Why Am I Sad?
Does that mean I’m lucky? If so,
Then why I don’t remember the dust on my joy?
Has my confidence disappeared with the cigarette ashes?
People age by love poems and happy-ending stories.
Meanwhile, I age by the number of lonesome years.
My brother tried & failed to teach me how to stop crying.
The very first moment I turned 18 eighteen years old,
My grandpa came into my dream and said
“ I’m no longer in trouble to express my mental illness.”
Thirty-four years and yet I shamefully liquoring up and smoke.
Colourless wounds, foggy nightmares and rusty sorrows in me.
Why am I sad? When everything is great but not remarkable.
Soul & Hope
I am riding in the subway again.
Breathless & sweaty melancholy visage,
as if autumn wear my soul & hope.
Her springy perfume permeate in me.
She whispers to the blooms flowers
while I am in sorrow to her dead roses.
I ask her to touch me gently, to kiss me softly.
Will she recall my heart how to bury the past?
I am wild with love, with a lifetime desire.
I am not an widow chair waiting for her dead soilder.
Stand side by side, I need to dream & not fall apart.
Hand in hand, I’m thirsty to explore you in darkness.
DEEP IN THE HEART…
Deep in heart there’s echoing burning voice,
Do not hide it, just open it and rejoice.
God almighty understand us where you zoom,
Anyways, you will face it what fetches doom.
Let that dull stars gossip you let them backbite,
They are only ugly teeth of giggling night.
Oh, my dear, face to the God at any rate,
Because he’s the owner of the workshop of fate.
Shamsiya Khudoynazarova Turumovna (February 15, 1973) was born in Uzbekistan. Studied at the Faculty of Journalism of Tashkent State University (1992-1998). She took first place in the competition of young republican poets (1999). Four collections of poems have been published in Uzbekistan: “Leaf of the Heart” (1998), “Roads to You” (1998), “The Sky in My Chest” (2007), “Lovely Melodies” (2013). She wrote poetry in more than ten genres. She translated some Russian and Turkish poets into Uzbek, as well as a book by Yunus Emro. She lived as a political immigrant with her family for five years in Turkey and five years in Ukraine and currently lives in Switzerland. She is married and the mother of five children.
Temporal Nexus Paradox
In the heart of a mysterious laboratory, Dr. Alexander Greyson, a brilliant scientist, stood before his latest creation: the Temporal Nexus, a device capable of travelling across time and space. With the world's history at his fingertips, Alexander's eyes shined with excitement as he took a good look at the possibilities.
Unable to resist the lure of discovery, he activated the device and found himself standing in the midst of ancient Rome. The magnificence of the Colosseum and the vitality of the bustling streets left him in awe. With each journey, he hopped through centuries, exploring various civilizations and cultures.
However, he didn't know that he made a fateful misstep. During a visit to the Renaissance, he accidentally dropped a small notebook filled with his advanced scientific equations. The notebook fell into the hands of a curious Leonardo da Vinci. Inspired by Alexander's revolutionary ideas, da Vinci's inventions rapidly advanced human progress, altering the course of history.
As Alexander returned to his present, he was greeted by a world unrecognizable to him. Advanced technology appeared, but the cost of this was immense, it created a society which disowned personal connections and brought environmental issues. Desperate to undo the damage he had unwillingly caused, Alexander went back into the past using the Temporal Nexus, determined to retrieve the notebook from da Vinci's possession.
However, each attempt he made to fix the timeline only led to further complications. His actions created a series of paradoxes that rippled through time, threatening to erase him from existence. Stranded in a fractured reality, Alexander realized the consequences of his actions. With the help of a fellow scientist, Christopher Alis, he made a plan together to repair the timeline.
Christopher and Alexander went on a very dangerous trip across different times, dealing with problems and secrets. Together, they raced against time to restore the timeline and ensure Alexander's invention never fell into da Vinci's hands. Their efforts took them from ancient civilizations to distant futures, they were fixing the very essence of how things work in the world.
After countless struggles and close calls, Christopher and Alexander finally managed to set things right. The timeline was restored, and the course of history returned to its original path. With the Temporal Nexus dismantled and the notebook safely back in Alexander's possession, the world once again aligned with its intended trajectory.
After everything calmed down, Alexander thought about the important thing he had learned: how much a single person's actions can affect the course of history. He promised to use his scientific talent to help people and not try to change the past. With a new understanding of how history works, Alexander Greyson felt prepared to move forward and make smart choices because of what he went through.
Nahyean Bin Khalid is a student of grade 7 in Harimohan Government High School, Chapainawabganj, Bangladesh.
A documentary film called “Before Stonewall” looks at the history of the LGBTQ+ community in the US before the Stonewall riots of 1969. The movie includes interviews with LGBTQ+ people who discuss their personal hardships and experiences growing up when homosexuality was stigmatized as a mental disease and outlawed in many places. The early history of the LGBTQ+ rights movement and the numerous social and political developments that led to it are also covered in the movie. In addition to highlighting the injustices and persecution that the LGBTQ+ community endured prior to the Stonewall riots, the movie promotes acceptance and acknowledgement of LGBTQ+ rights. It highlights the tenacity and bravery of LGBTQ+ people who stood up for their rights and set the path for ensuing generations. Overall, the movie gives the LGBTQ+ rights movement a historical backdrop and illuminates the struggles and achievements of the community prior to Stonewall. In this article, I try to analyze the characters and actions in film, logic and emotions of filmmakers. Also, in the end, I provide my own impressions that I gave and feel from this film.
Characters and events in film
As I watched the film, I was able to find some connections to the film and to our current society. Below I will try to explain each of these points.
First and main one is individuals. By this I mean, The movie includes interviews with LGBTQ+ people who discuss their personal problems and experiences growing up in a time when homosexuality was demonized and illegal. The LGBTQ+ community is given a human face, and the prejudice and brutality they experienced are brought to light. Also, the film covers the early LGBTQ+ rights movement, including organizations like the Mattachine Society and the Daughters of Bilitis. These groups played a crucial role in advocating for LGBTQ+ rights and laying the groundwork for future activism.
Secondly, the Stonewall riots. By examining the social and political issues that contributed to the Stonewall riots, the movie places them in their historical perspective. The riots were important because they ushered in a new era of action for LGBTQ+ rights and marked a turning point in the movement.
Last but not least is homosexuality as a mental illness. The American Psychiatric Association defined homosexuality as a mental disease up until 1973, as the movie emphasizes. This part of society is important because it demonstrates how entrenched prejudices against LGBTQ+ people formerly were. Moreover, the movie shows the frequent police raids on gay bars and clubs, which were frequently used as a justification to detain gay people. This social phenomenon is important because it demonstrates the systematic violence and prejudice that the LGBTQ+ community experienced.
Appeals to logic, emotion and prejudice by filmmakers
The filmmakers support their case for acceptance and acknowledgement of LGBTQ+ rights with historical information and expert interviews. They emphasize the pre-Stonewall discriminatory laws and regulations as well as the activism that aided in their reform. In order to persuade viewers of the truth of their claim, the filmmakers give a logical case supported by historical data. The film also plays on viewers’ emotions by including personal accounts and interviews with LGBTQ+ people. The interviews highlight the hardships and accomplishments of the LGBTQ+ community as well as the psychological effects of violence and discrimination. This emotive appeal aims to connect viewers with LGBTQ+ people’s experiences by fostering empathy and understanding in them. The movie also shows the prejudice and discrimination LGBTQ+ people experienced prior to Stonewall. The producers hope to help viewers reevaluate their own biases and prejudices towards the LGBTQ+ community by drawing attention to the systemic discrimination and violence against LGBTQ+ people. The purpose of this appeal to prejudice is to encourage the audience to examine their prejudices and take steps to promote greater inclusion and acceptance.
Conclusion (my recommendations and opinion)
The significant documentary “Before Stonewall” provides background information on the American LGBTQ+ rights struggle. The movie focuses light on the social and political issues that influenced the birth of the LGBTQ+ rights movement and depicts the hardships and victories of the LGBTQ+ community prior to the Stonewall riots. A personal and emotional link to the experiences of the community throughout a period of prejudice and violence is made through the interviews with LGBTQ+ people. The movie also shows how pervasive before Stonewall were biases and prejudices against LGBTQ+ people.
In conclusion, “Before Stonewall” is a thought-provoking, educational and I highly recommend to people to watch this. Because, movie can be a great resource for anybody who are interested in LGBTQ+ history and rights. It can be especially beneficial for people who seek to have a deeper knowledge of the experiences and hardships of the LGBTQ+ community prior to the Stonewall riots. But also, I would like to mention that, the movie might not be appropriate for all viewers, though, given the delicate nature of the subject matter. Therefore, before recommending the movie, it is crucial to take the audience’s tastes and sensitivities into account.
Three Poems
By Chinese Poet Hongri YuanTranslated by Yuanbing ZhangHeaven's Song
In heaven where there has no night.
ln heaven where there has no the sun or the moon.
In heaven where everyone is the stars.
In heaven where the time is the light of the soul.
In heaven where the space is the smile of the soul.
In heaven where I have another name–
I am one of the gods, have no idea
about the sorrows and joys of the word.
01.16.2019
天堂之歌
在天堂没有黑夜
在天堂没有日月
在天堂每个人都是星辰
在天堂时间是灵魂之光
在天堂空间是灵魂的笑容
在天堂 我是另一个名字
是诸神之中的一个 不知人间的悲喜
2019.01.16
Never-withering Flowers from Paradise
I pick the gem flowers from the heavens,
and write a music of memory for you.
Let you suddenly wake up and see the long-lost hometown again
let you ride the melody of light
to fly into the ninety-nine skies.
Where the palaces and towers are yours,
where the gardens are as huge as the universe
and the time will never elapse,
blooming like the never-withering flowers from paradise.
01.16.2020
不知凋谢的仙葩
我采撷天国的宝石之花
为你写一首记忆之曲
让你恍然醒来 再次见到久违的故园
让你乘着光芒的旋律
飞到那九十九层云霄之上
那儿的宫殿楼台 皆是你的所有
那儿的花园巨大 仿佛整个宇宙
而时光永远不会流逝
盛开如不知凋谢的仙葩
2020.01.16
Strings of The Light of Dawn
When I plucked strings of the light of dawn
A golden lightning burned a huge city
The undulating hills in distance twinkled the ruby smile
Vaguely there came acoustic resonance of the bell
from the centervault of heaven
Who have seen that the palace was towering outside the sky
The gods smiled with stately grace and raised their glass
Female celestials shed datura flowers flying all over the sky.
And a large ship approached from another galaxy
They came from a huge platinum city
Their ships were much faster than the speed of light
Ever visited the earth billions of years ago
They brought new technology
To make the steel have a wonderful spiritualism
Their eyes can perceive the heaven and the world
Heart is as bright as the sun
And body is as transparent as diamond
01.13.2018
黎明之光的琴弦
当我弹拨这黎明之光的琴弦
一道金色闪电燃烧了一座巨城
远方起伏的群山闪烁红宝石的笑容
天穹的中央隐隐传来钟磬的和鸣
谁看见那天外的金殿巍巍
诸神庄严含笑
举杯庆贺
天女洒下了漫天的曼陀罗花
而一艘巨轮正在另一个星系驶来
他们来自一座白金巨城
他们的飞船比光速更快
亿万年前曾访问地球
他们带来了新的科技
让钢铁拥有奇妙的灵性
他们的眼睛可透视天地
心灵光灿如太阳
而身体透明如钻石
2018.01.13
Bio:
Hongri Yuan (b. 1962) is a Chinese mystic poet and philosopher. His poetry has been widely published in the UK, USA, India, New Zealand, Canada and Nigeria. He has authored a number books including Platinum City, The City of Gold, Golden Paradise, Gold Sun and Golden Giant.
About the Translator
Yuanbing Zhang (b. 1974), who is a Chinese poet and translator, works in a Middle School, Yanzhou District , Jining City, Shandong Province, China. He can be contacted through his email- 3112362909@qq.com.
Phone:+86 15263747339 Email:3112362909@qq.com
Address:No.18 middle school Yanzhou District ,Jining City, Shandong Province, China
Listen
Food has become my best friend,
and the only thing I can think of to tell younger people
is not to listen to anyone except someone who has done
what you are trying to accomplish.
Believe there is always a way, even if you don't
know how exactly.
Uncertainty is your friend through excitement. Do what makes you happy because before you know it, your life
is almost over.
A hundred years is too long to live because
of your brain's age; it stays younger than the body
permanently and they never equal each other.
But 50 isn't enough time to live. You are still young in comparison
to your last half of life. I would do the first part of life over backward
to avoid reaching 85. Now that I am in the last half, the time moves
faster and faster the older one gets.
Imagine that. No one can explain it to you until it's too late.
Andrea N. Carr is an accomplished writer and storyteller from Southern California. More about her work here.
EPISODES OF NIGHT
Grasshoppers chirp with a loud voice
As if Tashkent is being boiled in bowl.
There, far away, with seductive look
Some prostitutes are smoking cigarette.
Cars are flooding in the magistral
They pause a little without any aim.
From Nexia up to Nissan you may see
Smoke of cigarette is swallowed by fate.
Returning from work, hurrying to home
People are on the road whose shoulders in pain.
They think about sorrows and life problems
However, all their thinking is in vain.
Somewhere an infant is crying nonstop
Maybe he was also abandoned by someone.
Maybe his mother now holding a cup of wine
Sharing her kisses to another man.
Someone is crying and praying for God
Hoping that Almighty will hear his words.
Maybe it is the very day written by his fate
In which all his sins will be forgiven.
Something broke down accidentally
The life of complaint came to its end.
Night, why your embrace is full of sadness?
I thank God that I have reached the dawn.
Sharipova Zuhro Sunnatovna (Zahro Shamsiyya) She was born on April 9, 1969 in the Nurata district of the Navoi region. Her first poem was published in 1985 in the Gulhan magazine. Uzbek publishing houses published works in the journal "Sharq Yulduzi", in the literature and art of Uzbekistan - "Ma'rifat", in various regional and district newspapers. World almanacs in Canada, -2017 in Dubai WBA 2018 "Turkish poets of the world" (Buta 3) 2019, "Muhammad Yusuf izdoshlari" 2017 almanac. She published her book "Ismsiz tuigular."
