a large worry

for this chap.

His tongue raw with effort.

Dry as redwood kindle

If you see this man,

hide your palms in your pockets.

The doorbell was not so lucky.

Veggie Patches and the Mistress

The world is absurd.

People walk around acting like everything

is reasonable which makes things

more absurd.

I guess they need to pretend there is

some order to things,

some guiding principle behind

it all.

I know better.

I lock the door behind me.

Shut off all the lights.

You wouldn’t even know I am there.

Pulling at old skin tags.

Thinking about veggie patches

and the mistress.

Not mine, someone else’s.

I don’t have a mistress.

The whole idea of a mistress is absurd.

Like chewing on a pen cap for it’s obvious

nutritional value.

I don’t think I can hold out much longer.

My gnarled spine crawling up my back

and out my nose.

The freshly shaven face like a clean slate.

The mincemeat clarity of sound check

distortion pedals.

A knock at the door

and I am standing in the bathtub.

Sewing heart transplants onto old teddy bears

so the markets don’t crash like cars

in traffic.

Ugly Mug

I don’t think the poem is beautiful.

Everyone says it’s beautiful and everyone else

says it’s ugly and somewhere in the middle

is a fence you get sit on as long as the owners

aren’t home.

I don’t want the poem to be beautiful.

Ugly is okay, but never just for the sake of ugliness.

That fence could be torn down in no time,

but everyone seems to like it.

I don’t climb on poems

or write fences into yards.

Ugly is preferable.

The poem is not beautiful.

Crash Diets Should Not Involve Cars

 

You expect as much

in California

but the underground

parking spaces

sneak up on you

your truck

is not on a diet

the cameras

show your many attempts

at backing

a beluga whale

into a

shoebox.

Windy City Poem (for Alyssa Trivett)

You got that windy city

wind as well

and it’s really that

biting wind

that cuts through everything

and brings the cold

to the bone.

She tells me I have written a poem

without trying.

I decide that she is right

and that this one

is for her.

1% Burn

If you burn your genitals, it’s a 1% percent burn,

she says out of nowhere.

If you burn your genitals, it’s 1% of your body mass.

I suddenly wonder why she is telling me this.

If she thinks I will burn my genitals or am planning to

in the near future.

Maybe she is planning on burning them

and this is her way of telling me.

Her face down in the NCLEX nursing book.

Maybe she is just thinking out loud.

I don’t say anything.

Men seldom do when it comes

to burning genitals.

Her nursing exam is in a few weeks.

My genitals might be on it.

Untimely

They always say it is “untimely”

as though Death can be

anything but “untimely.”

Like there’s ever a good time

to die.  Even the oldies still feel

they have a little more left.

A few years of arthritis and old war stories

and beer.

But the obits always say “untimely.”

I have half a mind to put one in

that says such a Death was timely.

Like clockwork.

Couldn’t wait for that mean bastard

to kick it.

And just when the son of a bitch

looked as though he was panicking

and wanted to confess to anything – BOOM!

Don’t betray yourself now.

Go out just as you came in.

This nostalgia after the fact is nothing but guilt.

Manufactured or otherwise.

Seems death is always “untimely” unless you are

a hitman and paid for said death.

Still, the family will think it “untimely”

and say as much in the papers.

Barrie Anne Gardens

was the Compton

of the North

for poor families

just starting out

maybe it has changed now

they seem to be levelling everything

to the ground

and erecting condos

with extra fees

these days

but this was knife

fight central

back in the day

lots of wives with unexplained bruises

along the bus path

which was a selling point

as I screamed for milk

because I was still

a baby

my father in accounting

and my mother in damn near

everything else

as long as it paid

and we could make rent.

Front Loader

I stand over the toilet

and think of front loaders

in gravel pits

wiggling the thing around

when I’m done.

If I were a back loader

I would sit down.

Spread the cheeks

like spreading the love.

Fearful Symmetry

I could go right down the line. All of the bullshit. Start small, with those little pricks who are polite to your face but who you know call you a pig twenty seconds later. Probably because they think that the black kids do and that’s cool to them.  They’re not terrible, but they grind you down, not being able to call them out, because you know their parents would pitch a fit.

But that’s still kind of small time. Take the Black Lives Matter crap. I get it that their neighborhoods are tough. I’m called to them enough that I get it. But what are we supposed to do, not arrest any black people? I’d like to see them try to be a white cop. Good fucking luck. If you go easy, the people from the neighborhood will expect you to always back down, and your buddies are done trusting you. If you’re too much of a hardass, you could lose your job after a couple of people complain or you could be the target of some thug. Damned if you do, damned if you don’t.

And then, on top of all that, there’s that fucking tiger. They said it was supposed to be like a mascot or something. I don’t know why it would be a tiger. We’re in the middle of a fucking city. But they keep the tiger right where we all come in. Stupid, right? And I asked what the deal was. I asked Morris, “You going to just let this thing stay out here?” So what does the prick say? He doesn’t look at me, but he says, “Out of my hands.”

I tried asking him whose hands the tiger was in, but you know how it goes. By the end, he just said, “Look, as long as you don’t do anything to agitate the tiger, you have nothing to worry about.” Like it’s up to me not to rile up a god damned tiger. Like if something happens it’s my fault.

You’d think that everyone felt that way, but leave it to fucking Evans to take Morris’s side. A bunch of us were talking, and pretty much all of us agreed that this whole tiger thing was bullshit. But then Evans said, “It smells fear. You have to not be afraid.” Now think about that for a minute. There’s a deadly creature that you have to see every fucking day. You can’t not. And you’ve been told not to agitate it, and then you’re told that if you’re afraid, you’re agitating it. Makes a lot of sense, right?

And don’t tell me that nothing’ll happen. Just yesterday, Jameson got his face clawed. Yeah, Jameson was being stupid, trying to take a selfie with the tiger, but, come on. Bringing that thing in, we were just asking for trouble. It’s just common sense. But nobody knows what it’s like, and that’s why nobody gives a fuck, and that’s why it’s not going to get better. Go fucking figure.