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A Love Poem:

When we are in love, we do not whisper,

we do not talk too much, we forget poetry

easily and all it represents in imageries.

We watch an elocutionist stutter in utter

shock. We see a bird sitting on an olive tree

look beyond the grove, look beyond the road,

far into the sea and we stare into the sea

and find deserts in waters. No sea waves

slapping at the shore, no boats, no sailors,

no mullet smoked on a wood oven, no child

building a sand-castle. We wonder why this is

only to see a rice field blighted with diseases,

a child in Maiduguri whorled in shackles

because he is found at the European shore,

running away from war, away from shadows.

Why, Beloved, say I do not love you as you want

but I have sworn upon my mother’s frets

that I do. For what better way I will say you

remind me of poems unwritten, books I wish

to leaf through unopened and words

at their silence? What better way to say

each time I think of your bed, I am gripped by

the hands of a little boy with eyes plucked

out by scavengers? Let the sun set and I will

smoothen your back with musk and saffron,

grab your waist, send chills down your spine.

But I see them still, eating into my sleep,

seated in my eyes— young boys from Aleppo,

old men in Afghanistan spared by bullets.

I love you, Beloved— Amen. Till death do us part.

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Sleeping Beauty

O my darling, don’t be so silly

how long will you be silent

in this sleepy world

I am very hungry

burning my heart,  am always trembling

all the beauties are hidden in this dark light

falling down and dying, find me no more

I know your silence calls me

to move, touch your body

please look at me, a helpless poor lover

my broken heart always fails to do any task

please look at me,  burning my soul and body

there no response without kissing

then started kissing and waking up from bed

you held me with your beautiful eyes.

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Image attached: Scanned copy of original broadside publication of the poem “All Watched Over By Machines of Loving Grace,” Richard Brautigan, 1967.

Review of “Trout Fishing in America,” by Richard Brautigan

Yesterday I finished Trout Fishing in America. The Mayonnaise Chapter closed it out. What a beauty! What a truly unique work of literary art! There is one short chapter that’s an homage to Leonard da Vinci. Most wonderful. Most amusing, throughout.

The final, magisterial sequence, concerning a “used trout stream” sold by lengths in a used merchandise warehouse, is like a pattern connecting a small galaxy of dots, representing the anterior chapters, & bringing them all into sudden comprehension, a whole formed of Lite-Brite pegs.

Brautigan’s attitude is an interesting composite of backwoods, hardscrabble, drink loving fisherman meets beatnik / proto-counterculture era San Francisco. But it was written in 1961, six years before its publication in the year of San Francisco’s eponymous Summer of Love.

Trout fishing runs like a surreal mosaic river through this text, whose chapters & chapter-lets, of different sizes & colorations but of the same general make, glisten up like rainbow trout from their creel, constructed of a lattice of fake recipes (‘Another Method of Making Walnut Catsup,’) oblique film appreciations (‘The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari’), hilarious anecdotes of poverty (‘The Kool-Aid Wino’), & themes of mutants marginalized by society, yet delicious to the author’s curious taste (‘The Hunchback Trout’).

One section lampoons communists, conflating them with police, as likewise agents of state control. I pursued this 113-page poetic jewel of prose like a fisherman overcoming the resistance of a fierce catch, packaged along with The Pill Versus the Springhill Mine Disaster, & In Watermelon Sugar, in my reading volume.

It bears a photograph on the cover, black & white, of Brautigan posing with his lady friend in SF’s Washington Square. The text takes up this photograph for contemplation at intervals, many times. The figures on the cover appear selfconscious, stiff, slightly awkward — yet maybe this is charming.

If I were to select a single passage that moved me most, a strong contender would be “The Last Mention of Trout Fishing in America Shorty,” which I quote in full here:

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Saturday was the first day of autumn and there was a festival being held at the church of Saint Francis. It was a hot day and the Ferris wheel was turning in the air like a thermometer bent in a circle and given the grace of music.

But all this goes back to another time, to when my daughter was conceived. We’d just moved into a new apartment and the lights hadn’t been turned on yet. We were surrounded by unpacked boxes of stuff and there was a candle burning like milk on a saucer. So we got one in and we’re sure it was the right one.

A friend was sleeping in another room. In retrospect I hope we didn’t wake him up, though he has been awakened and gone to sleep hundreds of times since then. During the pregnancy I stared innocently at that growing human center and had no idea the child therein contained would ever meet Trout Fishing in America Shorty.

Saturday afternoon we went down to Washington Square. We put the baby down on the grass and she took off running toward Trout Fishing in America Shorty who was sitting under the trees by the Benjamin Franklin statue. He was on the ground leaning up against the right-hand tree. There were some garlic sausages and some bread sitting in his wheelchair as if it were a display counter in a strange grocery store.

The baby ran down there and tried to make off with one of his sausages. Trout Fishing in America Shorty was instantly alerted, then he saw it was a baby and relaxed. He tried to coax her to come over and sit on his legless lap. She hid behind his wheelchair, staring past the metal at him, one of her hands holding onto a wheel.

“Come here, kid,” he said. “Come over and see old Trout Fishing in America Shorty.”

Just then the Benjamin Franklin statue turned green like a traffic light, and the baby noticed the sandbox at the other end of the park.

The sandbox suddenly looked better to her than Trout Fishing in America Shorty. She didn’t care about his sausages any more either. She decided to take advantage of the green light, and she crossed over to the sandbox. Trout Fishing in America Shorty stared after her as if the space between them were a river growing larger and larger.

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On this simultaneously lachrymose & liberating note, with the image of a potential prey item (a baby, a fish) breaking free of the bait (sausages, salmon eggs), while a marginalized outsider is left in the dust, this beautiful book achieves a poignant crescendo.

And the cryptic Mayonnaise chapter which finishes the book is accompanied, on the final page, by another memorable black & white photograph: of a young woman with long sun kissed hair parted cleanly in the middle, sitting like a disheveled faun amidst what looks like the wreckage of a derelict or demolished building.

I hear that Mr. Brautigan, depressed by the lack of acclaim for his final novel, went out to a beach & quietly shot himself some years ago. I am sorry to hear that, for his work, Trout Fishing in America, deserves to live forever. My hate is off to Mr. Brautigan, who ought to be fishing the best trout stream imaginable right now in the posthumous author lounge of that better world which may or may not exist someplace. That which is now old may be new again; but that which is immune to aging is haute littérature!